Depression Support Thread

Tulip

curlywurlygirly wrote: »

OMG! I can't believe there is a thread like this on MSE....

Hello, I am Vicky and I have Bi-Polar disorder....

welcome Vicky to the depression thread ,My name is Katie and I suffer also from Bipolar and depression we are all friendly on here so post when you feel the need to


Katie

curlywurlygirly

Tulip wrote: »

welcome Vicky to the depression thread ,My name is Katie and I suffer also from Bipolar and depression we are all friendly on here so post when you feel the need to


Katie

Thanks.....

Was bit trepedatious about mentioning certain details in my voyage to get debt free - eg. I cannot work ATM coz of my illness, and I won't give up our second car coz I worry it would leave me isolated......

andipandi_2

curlywurlygirly wrote: »

OMG! I can't believe there is a thread like this on MSE....

Hello, I am Vicky and I have Bi-Polar disorder....

welcome to the thread curlywurlygirly

Tulip

curlywurlygirly wrote: »

Thanks.....

Was bit trepedatious about mentioning certain details in my voyage to get debt free - eg. I cannot work ATM coz of my illness, and I won't give up our second car coz I worry it would leave me isolated......

yeah,I know the feeling I dont work ether but I have a good social life I have a huge network of friends who care about me when I feel down and I get days when I am low but I have family who are there for me also,I do a college course in craft for something to do during the day which I enjoy,just waiting on the booklet to arrive then I can reapply again for September

Katie

curlywurlygirly

Thanks for the warm welcome guys

~Chameleon~

Hi

I wanted to say hello as I've been aware of this thread for some time now, although I've not read it regularly so don't really know who is doing what, where, when so to speak, although I have dipped in on the odd occasion when I've had time to spare so one or two regular names are familiar to me.

I don't even know why I'm posting now, apart from the fact I'm feeling pretty crap and all alone in the world and have no one to talk to about any of it.

I'm not expecting any answers or life-changing experiences - I've been around MH illness and various online resources for long enough to know that's just not realistic - I think I'm just trying to reach out to like-minded people just to know people understand and care.

I'm bipolar/manic depressive - well that's one of my diagnoses - but I also have a whole host of other "psychiatric illnesses" depending on who I'm seeing and what they decide to diagnose me with at the time!

I stopped caring about the labels they decided to slap on me long ago - just wish they could adequately treat me for at least one of my illnesses, which they've woefully failed to do for many years - so I stumble along in the dark, sans medication/treatment (bar an old faithful CPN who is biding his time until retirment) trying to figure it all out for myself

I'm currently on a mid-swing between high and low, hence why I think I've actually plucked up the courage to even make this post, but the major low is looming and I'm not looking forward to entering that phase again

Just read back what I've written and realised even that contradicts itself, guess it says more about the current state of my mind than I even realised. The perfectionist in me would want to edit/change it all but I'm leaving it be as I might eventually learn something from it.

Yes, I must be in a mixed phase after all. Can anyone here relate to this?

petrichor

I went to see the Dr this morning, a lovely student nurse came and drove me there, so that helped me get over the first hurdle. I was with the Dr for a hour and half, She had read my old file and just kept referring back to the those times despite me trying to explain that somethings are so very different. I explained about the self harm, frightening thoughts and the various things that had happened recently; I was in floods of tears but it just seems to have been a waste of time, I feel as if I'm just being hung out to dry. The more I think about it the angrier I feel. If you harm yourself they ask you why you didn't ask for help beforehand, but when you ask for help before you do, then they think you're really okay, nothing that a spot of lithium won't cure. I'm dreading the next 'low'.

I'm sorry to unload this here, but hopefully I may see it differently, and to cap it all this day just seems to get worse and worse. I think an early bed will be best for yet another sleepless night no doubt. I have yet to tell my OH as I don't think I'll be able to without all the tears, it's not fair on him.

I hope you've all had a better day and that you have a lovely weekend.

Thanks for letting me unload.

xxxx

curlywurlygirly

~Chameleon~ wrote: »

Yes, I must be in a mixed phase after all. Can anyone here relate to this?

Yes, yes, and yes!

Hugs to anyone who needs them....

petrichor

Welcome curlywurlygirly and ~Chameleon~

I only first posted here last night, and understand just how hard it is to do that first one and admit to the world, albeit anonymously, that you have depression in any of it's forms. There is still a stigma attached to it sadly.

I wish you both well

xxxx

curlywurlygirly

Thanks petrichor - am new to this site, but not to other depression sites, and certainly not to the illness. Not sure what kind of tack you guys take, but would love it if you let me come along for the ride.....