A year to make a difference

FIGHTER

Rent account all up to date now thank god can relax
my son is fast asleep again in his own bed
I am going to get him a reward chart tomorrow I am so proud I just hope he stays there


I am looking at going back to college
I am level 2 qualified in motor vehicle maintenance and repair
I didn't progress to level 3 because I found out I was having my son
so I am going to put in an application now and see how things pan out
I have also contacted someone with the view to going to see them about starting a business
I want something ideally I can start from home

FIGHTER

Been rollerskating today. Love it. Use to do it alot before I had my kids but it was nice tspace more than me. Also it will be a great chance to clear some crap out.e them. I did fall trying to avoifmd a small child and I have sprained my wrist it blooming hurts.
Anyway this year I have plans to sort my house so I have been looking at cheap ways to do stuff for it.
I like the cath kidston range but the wallpaper is too expensive however I have found some very similar for a fraction of the price
And I will use money made from surveys to pay for it
I'm going to swap rooms with my daughters. My room is alot bigger and I feel they need the space more than me

FIGHTER

To say my OH is doing my head in is an understatement. Everything he does annoys me.
I went into my piggy bank yesterday I was expecting their to be 70-80 quid. Theres only £33
We go food shopping on a friday spend about 70 quid by monday theirs hardly anything. I've tried to go with the best intention of getting stuff to last but he just ends up putting thale same crap in and I let him to avoid an argument. I did an online food shop just to see how much shopping would be for me and three kids andd I mamaged to do it for 40quid and thats meal planning and batch cooking.
He knows I'm trying to lose weight and I don't feel I'm getting any support from him.
He's done hardly anything in the house the past few days and has a short fuse with the kids. I really am fed up. Its not the first time I've had savings and he's had them to spend on crap we don't need.
It's my fault too. I should stand upto him but I'm sick of fighting.
I don't think I will have anything whilst I'm with him
These council tax bills are in both our names yet I'm thr only one paying them.
He doesn't give me anything in way of support and I think if I was to end it it wouldn't be pretty... there you have it. The reason for my depression and my anxiety.
His behaviour isn't a new thing. We actually split in july last year and I had to get police to remove him tats how I know he won't go quietly.
Stupidly I let him back. He got to my daughter through social media and I shoupd habe been stronger and blocked him from contracting us in any way possible but thats my stupid fault.
Anyway I'm sorry for the rant.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
Have a good week

FIGHTER

This week not been to bad so far
OH hasn't been here much so I feel like I haven't been out spending needlessly just because he is bored
its been lovely and quiet and now my DS is at nursery in the mornings it gives me a couple of hours to chill
I have joined slimming world today
it was a bit boring to be honest but I will stick at it because I believe it will work for me


I have put in a college application and I am now waiting for an Open University prospectus
time to get sorted and not let a certain someone keep dragging me down

mum2one

Just read ur diary, ur doing so well, hope ur son is in a better sleeping pattern, gd luck with the open uni, I loved, I did a range of courses with then, got up to a foundation degree with them.

Gd for you putting urged first it sounds like everyone else got there instead, xx

FIGHTER

Thanks for your lovely post mum2one
I emailed council tax and basically told them I couldn't afford to pay two council tax bills at £60 each per month.
One has been reduced to £3.65 a week they won't make a payment arrangement on the other one until I default and they get a summons to take me to court which is ridiculous. Anyway I want to get these cleared asap. It just plays on my mind.
Not much else to report at the moment

FIGHTER

Well I got the hallway and kitchen painted yesterday. its the glossing I am not looking forward to
first weigh in at slimming world tomorrow. I admit I cheekily weighed myself on Sunday at boots. I had lost some I just hope I haven't put it back on. I have found that because I am eating better I am less tired and stressed.
so another reason to keep it up.
have two poorly kids at home with me and my daughter has an orthodontist appointment today I can't not take her we have waited so long for this appointment, she is 12 so I think she will be ok and get through it.
paid £10 of one of the council tax bills. I don't know why but its really bugging me having them hanging over my head
Not happy with the other half lending his mum money when we ae in such financial difficulty ourselves I am all for helping people but when its taking money which we really do not have I resent it
he has a younger brother but hes 20 odd and he sits in his mums house all day doing naff all it really annoys me


anyway I must stop ranting it just grates me so much grr
Better go look after my babies


Have a good day all

FIGHTER

This week has not been a good week. Kids have been poorly and now it's finally made itself to me. been out today for dinner for my mums birthday and she even paid despite me and my sisters protesting about it. I get my housing benefit on Saturday and I am debating wether to pay the council tax bills off with the rest on the rent then to just pay token amounts to my rent account as I can pay my rent through an app which takes 2 minutes. I know some people will think I am crazy but I just want these council tax bills to go. I don't know yet. maybe I will pay just the one? things no better between my and OH. I think it will be sooner rather than later that it all kicks off and we are no more and tbh I will be glad of it.


so sleepy off to bed shortly. Have a good week

FIGHTER

Oww had so many letters come through the last week about money I owe. I honestky forgot all about them. I had moved around a lot for various reasons mainly domestic violence and quite honestly forgot I owed this money, at least at the time it wasn't my priority
anyway I need to check if any are statute barred. I don't think I could handle any more outgoings. it's crippling me now I am seeking advice so fingers crossed I can get it sorted
i'm trying not to worry about it too much because my anxiety attacks are pretty regular at the moment

FIGHTER

Slowly but surely getting their with the council tax bills.
Aiming to clear these before the end of April before I hit the childcare costs hard by whuch time there should be around £200 owing.
I have signed up to noddle. Its not great. Alot of work to be done. Won't be applying for anymore credit.
Getting there with one poll. I should use pay out to put towards debt but I really need to decorate and after shopping around I should get a fair bit done for my £40.
Onwards and upwards