Buffy takes babysteps.

lotti379

ani_26 wrote: »

Wellbeing is what you eat and exercise? Getting out in the great outdoors, in the sunshine, snow, fresh air, however small your limitations?

Far better than "chemicals" anyday, methinks.

I agree, eating well and getting out in the fresh air are now the best things for my brain chemicals in times of strife!

I have heard some stories of 15-20 years ago, doctors basically not wanting to deal with depression, and popping everyone who was a bit low on prozac and that was the end of it... I think half the village was on it circa 1997! But I think things have come on a long way since then, and doctors are much better equipped to discuss the options available.

Potatoes. Yum. I have a card on my wall which says "Happiness is regular sex and potatoes". Excellent sentiment! I might put it in my sig...

ani_26

lotti379 wrote: »

I have heard some stories of 15-20 years ago, doctors basically not wanting to deal with depression, and popping everyone who was a bit low on prozac and that was the end of it... I think half the village was on it circa 1997! But I think things have come on a long way since then, and doctors are much better equipped to discuss the options available.

I don't know i agree. I think doctors still use pill popping as the easy way out of "managing" people, given limited alternative resources of helping people. It's just the way it is.


10 minute appointment, here you go, don't forget your meds on the way out?


Not that i'm cynical or anything. Only the strong survive?

Buffythedebtslayer

The bathroom is clean. I need to empty the bin and a box of out of date stuff - moisturisers and shampoo type thing that have lost their smell. Am SICK of keeping crap. So much rubbish but it looks better.

potatoes are nearly done. No dog walk unfortunately, need to get to work early.

The blind dog on the animal rescue programme is making me cry. It is Australia - they are FAR more practical then our seemingly pathetic organisations. The cruel !!!!!!!s were fined 35 000 Aus dollars. seems a lot which is good (they ran a puppy farm).

oooff. I feel very unsettled today. well now. I think it is thought of going out. Had one of those well meaning make a decision conversations with my friend yesterday and I think I feel like I should have. Anyway I haven't so sod it.

Baked Potato time me thinks.

nice things in Sainsburys.

To the people who have posted today, thank you so much. has meant everything to me today.

xxxx

Northern_Lassy

Hello Buffy love, so sorry you are feeling this way, it's very brave of you to share your difficulties x I just wondered if you have ever you taken anti-depressants before? I know everyone is different but 6 months of Prozac gave me my life back and I will be eternally thankful for that. I was reluctant but I had tried everything else I could think of and was still sinking, I just needed my brain chemicals rebalancing, it is worth discussing with your doctor I reckon x

Snagggles

Hi Buffy! So glad to see a new diary from you, and for all that you are struggling, there are some lovely positives in amongst.

Depression is horrible because it robs you of your motivation. So many times I have found myself with loads to do, but completely incapable of even starting the smallest thing.

I tend to agree that some doctors over-prescribe antidepressants, although that said, I had (as you may well remember!) a fairly major breakdown a couple of years ago, and I am not convinced I would even be here today, had it not been for medical intervention.

I would say just keep an open mind. Talk to your GP but explain your concerns, and in the meantime, find as many ways as you can to be kind to your head and body. Don't discount the idea of medication altogether, but don't see it as the only route out of your current situation.

I had to try 4 different kinds before I found one that worked for me. Citalopram and Fluoxetine did nothing at all, Sertraline made my moods swing wildly and gave me terrible side effects, but Venlafaxine worked really well. I was on some sky-high dose originally but am now on half of the lowest dose tablet per day, and aiming to come off it altogether soon (coming off suddenly is a REALLY bad idea, as I found out last year ).

You don't sound like a broken record to me. I have heard you say before that you want to change your situation, but talking it through until you hit on a plan you are comfortable and happy with, and getting support to forge ahead with it, is a very positive thing.

Also ((((Buffy!!!))), it is lovely to see you!!!

jwil

Good luck When I was suffering with depression and anxiety my doc recommended an online CBT course - http://www.llttf.com/

Maybe that would be worth a look if you don't want to try the tablets. However, I do think that sometimes a short course of medication can lift the 'funk' enough to help you get a little more motivated to deal with some of the outlying issues so I wouldn't automatically discount them.

Alchemilla

Hello Buffy.
It makes me think of the line in Dr Who
Sad is happy for deep people
I think it went.
You are so right about dogs. In my darkest hour i think i should have harmed myself if not for my dear departed dog.

Rooting for you. X

Buffythedebtslayer

I have been here a long time so I don't why I am surprised when there is so much kindness shown and help given. Thank you. Really honestly my head hurts and I've had no sleep to speak of so multi quote is beyond me. But thank you. I really couldn't tell anyone else but here. This place is SO important to me. my friends.

Oh dear I shall cry.

have to get ready for the man to visit. I wish I had cancelled. I like him, might even be love but I am so tired and stressed and really just want some bloody time out of having to. And I know he won't care and all he wants is me but that in itself is a pressure.

It is just such !!!!!! timing, I have waited so long to find someone and he has shown up and is brilliant and now, I pick now not to cope with things and crash out of life. great.

the dining table got cleared --put a table cloth on it. Looks nice.

I have put the washing machine on. need breakfast. Can smell baby wipes. not pleasant (great for cleaning tho)

Today is a bad day and woebetide anyone telling me to cheer up. !!!!ing depression !!!!ing sucks.

I am going to make tea and take my work and a chair upstairs. That is three things.

Alchemilla

If his intentions are honourable he will be patient.

Buffythedebtslayer

Alchemilla wrote: »

Hello Buffy.
It makes me think of the line in Dr Who
Sad is happy for deep people
I think it went.
You are so right about dogs. In my darkest hour i think i should have harmed myself if not for my dear departed dog.

Rooting for you. X

That properly made me cry. I am sorry your dog is at the bridge. The dogs drive me mental at times bonkers as they are but I found my fish dead and got quite upset with that and everything else. Poor sods didn't know what I was doing. So they licked my face till I stopped making the new noise and brought me a toy.

Now they are asleep next to me.

xxx