'supporting each other through really tough times'

kezlou

Hello all, been a while since I last been on. We've been through a down patch of the van deciding to break down daft clutch completely broke apart and shattered whilst we wete driving back from sansend. So £480 lighter, but its done now at least.

I've started going to counselling at my gps request, so that's all the forms done. I start properly next week, scary butvnever know it might help.

On the other the lads reall enjoyed the holidays and the two weeks they've been conpletely spoilt, so the entertainment budget is well abd truly gone.

Isn't it weird the weather, we had rain, snow, sun and hail all in one day yesterday . The weather is defunitely changimg again for the cilder arghh need sun !!!!

Sorry my spelling is all ver using ds2 tablet and its a niughtmare.

Oh and mar sub zero is about thecountry suddenly freezing with a group of people trying to find they way to they friends house who's been prepping fir it for years. Its quite good, if you have a kindle I'll send it you :-)

kidcat

monnagran - hope you are ok?

kezlou - just being away will have done you all good although the sun would have been nice I am sure

savingqueen

silvasava wrote: »

Oooh SQ - we're all in suspenders waiting for your news

Are you really?!! :eek:


:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:I now have this weird picture in my head of a group of assorted toughies (various shapes, sizes and ages) wearing a sexy drawers, brassiere and suspenders combo BUT teamed with Nora Batty style stockings, pinnys, curlers in hairnets/head scarves and brandishing whisks and rolling pins. Sorry I must have a strange sense of humour and I'm very tired :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

savingqueen

Ahem, back to sensible SQ again.

Evening all,

Silvasava - no exciting news really, added ! without thinking, probably pepper my sentences with too many !!!s ! Been a busy week for my head - lots of thinking for my poor old brain.

Received a wedding invite from my sister - she isn't getting married abroad after all so technically we could go. Gut feeling was one of horror to receive it. I am actually happy for them both but don't think I can be happy with them on their special day IFYSWIM? Now have the dilema of whether to go - I just can't see myself, us all, making small talk, posing in the photos etc and basically putting on a front when we aren't even talking. We have a tiny family, no aunts/uncles, cousins, grandparents etc and I am the only sibling - whereas the groom has a massive family so it will stand out if we don't go. Immediate gut feeling which hasn't gone is not to go - do I put my feelings first and things like honesty or put that aside and put my sister/parents' feelings first even though they haven't put mine first very often? I don't know if they would ever forgive me not going, it does feel a hurtful thing to do but then when I had a breakdown, not one of them came to visit (and we lived less than an hour away then).

Right on to better stuff. Had my final, follow up employment skills course one day this week in London which was really helpful. The director of the charity running the course (its at a pilot stage) came along for the lunch bit which was lovely as he also happens to be an old boss from way back who I got on really well with.

Got a place on the counselling skills course I wanted to go on which I am over the moon about. Starts next Wednesday. And places on 2 other short courses. All are free (just pay £2 admin fee) and run by the org I am doing the volunteer training with (which is also going well.) Feel slightly concerned how I will fit in the domestic stuff but know I have to grab opportunities when they come my way and all good for getting back to paid work later.

Actually I suppose this bit is big news - I am thinking seriously about studying full-time next year, doing the degree at Uni I have always wanted, thinking of doing a counsellling degree if the initial counselling skills courses pan out.

DS6 just came into our bedroom as had a nightmare so will sign off now and pop back tomorrow

goodnight/morning whenever you are reading
sq:)

nuatha

Originally Posted by silvasava
Oooh SQ - we're all in suspenders waiting for your news

savingqueen wrote: »

Are you really?!! :eek:


:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:I now have this weird picture in my head of a group of assorted toughies (various shapes, sizes and ages) wearing a sexy drawers, brassiere and suspenders combo BUT teamed with Nora Batty style stockings, pinnys, curlers in hairnets/head scarves and brandishing whisks and rolling pins. Sorry I must have a strange sense of humour and I'm very tired :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

The whisk and rolling pin I can do, the rest you'd rather not see me in

The_Dragon

savingqueen wrote: »

Are you really?!! :eek:


:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:I now have this weird picture in my head of a group of assorted toughies (various shapes, sizes and ages) wearing a sexy drawers, brassiere and suspenders combo BUT teamed with Nora Batty style stockings, pinnys, curlers in hairnets/head scarves and brandishing whisks and rolling pins. Sorry I must have a strange sense of humour and I'm very tired :rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

Ah but because I have compression stockings mine would be those really sexy (NOT!) 1930's style ones

nuatha

savingqueen wrote: »

Received a wedding invite from my sister - she isn't getting married abroad after all so technically we could go. Gut feeling was one of horror to receive it. I am actually happy for them both but don't think I can be happy with them on their special day IFYSWIM? Now have the dilema of whether to go - I just can't see myself, us all, making small talk, posing in the photos etc and basically putting on a front when we aren't even talking. We have a tiny family, no aunts/uncles, cousins, grandparents etc and I am the only sibling - whereas the groom has a massive family so it will stand out if we don't go. Immediate gut feeling which hasn't gone is not to go - do I put my feelings first and things like honesty or put that aside and put my sister/parents' feelings first even though they haven't put mine first very often? I don't know if they would ever forgive me not going, it does feel a hurtful thing to do but then when I had a breakdown, not one of them came to visit (and we lived less than an hour away then).

SQ I can fully understand the dilemma, personally I'd go with the gut feeling.
Herself and I get married in June, after a lot of soul searching I haven't invited any of my family - there are some who I'd like to be there but doing so would just cause more discord and bad blood.
Though Herself's sister has apparently decided that she won't be gracing us with her presence (currently not speaking to us, so we only have reports of what she's said to others).

Unfortunately there aren't any easy solutions, I've learned that whatever I do I'm going to cause some upset, so I've made the decisions I can be happiest about living with and still look myself in the mirror.

fuddle

Thank you for the Open Office info. I had no idea there was a free version. Go Mr Soft Stuff!

Well considering I have had a constant pain in my chest since Wednesday (thats how my first panic attack came about) and a panic attack at 11pm last night I think I may well just have to go the sickness route. Of course I can't go to the doctors to get sorted if I go into work so really they leave me no option.

This is me, I don't shirk anything and embarrassed that I'm admitting that I'm walking out on a job but I know it's effecting me and after all the hard work of getting better mentally I am scared of having a relapse.

We've woken this morning to Alfie having a sore and swollen eye. He is going to need the bet for sure.

Monnagran, hope your ok? That last sent an e didn't read like you are. You know where I am in all my guises if you need me.

Welcome back Mrs Chip.

mardatha

Kezlou that books sounds good, I'll go and buy it on Amazon - I don't like kindles, thank you for the offer pet.
Fuddle, we find out what jobs we like by first finding out the ones we don't like

Softstuff

monnagran wrote: »

Softstuff: How very dare you! I'll have you know that I'm off to Greece for a restful and peaceful holiday. If I find that you have sold Nursie to the Greek Government and that she is rampant ANYWHERE near where my caravan resteth I will be seriously displeased. If you are intent on putting her on a plane anytime soon could you not stuff her suitcase with illegal substances. A quick, anonymous phone call to the airport authorities should ensure her incarceration for a few blissful weeks. Job done!

Rest assured I wasn't sending her to Greece. I suggested sending her to Germany to the government there to "reward" them for their efforts in helping the Greek economy.

Jeez, the Greeks have enough cack on their plates without Nursie to mind!