itsa's boot camp diary

Rainbow_Bridge

Well done with keeping off the ciggies despite the immense stress. Keep up the good work xx.

WelshWoofer

Well done itsa!
I'm going to attempt to give up again soon and know how hard it is. Keep going!

itsa

Hi both, thanks for popping in.

Another dreadful week at work and not a minute to think. I'm really getting too old for this

On a more positive note, I'm now nearly through day 31 without a ciggie (not even a puff ). I've had a couple of bad days this week, but generally it's getting easier. The big cravings aren't coming very often, but they're dangerous because I can hear myself thinking "I wish this would go away because I'm really fed up dealing with it". The rest of the time there's a sort of general, background feeling that something's not quite right. I think I need to try and take a bit of time this weekend to think about it and remind myself why I wanted to stop in the first place.

Also need to do 101 other things this weekend, but tonight I’m just going to have a rest

gothrockchic1

itsa wrote: »

Hi both, thanks for popping in.

Another dreadful week at work and not a minute to think. I'm really getting too old for this

On a more positive note, I'm now nearly through day 31 without a ciggie (not even a puff ). I've had a couple of bad days this week, but generally it's getting easier. The big cravings aren't coming very often, but they're dangerous because I can hear myself thinking "I wish this would go away because I'm really fed up dealing with it". The rest of the time there's a sort of general, background feeling that something's not quite right. I think I need to try and take a bit of time this weekend to think about it and remind myself why I wanted to stop in the first place.

Also need to do 101 other things this weekend, but tonight I’m just going to have a rest

Well done on the not smoking, they say after two months nicotine is completely out of your system so your half way there :T:T

itsa

Thanks gothrockchick. I've started on my second "mark off the days poster. Each one's 28 days so I had to go and get another quitkit, but I really look forward to giving myself a sticker every morning. Simple things

Rainbow_Bridge

Itsa, just keep going, one day at a time, you are doing great!

To stop smoking takes an enormous amount of determination and will-power and you are succeeding.

Conquer this and the sky is your limit.

Ladybird.

Very well done on the not smoking itsa!

I gave up 6 years ago and haven't even thought about a cigarette for about 5 of those. Hard to remember actually being a smoker- you'll get there too! :beer:

itsa

Hi all.

Ladybird, well done on quitting smoking; it's nice to know there's light at the end of the tunnel

and Rainbow, thanks for that. Before I stopped I pretty much was thinking that this is the most important thing I could do - it impacts on every little bit of my life, from the obvious money and health, to having more time and even down to not having to clean so much (now the smoky haze is clearing from my eyes I'm starting to see the effects of heavy smoking in a small flat :eek: :eek:).

The last couple of weeks, though, I've think I've got a bit carried away with the idea of 'boot camp' and sorting my whole life out, and this weekend I've been panicking and overwhelmed, and have re-acted fairly typically by doing nothing.

So, I've taken a step back and given myself some fairly loose things to aim for by Christmas. As long as I'm doing something towards something, I'll get there in the end.

itsa

Okay, so the focus until December (in no particular order) is

Work
Regular routine
Complete declutter
Take some time out every day to think about my own behaviour (perfectionist, control freak, displacement activity :eek: am I making it too hard for myself!)

Health
Quitting smoking comes first
Replenish the vitamins

Home
Complete declutter (use it or lose it)

Finances
Find money for peace of mind list
Forget about the rest (it will work out eventually - just don’t do anything to muck it up)


Work is completely draining me at the moment. I seem to have lost the ability to deal with stresses and know that I am overthinking everything. The problem is that I have been distracted for a long time by various worries, I'm disorganised, cluttered and don't have any discipline or routine. On the other hand, I'm not the only one struggling at the moment so there's obviously something wrong. I feel stuck at the moment, can't deal with the stress of work, but don't have enough energy to get out. I've decided to concentrate on my part - get healthy, get into a good routine, get organised - if it's still as bad by my anticipated DFD, then at least I know it is in reality a carp job and not just that I can't cope anymore, and I might be in a better position to do something about it.

Healthwise, I've had all sorts of plans for new diets, exercise routines, "turn back the body clock" type transformations, but the reality is that it's all too much to do right now. I think that years of smoking, drinking and erratic eating have probably depleted my levels of vitamins and minerals, and I should just concentrate on 'feeding' my body for a while.

The peace of mind list (to come) is all the other things that are draining my energy. Honestly, some of them are just little things that wouldn't take long to do or don't cost much money, but I can't seem get round to them, and I can feel them niggling away at me.

So, general aims and lots of time to do them. Panic over (for now, anyway)

NewLeaf_2

hi.. well done on the smoking front. Don't fall back now you have come so far.

I struggle with seeing a mountain in front of me, so several tiny hills approach seems sensible. as they say

"dont try to eat the elephant whole"