In the words of Yazz...

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hey it could have been worse with the dress - at least you weren't wearing the same dress as the bride . Seriously though, at least you managed to get changed. Sorry it made you feel rubbish though Xx

Fudgefund

Thanks chaps. I think I am over the dress incident now, I'll just add it to the long list of moments in my life which could only have happened to me or Bridget Jones.

I return after another horrific bout of PMT, which saw me crying for the first time in ages the other night. I have a theory that this is due to a change in the contraceptive pill I take, so I'm going to go back and beg to go on my old one. At the moment I seem to be spending four days a month feeling like I'm suffering from severe depression, it's not fun.

I made the classic mistake of going out last night and spending too much, so to make up for that I've spent all day at home doing wholesome activities like cleaning the bathroom and going for a run. I've started the 5:2 diet for 6 weeks until I go to Chicago, so I will be logging (hopefully!) my results here. I'd love to be 14.10lb when we set off but this is probably wildly optimistic and I'd definitely settle for 15st.

Going to the park with DB tomorrow so hopefully won't spend more than the price of an ice cream there. I've now got £52.32 to last me 11 days. Mm.

Scuff

YEAH ICE CREAM IN THE PARK!! Sounds good (sorry got a bit over excited there...) Hope it's as lovely a day in FF land as it is here!

I actually wanted to comment on the pill thing - I struggled for years with it affecting me emotionally/mentally, without even realising. I was on the same one for years, & then OH & I split up, I stopped taking it, we got back together and there was a time where I was pill free. He said he could tell, & that he thought it was the pill that was causing me to be down, erratic and aggressive haha. I didn't believe him, but as soon as I went back on it I noticed a difference. I think I had just been on it for so much of my adult life that I thought that was me (although I am still all the above things , it just made them even worse) I spent ages swapping pills trying to find one that didn't affect me, and the doctors were very understanding, like it was a normal thing, so I'd strongly suggest talking to your doctor and seeing about changing. I will be honest though, I gave up in the end. I'd rather have a baby than feel like that any more!*

Oh and before you worry, I'm not scary aggressive :rotfl:I just grit my teeth and ball my fists up a lot, OH is safe (plus I'm only tiny, I don't think I'd do anyone any damage if I tried )

Hope you have a lovely day at the park!!

*Disclaimer: this is not my contraceptive advice to the masses. I'm in a stable enough situation (job, flat, steady relationship etc) that if I did get caught out, it wouldn't be the end of the world. 3 years ago, it would have been an unmitigated disaster.

Fudgefund

Thanks for all that Scuff! :A Definitely made me feel less alone. I've been Googling all the pills and it does seem they just send some people a bit too emotional. It's annoying because there was no reason to change the pill I was taking, the nurse was just surprised I wasn't on Microgynon so changed me over. I'm going back in two weeks time and I'm going to ask to be put back onto Loestrin30, I know where I am with that one. I was very worried I was becoming excessively paranoid, which is something my Dad suffers from, but I'm now 90% sure it's the pill. I don't need any help in being moody or down most of the time.

I've been away for a while, so where, I hear you all cry, have I been? I've mostly had a terrible bout of flu which meant I had the whole of last week off work. It was extremely unpleasant, as soon as one symptom subsided another one made an appearance. I think I'm fully recovered now, and the good news is that I didn't eat much or spend very much money! That is not to say I last on the £95 I had, I had to borrow £20 from DB for the first time ever. I've paid him back now and I'm determined not to do it again this month.

I got paid today, and this is going to be a funny month so I've split my money in many different directions. I've paid £400 to Barclaycard, and paid £20 to DB. I've had a long standing debt of £40 to a brother who lives abroad who has probably forgotten it but he's had a baby recently and I know they are struggling so I would like to give it back. My Mum is going to visit him, so it's the ideal time. I've decided I need another $100 dollars for Chicago (roughly £63) but this is okay because it'll be a three week month for me. The good news is no one is getting married or aging, so I've got a bit of a let up there, just need to pay for my hair £90 (alright everyone, calm down). With rent and bills this leaves me with £200 for food/entertainment for three weeks, but I am going to Blackpool next weekend for two nights so I will need a bit extra for that.

I'm hoping this will see me through, the good news is that I get paid while I'm away, so I should have a jump start on September because I'll be living off my spending money until the 19th. That weekend I'm going home because my sister is having a c-section so apart from a new baby gift I should be fed there until the 22nd. This is the plan anyway. I'm still not updating my totals due to the holiday, DB still owes me £650, and I still need to pay up some, so I'll sort it out in September.

In other good news, the much rumoured civil service 1% payrise is finally going to be paid in September! I know it's only about a tenner a month but I'm sad enough to get excited about it and I think it'll be backdated from April.

The other good news is the 5:2/flu diet is yielding results - 6lbs lost since the wedding! I've also been very good about exercising and have 'run' 10 miles in the past week. Very smug about this.

Fudgefund

I had my first dieting failure of my new regime today. I was in a really bad mood all day, which culminated in me blowing not only my hopes of a rare NSD, but also blowing my fast day by buying 5 Curly Wurly's for a pound and eating three of them. This still means I've finished the day under 1000 calories, but honestly, the shame!

I've worked out I have roughly £170 for the next three weeks, but I'm going to Blackpool on Thursday and I'm seriously concerned my lack of impulse control will send me right to the Bingo machines. I think DB is going to have to take my purse off me; I've been known to blow £10 whilst he's nipped to the toilets in Coral Island. :rotfl:I've got enough to get me through to Thursday in my purse, and I've worked out that spending £60 this weekend should keep me within budget. Train fare is about £16 though, so it's not going to be easy.

In other news, I spent a bit more than I wanted to this weekend, mostly on food. I did make a really lovely chicken and chorizo jamalaya though, and it was really nice to have something different for a change. Managed a NSD on Sunday, but this was because I spent so much in Morrisons the day before. I did manage a 5k run in 36 minutes though. :T

The really good news is, DB has had to sell some shares, so he has some money winging it's way to his bank account. This means he will be able to pay me his remaining holiday balance (£536) and I'll be able to get that off my Barclaycard balance. This'll be a big relief, and I might even sneak a peek at my balance after that.

please-let-me-be-lucky

Well done you with the running :T

Now tell me, where can I get 5 Curly Wurleys for £1??!! :rotfl: Xx

Scuff

Fudgefund wrote: »

Thanks for all that Scuff! :A Definitely made me feel less alone. I've been Googling all the pills and it does seem they just send some people a bit too emotional. It's annoying because there was no reason to change the pill I was taking, the nurse was just surprised I wasn't on Microgynon so changed me over. I'm going back in two weeks time and I'm going to ask to be put back onto Loestrin30, I know where I am with that one. I was very worried I was becoming excessively paranoid, which is something my Dad suffers from, but I'm now 90% sure it's the pill. I don't need any help in being moody or down most of the time.

Glad to be of help! tbh I don't think you can really put artificial hormones into your body without it affecting you somehow! It was microgynon i was on for the most amount of time - silly that the nurse should try fix something that's not broken in the first place though!

PS I like reading your diary when you say the phrase 'Good news' a lot

Fudgefund

Good news for you then Scuff, for I am going to use it at least twice in this post. PLMBL - the 5 Curly Wurly's for £1 are in Tesco, and I am avoiding them at all costs.

I really do feel August is a week too long this year. Because the bank holiday feels early, it's as though I have an extra week to struggle through. I know this is just me but honestly, next week is nothing but a huge inconvenience to me. I am half way through my £60 bank holiday weekend challenge, and I have to say I am doing pretty well! I spent £17.20 getting to Blackpool, and £13.95 on entry to the zoo which was actually very good value when you consider I watched an elephant having a pedicure and got to stroke a donkey. I convinced DB to put £10 into a kitty with me (no, not the animal), and his Nana who we were staying with also gave us £10, and this stretched to an ice cream and bottle of coke in the zoo (the coke was £2.00, not very MSE ), two rounds of drinks, chips and curry sauce and a few goes in the arcade. It really couldn't have worked out better for me, as I think I have a tendency to spend more then DB when we are out together but I have no idea why I feel the need. The really good news is that although we didn't make anything in the arcades, I had three good wins which meant we broke even. I was so excited when I won £5 it was bordering on tragic.

This means I'm up to £41.15, but this is actually good, because if I hadn't focussed on how much I had to spend I'm sure I would've spent far more. DB's Grandparents fed us really well while we were with them, so I'd like to buy them a present, so I'll be mulling this over in the next few days (turning up with a gift for them is always greeted with disapproving 'you shouldn't haves') so it'd need to be delivered. Me and DB are off to see his parents tomorrow, we were going to get the train, but we've been offered a lift with the newly weds, so I can't get out of that. It does save me money though which is also good news. Just need to buy ingredients for tea for tonight and Monday night, and a bottle of wine for DB's parents, and I'll be home dry. Phew. This will leave me with £100 for the remaining two weeks until my holidays but I have no plans and I want to eat cheaply and healthily, so this should be easy.

17 days until my holidays! :j

please-let-me-be-lucky

How about just sending a nice thank you card to the grandparents? I'm sure they'd appreciate it just as much and it wouldn't cost as much as a gift. It still says you care Xx

debtfreewannabe321

Hello :j just popping out to say hi...I've read your diary from the beginning and am up to date today you've done a great job keeping the debts going down and I look forward to joining you on the rest of your journey .

I don't suffer with BP but I do have a daily battle with depression and have done since I was 15 so in some ways can understand what you're saying, I can also tell (mainly) when a bad day is coming and try to nip it in the bud asap, doesn't always work though I also suffer with dreadful pmt each and every month so have to stop and think sometimes about whether my symptoms are pmt or depression (either way not great though :rotfl:)

Your holibobs sound ace I can't wait to be able to afford a holiday away xx