talk me down please

mellymoo74

I felt dirty
Disgusting and hideous last night because I ate paella.

I am surviving on weetabix and breads ticks. I have no boobs, my hip bones jut out and you can see my ribs and spine. I know how I look

I CAN'T DO IT.

Asking for help is the biggest deal ever I have never done so before this has left me tired, churned up and feeling disgusted with myself.

I am going to put my thread down for a little while and step away from the PC I know you didn't mean to upset me archer bur it has.

elsien

mellymoo74 wrote: »

OK

MIND are due at 11.30 OH is having a meltdown because he's tired and he took me yesterday which meant going out

I am wiped cos it was intense do I

Get him up at 11 so he can still see them, see them myself or try and reschedule

Maybe phone them and explain the situation? I'm kind of wondering whether them seeing both of you when things are difficult might prompt them into getting their act together, balanced against your coping mechanisms when you had such a bad day yesterday.

Archergirl

I am truly sorry, I will go. You stay xxx

mellymoo74

It's OK Archer

I didn't mean to flare, yesterday was terrifying.

I get what you were trying to say

Might help to think of it as a phobia of food rather than anything else.

ivyleaf

Sending you very, very gentle virtual (((HUGS))), melly.
Asking for help was incredibly brave.
I haven't had an ed but I have been in a situation where I thought I had been managing really well but had to admit I wasn't managing any more and needed help, and it was so, so hard. Thinking of you xx

pollyanna_26

Melly love . I would let them come whether your husband is up or not . They need to see the real struggles of the complex situation . Moving it to another day is not going to make anything any better .
You did the very brave thing yesterday , try to be brave today and tonight you will have less worry racing through your mind .
You know I would not upset or hurt you for the world , this is the only way forward .
Much love polly x

mellymoo74

I haven't cancelled or called.

I also haven't got OH up.

I am cleaning a bit

But have left the boxes and stuff.

Shaking

thorsoak

Thinking of you, Mellymoo - one step at a time love xxxx

mellymoo74

It's done
They will be back next week to sort out service

pollyanna_26

Well done love .
I understand how hard everything is but you've done two much needed but scary things and I'm proud of you . The longest journey starts with a single step xx
polly