Trying for a Baby Part 9

TeamLowe

good_vibes wrote: »

Appointment went well.
Plan is to have Ultrasound and hsg over the next 6 weeks. Then another appointment in 8 weeks time. If all clear will be placed on clomid due to progesterone being borderline (that was the only thing I didn't expect).
Seemed more concerned about OH's last sperm count.
Feel less blah knowing things are moving. Still ever hopefull thou in the mean time.

Yay you have a good plan, we heart a good plan but boo to low progesterone, although ladies have had success with Clomid recently so hopefully you'll be another one bogging off and leaving me behind lol x x

becca0417

Huge hugs to you code! I'm not going anywhere just yet :cool:

goodvibes glad it went well and you have a plan!

I have a clomid tracking scan in the morning (7.50am ...nice!) so will be interesting to see what, if any, impact it has had.

TeamLowe

Fingers crossed for nice big follicles in the morning x

teaandcakeordeath

Hugs code. I know exactly how you must be feeling. I know that you're going to wait the six months- I hope it goes easily for you and by the end of it you've either got pregnant or you and your OH are in a position where you'll both feel happy going to the doctors and get all the help you need.


I feel like TTC has ruined my life- and I say that with no sense of melodrama at all. These two years have changed me and I don't ever think I'll be the same woman. Before TTC I felt like a strong, capable and whole woman. Now I've been reduced to a blithering wreck who is in (potentially job losing) trouble at work (stress + my job= lack of concentration and one terrible mistake) and can't actually do the one thing I was made for- i.e. have a baby. I have a packet of anti-depressants on my kitchen table that I can't bear the idea of taking as it feels like a total admission of failure (can't have a baby and can't cope- lovely). My appointment with the consultant is tomorrow and I am sick with fear at what he might say. OH has been so supportive but I can't handle his reassurances- I know I'm the failure and it can't be fixed.

*goes back to lurking and her one woman pity party...*

claire16c

codemonkey wrote: »

Go away preggo!! We don't like your kind round here :rotfl::rotfl:

He is keen to start a family. Always cooing over babies, has named our first born, and talks about when we have kids, how he'll be the fun parent and how we'll reorganise the spare room into a nursery. It's more an admission of failure thing I think. Maybe the worry that if it is him, I'll want to leave him,possibly having seen what something as innocuous as the lowest of low dose pill did to me he's scared of living with me on some strong fertility drugs.

Don't know. Just feeling icky about it all. Doesn't help that I've hoovered up all of the bad junk food.

Does he see how upset its making you? If he really wants a family & you let him see you when you're sad (i know some ladies hide it) he should be doing something about it. Id probably have a massive rant at my DH if he was being like that but maybe you are more restrained than me maybe TLs idea is a good one.

emylou

Hugs Code & tacod- I hope your PMA resumes soon, this is such a struggle of a journey that most people seem to never even have to think about

Re spinning classes- I second the OUCH!!! I managed 2 classes but seeing as I struggled to stand for more than 5 seconds spent far too long sat on the most painful seat EVER!! Could barely walk or move few days after the 1st class & it took me until the 2nd class a week later to be walking normally without wincing lol!!

AFM still awaiting OV CD 26, good in a way as OH is working away tonight anyway. But I was thinking this morning "what's worse- waiting to OV or being in the 2WW?" I suppose at least where I am now, as frustrating as it is waiting for OV at least I can try to plan DTD and be as successful as possible at taking advantage of opportunities?!

Wish I knew what was going on with my body though!? :mad:

emylou

purcy81 wrote: »

Mothers day was carp had a little cry, starting to panic a bit I just had it in my head that I would be pg again by my due date and its only a couple of months away now and nothing.

I also found Mother's Day very hard and am panicking too as conceived last March but had my MMC in May and it's not looking like I'll get my BFP anytime soon so have been past my due date, 1st Christmas, 1st Birthday and 1st Mother's Day as what "should have been" my firsts as a Mummy

My brother tweeted last night "tough day, as worthwhile as it is it's still tough. #justtheonechild?" makes me feel so sad and I hate to say it jealous, know it's prob not meant at me but am very sensitive and take things to heart too much. (He & his GF had a MMC last Feb but then she got pregnant very quickly & had a girl in Jan). My brother knows me & my OH are TTC

squ1rrel5

Wow, seems like a lot of ladies are having the same sort of day as me. I came on here to have a little moan but seems I'm not the only one feeling down today.

Hugs to code, tacod and all the other ladies who need them.

Good luck with your scan tomorrow Becca.

I am just bloody well sick of hearing about pregnant women wherever I turn. I feel terrible because if I hear about a BFP on this board, I'm genuinely pleased - because I know the struggles that we all have - but when I hear about one of my friends, I absolutely seethe with anger and jealousy. I feel like a prize b!tch sometimes - I don't ever let anyone know how I feel (except DH) but no matter how hard I try, I just really can't be happy for them right now. I will in time, but right now - no I actually think I hate them! I've heard of about 3 pregnancies in the past week... I'm meeting one of them for a drink next week and I just don't know how I am going to be... I always put on a brave face of course, but it just means that I'll be in floods of tears when I get home.

I think the thing that makes it worse is I really don't know anyone else who has had TTC struggles. All the pregnancies I've experienced are all close friends or relatives, who've all been very open about how long they've tried for a baby - the longest only being about 4 months - all the others have caught pretty much straight away in month 1 or 2. How they do it I don't know!! We're only 2 months away from our 2 year mark - it just makes me feel like it's never going to happen and I can't help feeling like a bitter and twisted old woman who's destined to be barren forever.

Am so sorry for the rant - I really just needed to get it out.

And relax......

The sooner this weight comes off the better - at least I have a bit of a fighting chance then! This diet probably isnt helping my mood - No food and no baby, does not a happy Squirrel make!

bigzippy

Becca, can you put me down as cd1 today (cd2 wednesday) :cool:

Code I thought you agreed to 6 months a couple of months ago? When is the time "up"?

I'm an "old-timer" that's not going anywhere either. :cool: I won't be getting ivf til at least october, so plenty of time to be overtaken some more in the meantime.;):cool:

angeltreats

Big hugs to Code and Tea & Cake. Don't give up xxx

Well today is CD50 and I have not ovulated and AF is not here and I wish I had a nice normal body like other people. I have an appointment with the doc next Wednesday to discuss scan & x ray results and if nothing has happened by then I suppose I'll have to have a chat with him about this too, although I have no idea what he would suggest.