The Giving Up/ Cutting Down alcohol support thread - number 13

Slowdown

Hi all,
Managed another AF day yesterday, even after quite a stressful day. Took myself off for a slow amble round the village green with a friend instead and stopped at hers for a cuppa instead.

Didn't sleep very well last night, hence the 5.30 post. Not even a week into the term and I'm behind already, even though I arrived at work at 7.25 and left at 6.30 yesterday. Couldn't get off to sleep with whirring brain, then kept waking up and finally woken at 4.30 by a son with a tooth abscess. Hmmm!

Would like to clock up another AF day today so I can have a drink tomorrow night knowing I made an effort during the week. I can feel it creeping up on me though. Got to try and stay strong.

Keep it up everyone else. I'm inspired by you all.

Kind regards
Slowdown:)

Pippilongstocking

AlexLK wrote: »

I'm up to a dismal 13/25.

I wouldn't say half the month (actually 13 days is a little over half of this month) not drinking is dismal.

It's really good.

Some months I'd never have an AFD. For years in fact. Working them into a routine is hard, but worthwhile when u can.

Be nicer to yourself and be proud of not drinking for nearly two whole weeks.

And there's plenty days to go. Justsaying

:A

(waves to all, sorry often AWOL but fighting away behind the scenes trying to stay Focussed)

:A

BlueDaisy

16/16 for me please! Yay! Can't believe I've reached my target!! But I'm going to try and stay strong and focussed. Got the week off work next week, and I am away for a few days so we will see how that goes

paulineb_2

14/15

Wobbling a bit at the moment due to some life stuff, but I have to try and not hit the self destruct button and look after myself, which at the moment Im struggling with. Alcohol isnt the answer, I do know that much.

Anyway, Ive asked the mods if they can ban me or PPR me, combination of said stuff thats making me a bit unwell just now and the continued trolling/comments being directed at me which I dont think is going to stop from a certain section of people on the board, mainly one board on the forum. If I were strong enough Id just put up with it, but right now Im wavering a bit and Ive got a few things on the next few weeks, my course and the tri and I need to try and boot my backside back into gear and get on with it.

I dont know if I'll be back on here again, because Ive never been very good at not being "me" on a forum as it were and if I am me, well, things might just kick off again.

It probably will take a good few days before Im told if I can be banned or PPR'd, if not, then I'll just need to not log in again.

Things will be ok in the end, but the next couple of months may be very stressful due to certain issues and I really need to be offline and try and get on with it.

I wish you all well and I want to say thank you, because youve helped me when I was drinking too much and wanted to stop, took me a few months of lurking to be able to admit I needed to do something about my own consumption.

Ta ta for now


P x

Fruball

Pauline - sorry to hear that you are still being bullied by some a55h0le.

New people are joining all the time so I am sure you can slip back in un-noticed with a new user name when you feel ready... although it really annoys me that you feel you have to - not annoyed at you but at the situation which I think is just awful.

Sending ++++++ thoughts for you xx

debjay

10/16 for tonight please.

Wanna_Bee_Free

Pauline, sorry to hear you're going to leave us and good luck with everything alcohol related and with getting through the next few months; I hope the stressful period passes for you.

Shaggy, I'm on 11/14 please.

Slowdown - well done on last night! Two for Two!

paulineb_2

Fruball wrote: »

Pauline - sorry to hear that you are still being bullied by some a55h0le.

New people are joining all the time so I am sure you can slip back in un-noticed with a new user name when you feel ready... although it really annoys me that you feel you have to - not annoyed at you but at the situation which I think is just awful.

Sending ++++++ thoughts for you xx

Thank you very much. Unfortunately its plurals, more than a few plurals and theres yet more comments on the boards at the moment saying that I deserved the trolling (because Ive shared a few things on the boards to try and help other people out). Im plain speaking and sometimes I dont go along with the majority view, but I try my very hardest to recognise that if I were harsh, it might be a last straw moment for someone. When its getting to the stage where you open a thread and you know there are going to be nasty personal comments about you and there are two threads like that at the moment, one with numerous comments about me and another poster it really is time to give it up as a bad job and move on.

Unfortunately at the moment, life is such that it cant be water off a ducks back or anything near it.

I may disappear very sharply if the mods remove my current profile, I just didnt want to disappear and have people think that I had just effed off and wasnt bothered about saying cheerio.

One of the positive things about today was that I didnt drink, I did 30 mins on a spin bike in the gym and I ate some raspberries (ha).

When life sucked big time a couple of years ago (much worse than things are just now), I was on self destruct caused by stress, I drank my way through it, I ate all the wrong things and I was exercising as I was teaching classes, but I had nothing left over to do anything for myself. This time needs to be different for many reasons.

If my account does go, I will keep reading and remember its one day at a time stuff. I have food issues and latterly alcohol issues, caused by life events and I suspect a lack of self confidence at times and sometimes each day is a struggle, but Im really proud of myself that Ive managed to chalk up so many AFD's this year so far. Last year I think I managed a week.

Sometimes we are capable of far far more than we ever think we can do and sometimes that nagging voice of self doubt needs to be kicked right into touch. Im on a course for the next 3 days and I suspect that once its done I probably wont be able to log in anymore.

If I do come back, it wont be as me, thats for sure, but I need a break, in a few months life will be better offline, am sure of that, just need to take it day by day just now and battle on, thats all any of us can do.

Thanks all and take care.

AlexLK

Pippilongstocking wrote: »

I wouldn't say half the month (actually 13 days is a little over half of this month) not drinking is dismal.

It's really good.

Some months I'd never have an AFD. For years in fact. Working them into a routine is hard, but worthwhile when u can.

Be nicer to yourself and be proud of not drinking for nearly two whole weeks.

And there's plenty days to go. Justsaying

:A

(waves to all, sorry often AWOL but fighting away behind the scenes trying to stay Focussed)

:A

Thanks. I'm just disappointed with myself as I had a target of 25. In the past, I too have had a drink everyday for years - didn't see anything wrong in it at the time.

Anyhow, today makes 14/25.

Guinness-Cat

Its not been a great month for me - got back from holiday at the beginning of the month and my wife has been admitted to hospital twice since getting back.


we have also had to get the cat put down. she had a good life though.


anyway - up to 2/15 for April so far. hopefully May will go better.