talk me down please

mellymoo74

It sounds like long treatment though
I want to go back to work.

He wants me to come off the antidepressants as I am not depressed, tired, forgetful etc is what happens when your starving yourself.

I said I don't know if I will be worse without them.

So will I be able to work in a few weeks do we think?

elsien

Did you ask him about work? It's possibly a matter of timing rather than waiting for treatment to finish. My uneducated guess would be to follow medical advice on that and have a conversation with them about the role of work with regards to your coping strategies.
If they agree it could be beneficial mentally, you still need to be physically strong enough. Did they say how long it might be before your first appointment?

elsien

Anyway, time to switch your brain off for a bit?
How are the furries tonight.
I never thought I'd say it but I am missing Gitdog. House feels weird without him.

pollyanna_26

Melly I'm so glad you took the step that should help you get back on track . I agree with Elsian's posts . It looks as though the proper structured help you need is now available and although it wont be a walk in the park it is what needs to happen to make you well .
Be guided about medication by the experts . I believe you will get back to work but it will take time and patience to reach that point .
Sending WaS a pm is a brilliant idea as she may be able to put your mind at rest .
Your husband may be feeling a bit useless at the moment you've both shared a good Christmas and maybe he felt he should support you as you do him . I understand you need privacy for these appointments but maybe next time he could drop you off and come back later to collect you .
Anyway well done for taking this step . You'll get there sweetheart .
Love polly xx

tunathe_cat

Melly yeah first steps taken on this train journey. May all the tracks be calm and all the stations you stop at provide happy memories, all leaves on the track that slow us down be blown away. In time you will willingly visit the buffet car and enjoy a snack.

Enjoy today relax sleep take loads of photos of furbies wish I could master how to take and post photos! our posh cat Saffy slept in my bra so cute to wake upto she was snuggled in the cup !

Back to moving and re-homing bits in house will we ever be straight ,noooooh i am a hoarder. unpacking suitcases from xmas break washing machine on tumble dryer going kitchen looks like a scene from Window ~Twankey _ Aladdin panto or the launderette from East enders in the middle of this Tesco delivery has arrived.

Breakfast for me Melly Tea and mint match makers....... I am at the other end of this bloody food journey maybe in 2017 we can both met in the middle have a pleasant station stop-together xx Tuna xx

postmore furby photos please x

mellymoo74

He is still being an idiot

I am a hypocrite as it's the same as not telling him where his mum was when she was dying.

May have lost my temper

pollyanna_26

What exactly do you mean about your husband being an idiot Melly ?
I really hope my last post didn't set this off - I just thought if you could try to work together things may be less stressful for you both .
If I've upset you I'll step away really not meant to cause a problem x
polly

mellymoo74

No poll you have honestly not upset me and you didn't start this OH did.

I get he feels excluded but you know what I needed physical pain to take away from the emotional pain or telling the someone I don't know that my mother watched me get gang raped.

He is being selfish it's what h3 does.

So we are ignoring me, starting and generally being an idiot.
Turns out he can cook so that's a good thing to take away

pollyanna_26

Melly love I think you've both got so much hurt from the past that only the help you're now due to get will help you .
The whole complex situation has you both on edge and exhausted all the time . Do you know yet when the CMHT appointment for your husband is ?
I believe the love for each other is still there but you're both ill and scared and sometimes verbal lashing comes into the picture . My daughter can do a good verbal lashing when she's scared or in pain . She only does it to me as she knows I am the only person in her life who knows why she does it and wont give up on her .
Think back to Christmas day and the presents you both bought with love and knowledge of each others personality , look at that beautiful ring and feel the love . Things are tough but with hard work and going to the appointments you will both move forward . I am praying that Council banding will be raised and the new year will bring a new hope for you both .
Don't set yourself a timetable for going back to work yet it took many years for your lives to collect the damage and it will take time
for you to be well enough and your husbands care needs to be sorted before it would be wise to do so .
Think back to all the problems getting the benefits sorted and wait until things are settled . You will work again , just not yet .
Hope you both get some rest .
Love polly xx

mellymoo74

Thanks Poll
I have just cried

I am curled up with a boo on my chest snoring xxx