The Giving Up/ Cutting Down alcohol support thread - number 12

41_and_i_know_it

Hi everyone, welcome if at first (loving your name) btw. Reporting early 29 days whereas I used to drink most nights at home I now feel more confident when at home, I know if I don't start drinking I won't have to stop or try to stop. That sounds so smug but that is the only way I can be sure, I do not trust myself at all, it's worked so far this month and I drank for 4 days in January and 1 in February. All those days were a waste, I did not get anything out of them and I have felt guilty and regretted each one. I wish I knew that I could say no to drink if offered or on a night out so I think if I keep avoiding it I will never know, so I'll be out on the 20th.

tracy_36

Hi all

Managed to be AF tonight, alcohol sure doesn't mend a broken heart, unfortunately

So 11 AF please Shaggy, ty

Imagnu_2

popping in with 29 afd's . thank you

41_and_i_know_it

30 AF days, thanks for all the support, love you all.

CuppaTea

tracy_36 wrote: »

Managed to be AF tonight, alcohol sure doesn't mend a broken heart, unfortunately

I am with you on that one, just as well as i'd be permenantly drunk at the moment.

Reporting another 2 days 26/20 please

Hi everyone, welcome if at first (loving your name) btw. Reporting early 29 days whereas I used to drink most nights at home I now feel more confident when at home, I know if I don't start drinking I won't have to stop or try to stop. That sounds so smug but that is the only way I can be sure, I do not trust myself at all, it's worked so far this month and I drank for 4 days in January and 1 in February. All those days were a waste, I did not get anything out of them and I have felt guilty and regretted each one. I wish I knew that I could say no to drink if offered or on a night out so I think if I keep avoiding it I will never know, so I'll be out on the 20th.

That is amazing, you should feel so proud of yourself 4 days this year is incrediable, esp from where you where. I am proud of your achievements for you!!:T

Yesterday and today are not good days, I have cried way too much, the sort of crying that makes your headache and my stomach hurts too, feels like pulled muscles. I know I need to get this pain out, but I hate feeling so miserable and its hard to hide it from the kids. I feel flat and billy no mates. Everybody seems to be out doing things with their families and its just me and the kids. I know I should be grateful for that, but I want my husband back, I want to be a proper family. Not me feeling responsible for everything and lonely in the process.

Sorry I keep going on about this, I feel like I have a hangover despite being AF for ages. I find myself looking at alcohol in contempt at the moment. I don't want this life. I am trying to help myself, I'm taking the kids up the park, we are cycling, so some fresh air will help maybe lift my mood. This crying is not good for me.

I hope you are all having a lovely Easter though and doing something nice.

41_and_i_know_it

Cuppa Tea, omg I really feel for you. I don't know what to say, I feel like billy no mates too, because I can't get close to anyone because I am not allowed to. I wish I could help you, from past experience I know that you will feel like you do for what seems like eternity and then one day it doesnt hurt so bad. It will take however long it needs, and it is different for everyone. You are doing better than you think, you are getting out of bed, and are talking about it, even if it is here, it is a safe place and we have all felt bad at times, for different reasons, you deserve to be happy and I really want you to feel better soon. By the way, it goes to show how loving a person you are by the hurt you are feeling, as you have obviously invested a lot in this relationship. Please look after yourself, get in touch with your feelings and take time to heal. I really wish you comfort and please dont be hard on yourself, it is heartbreaking when a relationship doesnt work out, I have messed so many up and been hurt so many times, I never thought I would feel better but if I could go back to that time, I would totally understand why I felt so bad. Hugs to you and your little ones, please look after yourself, Tina xxx

Barny1979

Last day of the month and my AFD total for March was 29, went to a wedding reception on Friday and a date last night, so drank both evenings.

unself

I deleted my last post because it was negative (I am very healthy and eat well). I'm going to see how many days I can go in a row without drinking. It's great reading about how well other people are doing, so I will do the same. I'm going to try for a teetotal April so next months target will be 30 days.

Lilith1980

Hi all, 30 AFDs for me please

Back from Silverdale, we had a really relaxing time but really didn't want to come back to everything here

If you ever go to Silverdale, make sure you visit Arnside and the chip shop there - they do the best fish and chips I have ever tasted!

We also went to Morecambe and posed with the Eric Morecambe statue lol.

Hoping to hear about the rented house when people go back to work on Tuesday. No idea when the landlord is getting the boiler fixed - wouldn't surprise me if it was after we leave

Hope everyone is having a nice Easter

41_and_i_know_it

Declaring early for March, 31 days sober and my last drink was on Valentine's night. Even though I haven't drunk this month I am really anxious that April will be hopeless because my brain will try to convince me that because I abstained for a month that I am not an alcoholic and therefore I should enjoy myself in April. But I know that if I give myself an inch I will take a mile, I can't help it. Alcohol has such a mixture of effects on me, the wickedness of having a drink, the initial taste after so long not drinking, then the feeling of getting drunk, the inability to stop or continue in order to make a point of well I've started so i'll finish. Then the bloatedness, the appalling behaviour, the trying to get to the loo in time, the stupid feeling, the out of control feeling, the irresponsible feeling, the sleep that starts as a coma feeling and ends in feeling like you havent slept, the stomach pain, the headache, the aches, the withdrawal, the guilty feeling and excitement of being naughty, it is a drug and I am addicted.