Baby steps to mortgage freedom for beanielou.

milann

:money::j:money::jUNDER£1000 :money::j:money::j

Fantastic News - keep on plodding lovely lady :T:T:

Butti

If you have felt depressed due to this Beanie, or you feel depressed it may be worth mentioning it to your doctor. I had CBT - 8 sessions I think- on the NHS because I was depressed. It wasn't a "I want to kill myself" type of depression, it was a "I don't care / I feel flat" sort of depression. It came from years of being called "Useless, stupid" and "fat" and from years of trying to suppress anger (which later emerges as depression). It just strikes me that there are common patterns with how you have been treated.

I can't remember exactly how I got over it;

• CBT (from the NHS)
• listing things that people like about me and reading it every day
• Spending time outside
• Yoga
• Enough qualifications to fill a small phone directory

Haven't cracked it entirely but I think in part you have to realise that people generally are much harder on themselves than on others.

HairyHandofDartmoor

beanielou wrote: »

Horrid bumblebees.
& you are so lovely too

Thank you Beanie .

I hope you feel a bit better today.

HairyHandofDartmoor

beanielou wrote: »

The mortgage has dropped into the last 1K.
The CC has also dropped into another milestone

That's fantastic news :T :T :j :T :T :j :beer:

teapot2

Great news re the mortgage and CC figures :j:j

gallygirl

Fabulous news on mortgage and CC. You will soon be able to have weekly physio if you want :T.


Sorry you've been so down, hope you've taken comfort from the lovely peeps on here, you DO matter xx

beanielou

Thank you so very much to everyone has taken the time to post.

I have just hit a wall I think at the moment.
I am mentally & physically exhausted.

I was hoping to go & support DS's GF at an event but I just couldent.

The house is a tip as is the garden.

I was at the GP on Thursday & basically from a physical point of view there is nothing left to do/try.
I am on a lot of different medication which we think in part my body is struggling to deal with. Hope that makes sense.

Went to a friends last night for a girls night. Fell & struggled with the steps at front on her house.
Had two glasses of fizz & had raspberry pepsi max which was surprisingly nice.

HairyHandofDartmoor

Sorry you feel like you've hit a wall Beanie. Chronic pain must be awful to have.

Try not to worry about the house or garden, I know you'd like them to be tidy but it's not your fault if they're not.

Glad you enjoyed the fizz and rasberry Pepsi Max at your friend's house .

Sunshine_girl2

Beanie I have just read the last 6 pages of your diary , you have been through the mill.

Glad your mums op went well and hope she is recovering well
Congratulations to DS on his new job and car.
Sorry to hear about your friend and the funeral , her son did well delivering an eulogy.
Wish you didn't have to be in pain and that there was something that could help you to make it easier for you. I guess you know your health condition better than anyone and have tried everything you can to make it better.
You are going to be Mortgage and Debt free very soon , am sure the extra money will be helpful. Hoping things improve soon for you health wise . l.

beanielou

Sunshine_girl2 wrote: »

Beanie I have just read the last 6 pages of your diary , you have been through the mill.

Glad your mums op went well and hope she is recovering well
Congratulations to DS on his new job and car.
Sorry to hear about your friend and the funeral , her son did well delivering an eulogy.
Wish you didn't have to be in pain and that there was something that could help you to make it easier for you. I guess you know your health condition better than anyone and have tried everything you can to make it better.
You are going to be Mortgage and Debt free very soon , am sure the extra money will be helpful. Hoping things improve soon for you health wise . l.

Thank you