Should I ask to go into hospital? I feel like I'm in crisis with mental health

HappySaver1968

Hi,

I've posted a lot recently of the problems I'm having in my life and unfortunately, no matter how hard I try, things just seem to be getting worse and the people around me are causing me so many problems that I just don't think I can cope anymore. My wife (along with various other people) continue to harass and bother me and for reasons I don't know the house I was to get has now fallen through as the landlord called me on the morning I was supposed to sign the lease and said he'd changed his mind which really annoyed me at the very least as I want to get out from under my mates feet and he is now in a very bad position because his girlfriend made it clear she wanted rid of me and now I'm back, she's away in a mood but I have nowhere else to go as my parents are too old and infirm to have these problems landed on their doorstep.

I've spent all this week feeling lower and worse than I have done for a very long time. I want to die and I have already given my CPN my knives and things which are a temptation to me and ones I can't afford to be around because I've had several attempts on my life in the past, usually after run ins with my wife or her family. I feel the ONLY option for me now is to go into hospital and get help but I just don't have the energy, willpower, or even the knowledge to know where to start or how to go about it as when I was sectioned, it was all done automatically. I'm sitting here right now a complete mess with no hope and on one to turn to and I'm not due to see my Doctor until Monday or my Nurse until Wednesday, just feel I can't wait. Can anybody offer me some assistance? I know this is probably the wrong place to post but I've been helped here before and just hope someone can give me good advice. Thank you.

John.

greenhill

HappySaver1968 wrote: »

Hi,

I've posted a lot recently of the problems I'm having in my life and unfortunately, no matter how hard I try, things just seem to be getting worse and the people around me are causing me so many problems that I just don't think I can cope anymore. My wife (along with various other people) continue to harass and bother me and for reasons I don't know the house I was to get has now fallen through as the landlord called me on the morning I was supposed to sign the lease and said he'd changed his mind which really annoyed me at the very least as I want to get out from under my mates feet and he is now in a very bad position because his girlfriend made it clear she wanted rid of me and now I'm back, she's away in a mood but I have nowhere else to go as my parents are too old and infirm to have these problems landed on their doorstep.

I've spent all this week feeling lower and worse than I have done for a very long time. I want to die and I have already given my CPN my knives and things which are a temptation to me and ones I can't afford to be around because I've had several attempts on my life in the past, usually after run ins with my wife or her family. I feel the ONLY option for me now is to go into hospital and get help but I just don't have the energy, willpower, or even the knowledge to know where to start or how to go about it as when I was sectioned, it was all done automatically. I'm sitting here right now a complete mess with no hope and on one to turn to and I'm not due to see my Doctor until Monday or my Nurse until Wednesday, just feel I can't wait. Can anybody offer me some assistance? I know this is probably the wrong place to post but I've been helped here before and just hope someone can give me good advice. Thank you.

John.

Bless you. I've felt like that.

PLEASE email the Samaritans jo@samaritans.org or ring them on 08457 90 90 90.

I'm also sure somebody else more helpful will come along and give you some advice.

In the meantime please realise that you're not alone :grouphug:

HappySaver1968

Thanks, I call Samaritans quite a lot and it usually helps but I just can't get closure now as things are so bad. John.

Pursey

Do you have a local crisis team? They should be able to help you this evening and give you advice on what to do. I would contact them ASAP.

tankgirl1

Have you tried NHS direct John? If you read back what you have written to them they should help
0845 46 47 I think.

Another option is ring your GP's OOH and ask for help.

You are certainly not alone, and you have MSE to turn to - it's helped me before now!

HappySaver1968

Pursey wrote: »

Do you have a local crisis team? They should be able to help you this evening and give you advice on what to do. I would contact them ASAP.

I was given the number for Social Work Services out of hours team in case of emergency but I don't know what to say to them or if they can even help me due to my problems being related mainly to Mental Health. My CPN stated in the past to go to AE if I feel in crisis and can't wait to see her and they'll assess me there but I don't know how that works and I just need peace of mind now and to get rid of these thoughts and voices in my head. They keep telling me to do horrible things and I can't forget what my wife has been saying to me either because her words really hurt. I think she knows this but how anyone can take such delight in destroying the father of her children is beyond me.

John.

thatgirlsam

Hi John, Im sorry that you feel like this

you can go to an A&E dept and tell a nurse that you are feeling like harming yourself

Can I give you a (((hug))) - Don't give up, go to the hospital and ask for help

Sam x

HappySaver1968

thatgirlsam wrote: »

Hi John, Im sorry that you feel like this

you can go to an A&E dept and tell a nurse that you are feeling like harming yourself

Can I give you a (((hug))) - Don't give up, go to the hospital and ask for help

Sam x

Thank you Sam, that means a lot to me. I know this will sound silly but I'm just so tired and want to sleep but can't. Things have been very difficult and as I say I don't think I have the energy to get to hospital as I'd probably have to wait hours. I might try Samaritans again. John.

big5

Hi John, I've just had a look on the Mind website and they say you can go to your nearest A&E department (or dial 999 if you feel like you're in immediate danger). http://www.mind.org.uk/help/crisis Would your friend be able to go to the hospital with you? I hate to think of you being alone right now.

tankgirl1

HappySaver1968 wrote: »

I was given the number for Social Work Services out of hours team in case of emergency but I don't know what to say to them or if they can even help me due to my problems being related mainly to Mental Health. My CPN stated in the past to go to AE if I feel in crisis and can't wait to see her and they'll assess me there but I don't know how that works and I just need peace of mind now and to get rid of these thoughts and voices in my head. They keep telling me to do horrible things and I can't forget what my wife has been saying to me either because her words really hurt. I think she knows this but how anyone can take such delight in destroying the father of her children is beyond me.

John.

John if you have their number then give them a call - if you don't know what to say then read this thread to them. If you don't feel up to that then ask them for an email addy so you can send them a link to it.

Of course they can help you - that is what they are there for! I have rung my OOH mental health team before, and they have been brilliant.

Please ring them :grouphug:

flossy_splodge

And well done for trying to reach out for help. Thats a massive thing to do and I applaud and admire you for doing so. Consider the ideas you've already been offered and make a decision to do one.
All these people really would prefer to help you now than in an even worse situation.
God Bless. xx