Depression

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Off for a few days from tonight (Lincoln for a few days and a night in a localish hotel). Not sure when I will posting again after today but I will be thinking of you all.

learning_to_drive

Ditto, still no news, Smiths rung me, but i missed the call, so I rung them back, she said she would ring me back, still nothing,

Horasio

Thinking of you all - big hugs to you all

Got a cold just now and preparing for our trip away next week, so won't be posting after Sunday.

Then we start the serious househunting!

lipsthefish

Hi all, Im sorry for hijacking the thread, I have popped in once before and am an avid lurker but can never seem to find the right words for posting. I feel really guilty for saying it as I know people have got real big problems but I am just feeling so so low, for the last few weeks I have been having a lot of panic attacks, several a day, and although I know all the stuff I am supposed to knowe about controlling them etc I am still finding it very very scary, its almost like I am waiting all the time for it to happen again. The last week has been an effort even just to get out of bed, Ive been treated for depression, anxiety for the last 12 years and just want so much to feel better. I have an appointment at 2 today with the community mental health team, its a follow up appointment to some help I have been getting from them since last year, but I feel almost like they have forgotten about me, I have had no contact from my cpn since the new year (but maybe thats my fault as I have contacted her either), I just feel so lost and low and I dont know what to do. xx thanks for listening all

learning_to_drive

Hi all, Im sorry for hijacking the thread, I have popped in once before and am an avid lurker but can never seem to find the right words for posting. I feel really guilty for saying it as I know people have got real big problems but I am just feeling so so low, for the last few weeks I have been having a lot of panic attacks, several a day, and although I know all the stuff I am supposed to knowe about controlling them etc I am still finding it very very scary, its almost like I am waiting all the time for it to happen again. The last week has been an effort even just to get out of bed, Ive been treated for depression, anxiety for the last 12 years and just want so much to feel better. I have an appointment at 2 today with the community mental health team, its a follow up appointment to some help I have been getting from them since last year, but I feel almost like they have forgotten about me, I have had no contact from my cpn since the new year (but maybe thats my fault as I have contacted her either), I just feel so lost and low and I dont know what to do. xx thanks for listening all

Hi, thanks for posting, as Tiff says, dont be sorry for posting on here, its a support network for us all.

Please keep readin and surfing until some of the others come on

blinky

lipthefish - thank you for posting. I know it takes a lot of courage to post here the first time. There are a wide range and levels of problems from the people who post here, so don't think your problems aren't important to us - they are.

It takes little steps on the road to recovery and it won't all be easy - try not to be too disheartened by the setbacks.

We are hear to help each other.

Big hugs

Tiff_2

Hi ltf!:hello:

to the thread hun and well done for finding the courage to post and share with us. We don't do sorry here angel. Besides, it keeps me from talking about myself.;) You'll find a warm, wonderful group of people here who'll listen and support you. :T Let's see if we can break this down a little angel...

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Hi all, Im sorry for hijacking the thread, I have popped in once before and am an avid lurker but can never seem to find the right words for posting. I feel really guilty for saying it as I know people have got real big problems...
It can be extremely difficult to find the right words, or any words, when you are being bombarded with very strong emotions angel. It doesn't matter how you say it hun - trust me, we'll understand. And if we don't we'll ask you nicely ok?;)
Guilt trips are another thing we don't do here sweetie.;) Your pain is as important to you, as everyone else's is to them. Pain is pain hun and who are we to judge?;)

but I am just feeling so so low, for the last few weeks I have been having a lot of panic attacks, several a day, and although I know all the stuff I am supposed to knowe about controlling them etc I am still finding it very very scary, its almost like I am waiting all the time for it to happen again.
Have you been able to identify a trigger angel? Sometimes, it doesn't matter that we've been taught how to manage it if we're going through a rough time. Don't fret over not being able to control it as you were taught - that's not the problem hun. The problem is, that for whatever reasons, your anxiety has grown and now you have to find another way to deal with it. And as you'll know, the longer you leave anxiety to its own devices hun, the harder it is to take control of it. The gremlins are always happy to turn up unannounced. I can understand angel, just how scary it is.

And because it's so scary hun, we start to constantly 'scan' ourselves to see if we're feeling anxious so that we can try and do something to stop it. All that does, is make us even more anxious! So what you're describing hun, is quite understandable.;)

But the message I'd like you to hear from this is that, you've controlled it before and you can again! You may have to find a different way than what worked before angel, but you can do it.

As you'll know, you've got to practice constantly for any system to work and to become familiar to you. Relaxation to gentle instrumental music - no Black Sabbath hun!:D - worked for me, even though I didn't believe for a second that it would.:rolleyes:

The key thought I try and keep in my head is that you can't be two opposite things at once - it's physically impossible. You can't be asleep and awake, or hungry and full, at the same time. Equally, you can't be anxious and relaxed at the same time! So the answer is to find something that will relax you and put you back in control.
I know it's easier said than done hun, but it works.;)

The last week has been an effort even just to get out of bed, Ive been treated for depression, anxiety for the last 12 years and just want so much to feel better. I have an appointment at 2 today with the community mental health team, its a follow up appointment to some help I have been getting from them since last year,
Mental ill health, imho angel, is a very cruel form of illness.
The trouble is there are no set treatments for everyone - or this thread wouldn't exist and our psychiatrists and CPNs would be packing our groceries!:rolleyes: If I could stop it from existing I would.

You've been poorly for a very long time angel. What's obvious is that you are a survivor!:T There's no shame in that and with mental ill health, it's not unusual for some illnesses to be like that. A lot of us just expect the professionals to make us feel better and it's gutting when you first learn that this is not how mental ill health works. It's more a case of learning how to manage it, rather than cure it. What's good is that with the right help angel, you can still live a good and happy life - we've just got to work at harder than most others do.;)

I'm glad you had an appointment with CMHT today angel - how did it go? You must tell them everything hun to get the right amount of help. I know it's really hard hun, but if you're not getting enough support, you have to keep telling them until they hear you. Sadly, such illnesses don't come with spots and a fever, so we have to almost shout for the help we need when we're at our lowest.

but I feel almost like they have forgotten about me, I have had no contact from my cpn since the new year (but maybe thats my fault as I have contacted her either), I just feel so lost and low and I dont know what to do. xx thanks for listening all
As I said, I hope that your meeting with them was helpful today ltf. How often do you see your GP? Do you get any support from them hun? I don't know your circumstances ltf, but are Social Services involved in your care? The way to start to feel better is to make a plan of action hun.;)

So, I think you need to get in touch with your gp, or even CMHT again, and tell them that you've lost contact with your CPN and that you feel you're poorly enough to restart that. If you can't find the words, or if you're easily feeling brushed off, then print off your post and show them hun.

There are charities/agencies that your care team can refer you to so that maybe you could have sessions with a Support Worker to help you while you're struggling.

Make yourself a very simple timetable angel, of very basic things to do, like eating a proper meal, showering etc. This is a way for you to take control.

Are you getting Disability Living Allowance angel? Imho, you should apply. Please make an appointment with CAB to help you fill it in hun - don't try it on your own.

Your case is a long term one angel so I'm hoping that your care team have got their act together and will access all the support you need. I can't suggest any other agencies hun because I don't know if you're married or have children etc.

Don't worry angel about how long you're poorly for - it won't do anything except make you feel worse.
If it's any consolation sweetheart, I'm right there with you and I'd give anything, as we all would, to be completely better.

More importantly angel, there is a life for us that can be happy and fulfilling and we just have to work towards that in single steps. If we rush it, we're likely to trip.
Yep, even we are entitled to love and happiness hun! :T

And please post here any time angel - you're not so lost any more ok? You're asking for help and that's always a good sign sweetie, so don't give up.

I hope my rambling :rolleyes:, has helped a little hun. Keep us posted as to how you are ok? Take care hun - thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
Just wanted to explain I've been such a busy Tiff today and that I'm not ignoring anyone - I know what sensitive souls you all are.

I'm thinking of all of you who are having a rough time atm and I'll try and get back and post asap if it's any comfort to you.;) Probably made you all feel worse!:rolleyes:

So to sazzy, ethel, rosie, beer, gem, qb, cat, cc, ltd, lrs, ltf, cb2, cm, rbk, vq, elona, blinky, flis, pumpkin, stennmeister, bunnie, karrie, miro, - - et al, I send you all huge Tiffy hugs to let you know I care!;)



Look after yourselves guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

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lipsthefish

Thankyou so much to everyone who has replied, I feel like a weight has been lifted just getting it off my chest and its wonderful to know there is so much support here, you should all be very proud of yourselves for all the help you give, thanks so much xx