Just needed to be heard for a little while

Waves_and_Smiles

How lovely of him! I am sure that the tutor will appreciate it so much. It takes so little time to thank someone but it can mean the world to them. I used to work on a forum for troubled teenagers and there was a girl from a very difficult family who was completely off the rails when I first spoke to her at the age of 14. We talked for 4 years and gradually her behaviour improved and she finally did very well for herself and went off to uni. Five years ago at the age of 36 she emailed and thanked me for being her "Internet mum" when her own parents had failed her. The email meant so much and I will keep it forever.

seven-day-weekend

That has brought tears to my eyes WaS. You were a lifeline to that young woman. How wonderful.

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw, she meant the world to me. She was in a terrible place when I first got to know her, drinking, taking drugs, putting herself in dangerous situations and missing school. She was very, very unhappy and hurting so much. Most people in real life saw a bad child, I knew she was in so much pain. We talked several times a week for 4 years and she told me things she had never told anyone. Now she is working as a scientific researcher and is very happy and rather embarrassed about her past. I am so glad that she turned her life around, she always had so much potential and was a lovely person deep down. She was worth every hour we spent talking and we still keep in touch now.

seven-day-weekend

I have friends who are like that to me, who helped me when I needed it and showed me the way to go. I'm still in touch with them and love them dearly.

System

Thank you for (much needed) hugs.

I've os far had a bath, and am currently sat with some nice insense burning away, Feeling a little calmer. I've managed to make a doctors appointment but due to the fact there are only 2 doctors i feel comfortable with (does anyone else find it hard to trust medical professionals?) its not until next week. If it gets any worse will bite the bullet and risk a random GP but tbh there is a lot i need to dicusss so would prefer one i know. I'm going to ask about being either referered to the CMHT with hope of maybe getting a psych again, or at least ask what options there are for therapy as i feel i am floundering somewhat and don't have the tools to cope so well just being under a GP.

I do journal WaS, so at the min trying to write down any thoughts that come into my head One of the things i felt earlier was that there was a kind of static in my head, and when i walked into the shopping centre was overwhelmed by the noises. I have no idea how to explain that. Other than its similar to how i feel when i'm about to have a panic attack, my head goes all fuzzy and i get a ringing in my ears.

Waves_and_Smiles

It creates such a bond when you go through something like that with someone on both sides. I have several now adults from that site who still write to me occasionally. They have good lives now which I am so happy to see, they grew up into such wonderful young men and women with a lot of compassion for others in pain. Several have told me the best thing that I did for them was never give up on them no matter what they said or did. They just wanted to know that someone was there for them unconditionally while their lives were so chaotic. Really, it took so little of my time but meant the world to them. I can't express how proud I am of them all.

Waves_and_Smiles

I know exactly what you mean, MU. I get the same static feeling when I have rushing thoughts, everything is loud and bright and fizzing. Do keep trying to write it all out, sometimes I find the only thing that brings me back down is to push it all out onto paper or on occasion to a friend with the warning not to be freaked out by what I say.

I will only see one GP, I only feel safe with him and he knows my conditions very well so it is far easier. I really hope that you can manage to get a referral but in the meantime if it gets worse please do risk a different GP, I know how overwhelming it can be when the thoughts won't stop. Have another hug, we are all here for you.

Waves_and_Smiles

Errr, WaSp can see this too, so it isn't an hallucination. There is a mushroom growing on our bathroom ceiling. I admit I never look up but the ceiling appears to be wet and there is now a mushroom! I think I need to email the landlord...

whitewing

Yes definitely email the landlord. Amazingly, it comes up on a google search so can't be that rare an occurance.

Waves_and_Smiles

I've never seen anything like it in my life! It is a huge mushroom and the ceiling is wet and surprisingly pink? I am really glad WaSp saw it too or I might be taking emergency medication!