Feeling like giving up

sassy_one

Feeling like giving up
I don't think I've ever been so close to the edge, I'm scared.
Don't tell me to see my doctor, I've tried, I've tried talking/meds.
The thoughts or feelings don't change or go away
Lately I don't think I've ever felt so close

Cinders:

Don't give up, there's always a strong reason to hold on.....even if it does take a while to figure out what it is. Is anyone with you at the moment that you can talk to about how you're feeling?

Huge hugs sweetie x

sassy_one

Cinders: wrote: »

Don't give up, there's always a strong reason to hold on.....even if it does take a while to figure out what it is. Is anyone with you at the moment that you can talk to about how you're feeling?

Huge hugs sweetie x

These thoughts aren't going to go away or change though.
I've tried, no one understands.
I've cried so hard the past few weeks for help, the crisis team want me sectioned, even my doctor does.
But that won't change the thoughts in my head.

I think back, and realise what the biggest failure I am in life and trust me, I'm a big one.
I just don't think I can go on with this emotional pain much longer, I don't want to be here; that's so selfish but I'm never going to be happy, the thoughts and feelings will always stay with me

good_advice

Life is a bumpy road we all travel Sassy.
You have many friends on MSE. If you want to talk many will listen.

fed_up_and_stressed

Good avice gives good advice maybe it would be worthwhile speaking to you gp again to see if their are other optionds for you to try.

Don't give up life has lots to offer you
Xxxxx

sassy_one

I'm worthless; honestly I am.

The thoughts inside my head won't ever go away and I realise that now

KatieDee

I sympathise with you, I really do. Life is hard, for some it can be harder than others. Nobody will understand exactly what you are going through except you and it's infuriating that they even try to.

However, you have a choice. Many do not. Why not try just a little bit longer to make life into what you want it to be...as the alternative (or what I presume you're talking about) is pretty much forever.

Sleep on it...tomorrow is a new day and you may feel a little bit stronger. If you don't...sleep on it again. And again if that doesn't work, ad infinitum

Good luck. As others have said, there are plenty of people here if you wish to talk, some of which may be going (or gone through!) a similar time to you.

Ps - nobody with an avatar as cute as yours can be a complete failure. I wish I had an avatar that cute...

nearlyrich

sassy-one wrote: »

I'm worthless; honestly I am.

The thoughts inside my head won't ever go away and I realise that now

No you are not worthless you are amazing we all are. Do you have someone to love and care for you when you are feeling so down?

Cinders:

You are not worthless, and you are not a failure. I think you are judging yourself far too harshly :-(
Try writing a list of positive things that you or others think about yourself, and focus on the good things x

Waves_and_Smiles

Sassy you are not worthless. I have complex mental illness and I have thoughts in my head that never go away. I know how exhausting it is to hear the same old tapes replaying reminding you why there is no option but to give up. It is physically and mentally tiring and you cannot find away to switch off and see no hope of that happening.

There are ways to deal with this, I promise you. Some specific therapies can help, some specific medications, also you can learn to accept that the thoughts are there and not allow them to control you. I know it seems impossible now but it can be done, I do it.

I have a thread on here about living with mental illness, various types, feel free to read it. I am not going to tell you not to give up, that is going to feel like telling you to walk on the moon right now. What I will ask if you don't give up for today. Tomorrow you can make a new resolve but for now, just get through today. After that get through the next or if it that is too much the next hour, one hour at a time. Don't think about the future right now, just tell yourself that you will get through the present and that is good enough. The future can come later.

Do keep in contact with your GP. He can refer you to others who can help you, sectioning isn't the only solution. Having said that I have voluntary sectioned myself on several occasions and it has helped me centre myself, it is not scary, it is like having a rest.

Please feel free to PM me anytime you wish, I understand how you feel and if there is anyway that I can help you I will. I am not saying this as someone trying to guess how you feel, I am saying it as someone who has bad thoughts everyday. I promise that there are ways to cope with them.

Here Sassy, this is a link to my thread. Some of it you might think is interesting, some of it you will think what a weirdo, but I believe you will also relate to parts of it too. I made a post earlier today about isolation that I think you may understand.

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/4989825

Angry_Bear

Depression lies.

Honestly, it really really does. When you're down in the hole it's really easy to believe that it's always like this and that it's ages since you last had a happy moment.
That's depression talking, and it lies.

Depression tells you that you're worthless, but it lies.

Hang in there (sorry that that sounds so trite), and please please think about what your doctor and the crisis team have said. They only want what's best for you - and you wouldn't hesistate to go into hospital on a doctor's advice for a physical ailment.