anyone fancy a chat?

newleaf

What happened in between 'fired myself up' and 'but have now lost it' ?

sured

nothing, its just me thinking about ten years i've chucked away on him,
he has no respect for me,
he cant even bring himself to call me,
think i'm just feeling sorry for myself,
sorry

newleaf

Don't be sorry. 10 years is a big investment, you are bound to be sad if it isn't working out as you hoped.
Question is, what do you want to do about it?

sured

i really dont know,
i think part of me wants him to sod off and stay there,
another part of me wants to scream for him to come back,
i think its just because he has been such a big part of me for so long,
need to shake the bad habit,
thank you so much you you really are a rock.

newleaf

A couple more questions then.
What are the ties that bind you?
What do you think he thinks about your relationship?

sured

there are no ties as such, we have no kids together,
the money from the sale of my house went into his(where we live)
i think he thinks he loves me but just wants a mum.

sured

just to add i know it will take time and i will get stronger each day,
i have been through far worse than this.

newleaf

Would he agree to go with you to relationship counselling?

sured

that would be a big fat no.

newleaf

Would you go on your own then?