Depression

blinky

Morning all and hello to Lexy :wave: - everyone is welcome here.

I'm okay just been busy at work and in my personal life :whistle: :happyhear

Anyone having haggis tonight with it being Burns Night?

We are off out tonight but I don't think haggis is on the menu.... It's my birthday, 34 today. _party_ _party_

Big hugs to all but particularly to feelie, Ethel and CCStar

Tiff_2

blinky wrote:

We are off out tonight but I don't think haggis is on the menu.... It's my birthday, 34 today. _party_ _party_

Hi angel!

HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY BLINKY!!!

:bdaycake:

Here's hoping you have an amazing birthday (I'm not buying a hat!!!:D ) with much happiness in the coming year hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
PS

Tiff_2

Hi cm hun!
Hoping you have a wonderful trip to London - safe journeys and be sure to have some FUN!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Pumpkin_Pie_5

blinky wrote:

Morning all and hello to Lexy :wave: - everyone is welcome here.

I'm okay just been busy at work and in my personal life :whistle: :happyhear

Anyone having haggis tonight with it being Burns Night?

We are off out tonight but I don't think haggis is on the menu.... It's my birthday, 34 today. _party_ _party_

Big hugs to all but particularly to feelie, Ethel and CCStar

Happy Birthday Blinky!:D :beer:

queensway_boy

HUge HUgs to everyone



Happy Birthday blinky

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blinky

Thanks guys :T :T :beer:

You are all :A

Horasio

Happy Birthday Blinky:)

feelinggood_2

Happy Birthday Blinky

feelinggood_2

geminilady wrote:

I had never heard of Dermatillomia,had to look it up.Have you made an apointment at the doctors?I agree that you should be brave and show him the full extent of it,hope he is some help.Night feely hope you have a good night x

I will try and mention it when I go back to get my next prescription - about 10 days away.

Its a really embarrasing condtion - I mentioned it to my last doctor, who questioned me about why, how etc, and then said that I should stop. Hmm, I hadn't thought about that!

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

Had a more restful PM today, after mopping up my leaky washing machine door seal.

But it wasn't to last, my son lost his mobile phone but someone honest found it and he will collect it tomorrow,

Why do things pile up when you need to relax? I had yet another spoilt meal tonight due to stress. I make lovely meals but something spoils it and my stomach feels like it turns to lead once it happens. I'm getting to the stage where I would like to eat alone most of the time. Eating with my family is stress city. The subjects that get bought up are so stressful, it puts me off my food.

All this on top of needing to rest before we have viewers and keeping the house nice. I feel everything is trying to sabotage me moving on. I feel I can't ever get what I really want and need, someone or something always f**ks it up for me.

Why should getting a happy peaceful home ever happen for me?, the noisy inconsiderate people follow me wherever I go, they just have different faces. Am I destined to have hell for the rest of my life? Normally, I can be strong and go for what I want but my negative family get to me when I aspire for something else and try and keep me in my dependent state with the lines of - the world is uncaring, you will get lonely and you can't afford it, like it is not meant for me.

My destiny is enduring annoying people till they die, like my mum did with my dad. She was 70 when he died and had 40 years of hell with him. I have been with my husband for 25 years, why do people stay together when they are unhappy with them?

I have overdone it getting this place ready to sell and been unable to relax, due to irritating things such as noisy kids screaming for 4 hours on Tuesday evening when I need to rest.

It gets me more tense, can't relax, things get more annoying, and so forth - a vicious circle. I am so overtired and scared to relax when I can. I need a break but too tired to do anything about it. I need people to back off and let me rest!!!!

CCstar - why not have a break from cooking for a while? I do this every now and then (well, sometimes it lasts 3 months lol) Just fill the fridge/freezer with loads of ready meals (healthy ones if poss) and just tell them its every man for themselves - tell them to cook and wash up for themselves, when they like. That way, you get to eat when you want - you can still cook lovely things for you, and freeze the other portions - and it means you don't have to sit in the same room as them while they eat like pigs. I don't know if it would work for you or not, but I find it helps me when I need a break. I try so hard to change things here - doesn't work though. He still won't eat before 9pm - everything is so late here :-/

I know its hard, you are probably at the stage where all you can do is grit your teeth and try and get through it as best as you can. Try and stay focused on what you need to do. I know its hard. Things will be finished soon, and you can start making moves to be happy. People stay with people who make them unhappy because they are too scared to take that leap. Sad but true.

You are meant to be happy - you are strong and you will beat them. Don't let the b!stards get you down as they say. You are an inspiration to alot of us, keep fighting sweetie xxx