This Time I'm Really Going To Do It

Humdinger1

Dearest @Watty1, how I sympathise...merciful Gods, HMRC is simply beyond.  It was a few years ago that Accountancy Age ran a front- cover expose on the fact that anyone with any brains, grip or experience had left.  I don't get the impression that anything has improved since...this is why we hire accountants, no?! Keep going, you're fab love Humdinger xx 

Watty1

thank you dear ones for your support.   Woke at 4 am with anxiety and finally got up at 4.45 am and started work on the daily battle.

It is getting better but I am desperately trying to think of a way to escape.  Currently fantasising about a caravan on a little plot of land. Yesterday's fantasy was a seaside hut I found on a park site for £15,000 in need of a little renovation (well totally actually but how hard can it be now I've got a drill?)  I thought I could live there 10 months of the year and travel the other 2.  Reality came when I remembered the 5 animals!

Ramouth

Do you think the horses could be trained to pull a caravan?  

Starlight_at_Sea

or a narrow boat? Sending love. Sounds really tough and frustrating, and your bucket was fairly full already! It will pass, I promise! 

Watty1

Well one of them certainly could be trained to pull a caravan and it is very tempting!  I've also often fancied living on a narrow boat.
have stuck with it. I think my stress bucket was just too full to deal with it.  I feel close to tears whenever I am at work so yesterday took a day off.   Went to the county show and had such a fabulous time I have rather rashly splashed out on life membership of the agricultural society.

Whilst entirely rash i did have a lovely day and for the future I will get free tickets for all the days (for 2) and priority parking and free tea and coffee and I presume drinking water.  Given the amount I spent on water yesterday I think this might be a good thing. Also when I finally retire I will have something to look forwards to every year and I can go more than once.   I'm selling it to myself LOL but i have written it down as a business charitable donation and I think that might just fly so all good

At the end of the day I decided to buy a picnic box and a glass of Rhubarb fizz and settled down with WattyDog to just relax whilst the traffic cleared and had a lovely time in the sunshine. Returned the plastic glass to the fizz stand and they gifted me 48 peaches as too ripe to keep another day.     So when I am not at my working desk all is well in my life

Today I am back at the desk and back to tears again.  I know my anxiety is really high right now.  I'm promising myself a full day of work and an early night, perhaps with a takeaway.  I know i'm not being very MSE but I'm struggling and anything that helps me cope right now is good.   

badmemory

Well this should cheer you up, well at least give you a good laugh.  I have actually been in a horse drawn caravan 58 years ago.  It was great & took a couple of weeks to get rid of the smell of horse.  Near Shannon & if there are any southern irishmen reading I enjoyed our dance at that wedding.  4 teenage girls & everybody was really nice to us.

Watty1

I love that @badmemory   

Watty1

Have made a decision not to buy any more tickets to events at the weekends unless they are cheap.  Binned two very expensive tickets to an outdoor classical concert on Saturday evening as local hotel was letting off fireworks. I know in my heart my animals are all ok with this but stress bucket so full I really could not cope with the worry.  The VNM man suggested I went with my friends and he looked after my horses but the anxiety was just too much.  I struggled. So instead a bottle of wine and a Chinese takeway.  Very expensive evening and thought provoking.

In future will simply decline events.  The VNM suggested I buy a ticket if my girlfriends are going and I go with them and he looks after the horses if he is free.  He pointed out i would need to check with him first each time but it might be a better plan. It was kind but the way I feel right now I am just not going to plan anything that costs more than £10 and for events at that price there are usually tickets on the door,  I feel this will be a better balance for me.

Watty1

Off to solicitor this morning.   I need a deed of solvency to be signed as part of the transfer of the rental property to the ex.  The property has a small mortgage and the mortgage company are concerned I am disposing of assets prior to declaring my insolvency.

Solicitor handling the sale is 250 miles away so asked the firm that helped me out when I was arrested and they very nicely said they could.   I do like this firm, they did my will too.    In a rather rough part of town and with solid doors with major bolts and a need to call to have the door opened which is a tad off putting but the partners are both lovely.

Once the deed is signed the transfers should soon actually happen.   I'm not fussed about the delay. I have the house to myself, the ex isn't allowed near and the money to pay him off is earning interest so all ok on that front but once the deal is done I'll not get any more messages trying to "hurry me up".

Humdinger1

They sound ideal @Watty1: big dudes that can handle themselves in a fight, no?! As ever, you are proceeding magnificently.   Onwards and upwards love Humdinger xx