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TheMagician

I've not had that much to update on hence no posts.
Thought I'd drop in though since it's nice to keep this going.

Things are going well. I have been doing a lot of reading, relaxing, spending time with DS and preparing myself for the new chapter.

I have stuck with doing yoga every day, in fact I've stopped even thinking about it - I just do it. This is the longest time I've ever done yoga without skipping a single day. On Monday I'm signing up to the gym for one month as mentioned previously to do a month of weights and yoga. Let's see where that gets me. Really excited about it, haven't been to the gym for years, always work out at home.
Will also weight myself tomorrow to see how much I've lost this month - fingers crossed for that

Doing my CBT on Sunday. I am beyond excited, can't wait, will have the best time ever.

Had some interesting news today. Anyone that receives child support will know that CSA changed to Child Maintenance Service. My case has been passed on and reevaluated and I've had some good news - I'm due an extra £1,000 a year, which is a huge bonus. Really happy about that :j:j:j
I also had £30 of TCB old transactions clear so cashed that to Amaz@n vouchers.

5 days till final exam results - let the new life begin :A

TheMagician

Well, today is a day to celebrate :beer:
I have received my results and I PASSED :T I needed 80pts and I got 96 so I was well and truly safe, just as I'd felt. I am now fully qualified.

This has been and will be celebrated with everyone I know All of my friends and family have congratulated me and I feel absolutely fantastic.

Let the new life commence! :j

So that's the biggest news. I did do my CBT and it was amazing. However, it was over 30C all day long and I was absolutely sweltering under all of my bike gear. I will have to come back for another half day to get my certificate but I loved it so much :smileyhea Can't wait to get my motorbike.

I weighed myself and I have now lost 11lbs since April :T I'd say I'm about half way there now, I keep pushing how much more I wanna lose but I wanna get back to a comfortable size 8. Should get there over the next couple of months. Back to my best and then some, in every way possible :T

monz

Thats amazing!!! well done on passing!!!!!

Shelbi

:j:j Congratulations on passing your CIMA!!:j:j x

TheMagician

Thank you monz & Shelbi, very kind of you :A:D
I'm over the moon still.
So many plans wizzing through my head, have already set the wheels in motion.
Got a feeling next week is going to be a big one - changes are coming.

It's Friday :j:j:j We are going to spend Sunday afternoon at my friend's having dinner and celebrating, some wine might be involved too :rotfl: Not for DS obviously :rotfl: Apart from that, we have no plans so we'll just go with it. It's a tiny bit cooler today and less sunny which means we can spend more time outdoors so we might go to the park

TheMagician

Can't believe it's been over a month!

Life has carried on being just as turbulent as it's been since the beginning of the year But all in good ways.
There is somebody new in my life :A It was completely unexpected and sudden. Things are still very new but so far it's been lovely in so many ways.
I was all about career but the universe had different plans for us and I must abide So off I go on a date tonight

Work front is still very much up in the air, things are moving along. I have been approached for FD roles now I'm qualified, I'm thinking of giving it a chance. I have never been in that position before so I don't know whether I'd love it or not but I'm always up for trying something different.

Apart from that, things are moving along nicely. I've carried on losing weight and now only have 3kg left but I'm already feeling a million times better than before.

I will pop back to update the diary when something happens Until then, the universe has got your back! :A

monz

Hope you had a great date last night xx

TheMagician

Hi monz :beer: The date was perfect, we had so much to talk about. I find it fascinating how sometimes you meet someone and you feel so close to them and you share much more than you would with anyone else. Food was good, so was wine and there was plenty of it :rotfl: Will take my time with this one, goodness knows I have learnt from all of my past mistakes.

Beautiful day today. My bestie is doing Tough Mudder :rotfl: I mean, why would you do that to yourself... :rotfl: Will meet up after.
Not sure what we'll get up to today yet but outside is calling

TheMagician

Greetings from sunny Croatia. Our last holiday before the school starts.

Things have been happening and I don't think they will slow down any time soon.

I've had some news - I've been offered a job. It's a mix of what I always wanted to do at my previous job (M&A) and what I've already done before. It's a 25% pay rise, near home and relatively flexible hours but FT. I'm thinking of taking it. I could do with the money and there is so much I can learn on this job. It's definitely the way forward if I want to earn big bucks in finance... I'll decide once back next week.

Date guy thing didn't go much further. I liked him but felt he was not mature enough for me. Next! :rotfl: I'm just busy with work and DS. If someone amazing comes along, I'm more than open to it but otherwise I'm not wasting my time.

I have been having crazy lucid dreams whilst on holiday! I don't think I've ever experienced this before. They're so real and just keep going on and on, moving from one topic to the next. One felt so true that I had to check my phone once awake to check whether it happened in real life. So odd :cool:

TheMagician

I don't know what's got into me but for the last couple of days I have not stopped thinking about life in general.

Last night I had an in-depth conversation with my best friend about the meaning of life and achieving things. He said he did not aim to achieve anything in particular, he just wanted to be happy and make others happy.

I feel like even being able to consider the meaning of life is such a luxury and I truly appreciate this chance that I've been given. It means you're not ill and in pain, not battling mental health issues, you're not struggling to put food on the table, you're not caring for someone else 24/7 or working your fingers to the bone. You've been given the chance to sit still knowing your life is in order in every possible way. To a lot of people, their purpose is just to survive.

Everywhere I turn for answers, happiness comes into it. But what if I'm already happy and always have been? Does that mean I have achieved life's purpose and I just have to keep on going? I feel like there's more and I think it's to do with others. I'm blessed with DS and the relationship we have and it definitely gives me purpose to make sure he's happy and well looked after. Much more meaningful than just taking care of me. So what else what I do to build on this?

The only other thing I can think of is the material side of life. I've always been a minimalist when it comes to things, they give me no purpose whatsoever. But maybe having a huge bank balance that I can use for something can? Having a large enough house to have friends and family stay over or just to hold dinners at.

I feel like anything that's to do with just me is too easy, has to be. I can be whoever I want, I can mould my body whichever way, fix it, amend it, I can eat healthily and work out, I can read books and educate myself. It cannot be that easy, I've been doing it for as long as I can remember. Plus, it also feels selfish, my whole life cannot just be about me, surely?.. But what about the monks who just spend their time on themselves meditating?

I'm sure I'll come back to this with some answers. What gives you purpose?