Breathing out, I smile – Bringing ZEN to the life of a DFW

savingwannabe

I need to stop getting all confused on MSE and causing hassle. No idea of how to change so i am sticking to diaries where i feel safe so I dont cause any more grief for now. Any ideas Marru? Other than me having a lobotomy?

Marru

SW - you are a sweetheart, I wouldn't have you any other way.

savingwannabe

Oh Marru. I iz an idiot. Thanks for still being my friend. I am going to learn from this. But dont know how to stop worrying. I will though. Hugs and thank you for always being there.

Marru

Today was D day. That means that DD was with her dad. I went to have my acupuncture treatment and then met with another MSEer.

I really don't know why but now I have a massive head ache. I have taken migraine tablet but that did nothing. I think it will be very early to bed for me. I have some other tablets I can take so will try those. Normally after treatment I feel just tired. Perhaps it was the busy cafe and not drinking any water.

Only thing I have managed to do is to relist those items that didn't sell last time. I have brought all the selling prices down by £1. I had lots of watchers last time so hoping that this time they will sell. I still can list two items (I am a new seller so have 10 item limit) so I will have a rummage tomorrow what I can list.

Also I need to do a shopping list for tomorrow. Couldn't bring myself to do that today, good thing too with my poorly head. So tomorrow I am going through my pile of slowcooker books, idea is to have SC on every day. We could then have tea ready waiting when we come home and I could take some for lunch for following day and rest could go to the freezer to stock up (so that in the future the SC doesn't have to work over time and neither would I). I will let you know if I can make it to work.

Anyway - I am about to get DD to bed and then I shall retire as well.

savingwannabe

Glad you are meeting up with people and widening your circle of friends. It is good. Good luck with ebaying and also with slow cooker. You had a headache and i went nuts last night. Dont worry all will be well today. Fingers crossed. hugs, sw.

Horace

I have found your diary:j

I think it is the change in air pressure causing the headache, either that or it was the coffee in the cafe:eek: I have felt a bit headachey too but I think that is in part down to me not taking my eye drops daily:o

Well done on the transfer too. Hope you have a great day today.

lionheartedgirl

just de-lurking to say I LOVED your post about forgiving yourself. that is such an interesting concept and I have been thinking about it loads since I read it. I am off to see my counselling lady tonight and will talk about it to her.

My situation wasn't anything as full on as yours but I did let myself make a lot of mistakes which I wouldn't have done if I had listened to myself and kept my eyes open. Not sure I am quite ready to forgive me yet but will carry on contemplating.

Also I loved your tantrum post on your blog- and wondered where you found the words!

Am intrigued about your experiences with acupuncture too, I have tried a few other alternative therapies but never this one (although it is getting quite mainstream now!). I must give it a go some time.

Marru

Hello Horace :hello: I think it was lack of drinking water.

BF came yesterday to rescue :smileyhea He took us for lunch, he installed the cat flap (so now the neighbourhood cats can't come and eat Kitty's food) and he entertained DD so that I was able to have a rest. I fell asleep with all my clothes on around 6 pm and had solid 12 hours :eek:

Hello to you too Lionheartedgirl - you know, I don't know either where I found the words, they just came (I was bored out of my mind at work when my excel was "calculating" so while waiting for it to do its thing I jotted it down :rotfl:)

So no head ache today. Five tasks on the frog board for this week. Menu plan done, shopping on Wednesday when DD in beavers. So now my weekends are freed from shopping, only planning needs to be done then. :j

Marru

Just a quick one from me tonight. I have another teleconference from 2 to 4 am so really need to go and get some rest before that. (And I think WM has finished so need to hang the stuff to dry.)

Anyway I was reading a book by the person who's quote I have in my signature. He was talking about having a reminder for us to breath and smile. One of the reminders could be a red light. So instead of cursing the red light and getting all tense I have now made a real effort to remember to welcome it as an opportunity to relax, breath and smile.

And as it happens there is this one big roundabout near my work that I need to go around every morning (I am taking 4th exit, 5th would be coming back to yourself). Normally I have to stop at least in one set of lights. Would you believe that I just whizzed through it this morning - unheard of. I don't know if I should be happy or disappointed. :rotfl:

Marru

Zen hasn't exactly described last couple of days.

DD forgot to pack her swimming costume yesterday so I had to dash to the reception of the swimming pools and buy her a new one, I did tell her that this is the last time I bail her out this way. Next time it is straight back to home. I know it sounds harsh considering that she is only 6 but I think she should be responsible for her swimming kit (I at her age was responsible of my school bag and what I needed each day and also that I had enough trips left on my bus pass).

Today I have been on this training course aimed at separated parents to aid in communication. For me it was utter waste of day especially as I had to use annual leave to be able to do it.

Then while DD was in beavers I went to do shopping. I knew I was a little low in funds but it was lower than I thought. So I had to leave all the herbs and spices, my apples and butternut squash in the shop. However I did get all the meat and other veggies that I needed. All the seasoning is now what I can find and what comes from the stock cubes.

I then had enough left to get quarter of the tank of diesel. And hopefully still enough to take DD to the pottery painting place where we are planning on going on Saturday with some of her friends. Phew. Now I just need to tell BF that I can't afford the diesel to go and see him on Sunday and also say that I really don't want any more money from him. I want to start paying that debt off and not get more into debt.

And Kitty is not using her super duper cat flap, she only goes through if I keep it open for her - what a pain. Also got big electricity bill today that I can't afford to pay this week.

But
- I have enough diesel to last at least until I get next lot of tax credits
- We have lots of food
- Broccoli and cheese soup is now in SC (one portion for my lunch tomorrow and rest to freezer)
- I started knitting a lovely ruffled scarf (I bought the wool from a market in France)
- Company owes me over 160.-, note to self - put expense claim in tomorrow