Depression

flis21

Hi All,

After a nice weekend I am having a really bad morning. Am annoyed at everyone, my ankle is really aching and I feel like I have loads to do an not enough time / energy to do it. My head feels like it is going to explode.

Hubby is pi**ing me off, I am incapacitated due to ankle and he seems to think it gives him a right to do absolutely nothing as I am 'off work'. He doesn't seem to realise that I am off work for a reason, as I need to rest my ankle and it hurts if I do too much. But no as I am off work I can do all the housework, cooking, washing up, washing and ironing!! He has really driven me nuts, I am glad he has just left for work or else we would be having a huge row!!!!!!:mad:

Also need to phone my gym, which I am scared of doing as last time this woman was really nasty to me, but if I don't do it they are going to charge me for another month's membership when I can't go, which is stupid.

Also should be sorting out my bankruptcy papers, but it makes me really stressed out to do it and takes ages, so I keep pushing it to the back of my mind instead!

Just feel a total mess this morning. Haven't even got washed and dressed yet, which is always a bad sign.

flis21

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I feel sick. I don't know why I do it. It doesn't help. It just leads to further problems/complications. I don't know what I want. My head is !!!!!!.

What's the matter? Anything you can share?

gillette147

Hiya folkes,

I am alone for the first day since my hell ended.
And to me it was hell. I know my troubles are small compared to most on here - but as I am saying today, the hell is how your mind converts life.

I have dermatitis, cracked lips and a coldsore today. All stress-related conditions. I feel so different now it's over. Not happy yet - but far more calm and in control of life (I know - it's a sham).

I have a list of jobs a mile long of things to sort out which had to wait while I revised. So I am plodding through them.

I started my diet this morning. I got on the scales (gulp) and I was almost 4 stones lighter 7 months ago - slap me.
I will lose that ok. Usually my diets are to lose 7 stones, so 4 or 5 is quite achievable.

I have in effect 10 weeks off now. I can't really apply for jobs until I know if I've passed or failed. I have enough money to survive for that time and some beyond. So I am going to do some DIY, have some fun and I have some plans for making myself employable.

- I am going to do a First-Aid Course (once I can face learning again).
- I am going to ask my old firm (who made me redundant) if I can visit and see how their Health and Safety works (I was a voluntary safety rep there).
- I am following a H&S consultant around for a week. I need to phone him today and arrange when we can do it.
- ....and obviously lose some weight.

I need to phone the course people because I want to find out if I could take another module in june. I want to add construction H&S to my bow. Paper one is common to both courses and if you pass it you only need to do the other half to have two qualifications.

I've got a feeling I passed paper one.
If I have failed paper two - then I might be better forgetting it and doing construction anyway to make up the two passes I need to be qualified.

I don't know if I explained that very well.

Hugs and handshakes to all of you smashing people. I love the fact that I belong to this group.

BTW
Have I missed something?
Why is LtD still talking about jobs? I thought he got one.

Have the kind of day that you all derserve
xxx

PS
Does anyone know how to stop MSE logging me out while I take 15mins composing a post? Grrrrr

learning_to_drive

Morning all

Well I appear t ohave hit a new scaredy cat level. A friend and colleague has emailed me to ask if I want to help on a piece of analysis work and i am scared. Scared of replying in case I say the wrong thing, scared of saying yes in case I can't do it, scared of saying no because of what they might think of me....

I still haven't replied to an email from my boss from last week asking if we can have lunch sometimes.

Feel sick.

Anyway enough of me and my fears.. How are you all? Ethel - Do you feel any better this morn? I was also up til 4 in the morning as OH is working nights this week and I don't sleep well without him Hope the pills kicked in

RBK - Don't know you very well but I bet its not so stupid? Do you want to talk about it hun?

Love and hugs to all - and a gentle stroking of the hair for all who need it

Pumpkin xxxx

I completely understand that, but, the way I look at it, no one will get killed, or die if you post the wrong thing.

Surely the fact they have emailed you and asked for your thoughts / help indicate that they value your opinion? You must have a lot of credibility!

You can certainly do it, I wouldn't worry about that! Otherwise they wouldnt have asked surely?

Reply to your boss at your leisure, just saying you have been away from the computer or your internet connection has been down hence why you haven't replied

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Pumpkin Pie, Do you feel that you need any help with the work? If so, I would reply taking them up on their offer. If the help is there and you feel like your struggling or don't know what to do take it. I expect they are just trying to be helpful. If they are a friend as well hopefully they will understand either way. Try not to beat yourself up about it.

What I did was stupid. It's so dangerous/damaging as well. You'd think I'd have learned. I just don't seem to be able to resist or control the desire.

flis21 Take a seat, put your feet up and have a nice :coffee: (or tea). You should be relaxing anyway what with your ankle. How can your hubby expect you to do all the housework with a broken ankle! silly man eh

Don't feel guilty about cancelling the gym. Think of the extra £££s you'll be saving. It isn't your fault that you can't go. Ignore the silly old woman if she interigates you.

Can you and your hubby not work through the bankruptcy papers together? At least then you've got some help/support, might make it a little easier to deal with. *HUGS*

Gillette You need to relax a little. You've been stressed out enough the past few days about the exams. Don't put extra pressure upon yourself already.

Tick the box, below where you sign in. That should keep you signed in.

xxx

learning_to_drive

BTW
Have I missed something?
Why is LtD still talking about jobs? I thought he got one.

I have passed the assesment but I am still waiting on being placed and the checks being passed, I have not signed anything per se or indeed accepted anything, it just so happens that these other opportunities have arose so I guess I will see how everything pans out.

learning_to_drive

BTW ebay day tomorrow, clearing out more junk, I have too much stuff, books etc so im just going to list everything and clear out loads of junk. Crap everywhere.

flis21

razorbladekisses wrote: »

flis21 Take a seat, put your feet up and have a nice :coffee: (or tea). You should be relaxing anyway what with your ankle. How can your hubby expect you to do all the housework with a broken ankle! silly man eh

Don't feel guilty about cancelling the gym. Think of the extra £££s you'll be saving. It isn't your fault that you can't go. Ignore the silly old woman if she interigates you.

Can you and your hubby not work through the bankruptcy papers together? At least then you've got some help/support, might make it a little easier to deal with. *HUGS*

xxx

Yes hubby is silly man. I did have a go at him a couple of weeks ago and he said that he would do more, he cleaned one room and did one load of washing and that was it!!

I am not feeling guilty about cancelling the gym, but last time I phone the lady said because I only had the account for one month it seemed 'very suspicious' that I had to suspend it. Basically it felt like she was accusing me of lying about my ankle to get out of my gym membership!!

Anyway, have phoned them and spoken to someone else who was much nicer. She has said I can suspend it for 3 months, then review if I am able to go back or not. Just have to go and cancel the direct debit now.

Have been trying to get hubby to help with bankruptcy papers, but he is not really interested! I spent about 3 hours on them the other day and he just said that I shouldn't stress myself out with them!! The trouble I want it done and dusted, I am fed up with it hanging over my head. If I wait for him to help it will be the end of another year and nothing will be done. :mad:

Sorry, just venting, it helps a bit to get it off my chest on here. My best friend is in Australia at the mo, so I have no one to let off steam to about it all.

flis21

learning_to_drive wrote: »

BTW ebay day tomorrow, clearing out more junk, I have too much stuff, books etc so im just going to list everything and clear out loads of junk. Crap everywhere.

Oh I need to do that really, got loads of crap sitting around here we could get rid of and could use the extra cash at the minute.

EthelBloggs

flis21 wrote: »

Oh I need to do that really, got loads of crap sitting around here we could get rid of and could use the extra cash at the minute.

here too.. I keep saying im gonna do it but...

I'm thinking of one of those chiminea things now... although my neighbours would prolly have a fit