Depression

flis21

dmg24 wrote: »

Hope no one minds, I just don't know where else to go. Left the house tonight for the first time in two weeks, and really thought I looked ok. Then during the evening got called an 'oompalumpa' and 'fat'. Fat I can cope with, I know I have put on weight recently, but the other took real thought. Just tried to laugh it off when he said it.

Why are people so cruel?

I used to be in an incredibly destructive relationship. I saw him tonight, and was so tempted to go back, just to have someone that understands. He was evil to me, but when I was low, he understood.

I'm really sorry, I have avoided posting all this for so long because I don't want to get anybody else down. I just don't know where else to go.

Thank you to anyone who reads this, and please don't worry, everything works out in the end. Am going to try to sleep now, I don't know what else to do.

Thank again x

Oh DMG, It sounds like you have had a horrendous time. How can people be that cruel? I have experienced similar things with people calling me names because of my weight. It is the worst thing that can happen.

Please do not go back to, what you called yourself, 'a destructive relationship' that is not going to help you or your self-esteem. Just try and remember that you are a beautiful person and these people must have very sorry lives, if all they can think of to do it call you names. Was it just one person in particular? Do you know that person?

Plese don't avoid posting. This place is wonderful therapy for getting things off your chest.

Am sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes.

Flis

flis21

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Why am I so intent on self destruction. All I do is look at different ways of hurting, punishing myself.

RBK - please remember that this is the illness talking. If things get really bad and you think you are going to do something contact someone, anyone, your GP, social worker, CMHT or the samaritans.

You are a wonderful person and you have provided me and a lot of other people on this board with a lot of support and I would hate it if anything happened to you. You are important to us, just remember that.

Sending you hugs.

Karrie

flis21 wrote: »

RBK - please remember that this is the illness talking. If things get really bad and you think you are going to do something contact someone, anyone, your GP, social worker, CMHT or the samaritans.

You are a wonderful person and you have provided me and a lot of other people on this board with a lot of support and I would hate it if anything happened to you. You are important to us, just remember that.

Sending you hugs.

:T :T I'm with you on that one flis. RBK you've been a great help to me recently. We all need you around, and we're here should you need us.

Karrie

This place has been my saviour over the last few weeks. When I read back what I have written it highlights to me just how ill I am. Today I am having a good day so I an appreciate that I am ill and not mad :rolleyes: To be able to write things down and to be allowed to say how you're feeling is a great relief. I apologise to those people who took the time to read my posts and replied. BUT I appreciate every single word that is sent to me and I do take on board what is said. Tomorrow I might go down hill and want to come on here and rant but the thing is I know I can without feeling daft. I still get angry with myself. I still have morbid thoughts. I also know that, although I don't have much, I have way too much to live for.

RBK - let it all out. Please.

Tulip

Hi Everyone,

I read this thread every day and I actually felt shy to do my first post but I am here at long last,Hi to all hope you dont mind me coming on this thread.

Karrie: I agree its nice to be able to offload stuff as It takes the weight off your shoulders

I get my low days now and again and days when I am happy I live in Devon.I have a network of people who help me when I feel low so I have great support.Today for me too is a good day

Katie

Karrie

Tulip wrote: »

Hi Everyone,

I read this thread every day and I actually felt shy to do my first post but I am here at long last,Hi to all hope you dont mind me coming on this thread.

Karrie: I agree its nice to be able to offload stuff as It takes the weight off your shoulders

I get my low days now and again and days when I am happy I live in Devon.I have a network of people who help me when I feel low so I have great support.Today for me too is a good day

Katie

Hi Katie :wave:

Welcome and don't be shy Of course we don't mind you coming to this thread. Pull up a chair ............ :beer:

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Tiff, Your posts are always so caring and helpful.

How are you doing?

What are you up to this bank holiday weekend?

Are you looking forward to the wedding?

Things OK at Tiff towers? lol

flis, I'm really glad to hear that the money eventually appeared on your card what a relief eh.

It definately sounds as though you have been overdoing it recently. I hope you are relaxing today. What are your plans for this bank holiday weekend?

Are you enjoying being back at work?

If you and your OH are thinking about having a baby then I think you should speak to another Doctor about the use of anti-depressants during pregnancy. You need to make sure that you're doing the right thing for both you and baby.

Karrie, Thank you for the hugs hun

How are you?

Hun, never apologise (((HUGS)))

Mclaren, How did your Doctor's appointment go?

dmg24, :hello: (((HUGS))) I think you dealt with the situation well by laughing it off. People usually make cruel remarks to get some kind of reaction. He's obviously very immature :rolleyes:

It's a good thing that you didn't find yourself back in a destructive relationship. That wouldn't have helped you at all. You don't need !!!!!!s like that bringing you down.

:hello: Tulip Welcome to the depression thread. I hope you find this thread a great source of support. Everyone is so lovely.

I don't want 'professional help' though. I just want to be left alone. How can they help me when I don't even want to help myself.

My parents keep asking if my boyfriend is coming over. I haven't been able to tell them that we split up a couple of weeks ago. I just make the excuse that he's probably busy. I can't face telling them. It will only make me seem more of a failure than I already am.

I have no plans for the weekend at all. It will be spent alone in my bedroom. I have coursework to do but I cannot be bothered. I see no point in anything.

I cannot be trusted with tablets. I know that OD will destroy my organs but does it bother me? No. How bad is that. Why the hell am I like this!!!

Let_Robinson_Sing

rose07 wrote: »

thanks hun



hope you doing ok?

my pain doesnt seem to be getting better, i know i have bruising all over my foot from the operation, and having the plaster on, is pressin on those bruises, makin my pain constant. . But now i am convincing myself that the pain doesnt matter as i somehow deserve it

take care hun x

Hey sweetie.

I am ok ta, just been for a walk in the lakes. was good. got a lot of energy out of me . I am shattered now. If there is a lot of pain in there contact the doctor or something you shouldnt suffer. Come on Rosie, you dont deserve the pain at all, its just a course of things that happen.

take care
xxx

Karrie

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I don't want 'professional help' though. I just want to be left alone. How can they help me when I don't even want to help myself.

My parents keep asking if my boyfriend is coming over. I haven't been able to tell them that we split up a couple of weeks ago. I just make the excuse that he's probably busy. I can't face telling them. It will only make me seem more of a failure than I already am.

I have no plans for the weekend at all. It will be spent alone in my bedroom. I have coursework to do but I cannot be bothered. I see no point in anything.

I cannot be trusted with tablets. I know that OD will destroy my organs but does it bother me? No. How bad is that. Why the hell am I like this!!!

Hi RBK

You are NOT a failure at all. Just tell them that you felt he wasn't right for you and decided to call it a day. They've probably guessed anyway and are just waiting for you to tell them. We have to kiss a lot of frogs to find our prince

I have no plans this weekend either. My son has gone away with his dad and my partner has gone to the US for work. A whole two days on my own. Just me and my thoughts. Like you, I can't be bothered and will be in bed early tonight. I didn't take my med on Thursday night but did last night. I do feel better just very tired.

I'm sorry I don't know your whole story and am assuming that you have od'd before? Well I'm glad you are here now cos you talk so much sense in your posts. When I am bad, I ask myself why am I here but then I think we are all here for a reason. We all have something to contribute but we all do it in a different way. When I had PND 10 years ago I wanted to crash my car into a tree. When I think what I would have missed if I had, it scares me.

Do you know what cheered me up today? huh erm ......... Paris Hilton could be going to prison!! Wicked huh? I am sure she contribute something but for the life me I can't think what.:rolleyes:

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing, won't you?

Tulip

Hi All,

well I just had tomatoes on toast for my tea and that was nice,earlier felt slightly unwell but after seeing a friend and had a cup of coffee I felt ok again.

RBK:You are not a failure whatsoever,you are special,just remember that ok?

Tiff: Hi hope you are ok,hope the wedding goes well

Karrie: Hi again,glad you had a lovely day

to all of you

Katie