talk me down please

mellymoo74

And a bit of FNM




"Falling To Pieces"

Back and forth, I sway with the wind
Resolution slips away again
Right through my fingers, back into my heart
Where it's out of reach and it's in the dark
Sometimes I think I'm blind
Or I may be just paralyzed
Because the plot thickens every day
And the pieces of my puzzle keep crumblin' away
But I know, there's a picture beneath
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens...
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together
Layin' face down on the ground
My fingers in my ears to block the sound
My eyes shut tight to avoid the sight
Anticipating the end, losing the will to fight
Droplets of "yes" and "no"
In an ocean of "maybe"
From the bottom, it looks like a steep incline
From the top, another downhill slope of mine
But I know, the equilibrium's there
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together

pebbles88

Yes survey queen, I didn't know how to word it either.

Melly I hope you do manage to get there, as I've recently seen someone moments away from passing away due to lack of nutrition & essential minerals. His heart was basically stopping before our eyes, as were the rest of his organs - it was terrifying to watch.

mellymoo74

New make up
Birchbox

EdwardB

mellymoo74 wrote: »

That sounds like a good idea thank you.

And yes the more he tells me the angrier I am becoming I am also proud of him hes managed to overcome a horrendous start. Hes still trying to maintain a relationship with her.

Has he watched "The Sopranos", the mother has a borderline personality, sounds similar.

The tricky thing is that whatever happens he has her DNA so to hate her means hating himself.

Hate the things people do not the people themselves.

tesuhoha

Your new make up looks very nice melly.

Melly you are right you have managed this thing and you are still here. You know of course that the solution to your problems is inside your head because you know yourself better than anyone else - and sometimes, just sometimes only you can find the answer.

I am not saying that you should not go to the counselling or whatever it is, just that if you don't then its not the end of the world. So don't beat yourself up about it.

Don't think either that because you have had it for so long that you won't be able to change. Everyone changes throughout their lives and learns new wisdom.

tesuhoha

I read your poem where you ask for someone to put you together. You are a together person already. However, no one on this forum knows exactly what is going on with you we can only read between the lines.

All I would say is try to look at your problems in a cool intellectual way without emotion if you can. Try to disassociate food with emotions. Food is just fuel to keep us alive. Its not dirty but if you feel that way you could live on greens, salad and some protein. Clean eating will keep you alive.

pebbles88

Ooh..... I spy a fellow stargate fan! Xx

tesuhoha

how do I read what survey queen said. I don't get the penguin thing

uberalles

tesuhoha wrote: »

how do I read what survey queen said. I don't get the penguin thing

They use white text.

So, left click your mouse on the first entry of PENGUIN. Hold that left mouse click, don't let it go..

Then drag your cursor down the screen, it will be made readable.

tesuhoha

Thank you uberalles. Oh wow that is honest speaking. It sums things up. I hope you are okay melly. We all want to help but sometimes I do feel that you are (maybe unconsciously) fighting against recovery.

I'm not shouting at you though.