Depression

buzylizzy

AWWWW!! jeppy sorry you are feeling blue sending you a hug and hope the lovely people on here are helping to cheer you up.:kisses3:

Dalkirst

Are you feeling a bit better now Jeppy?:)

catanna4u

Hi Jeppy

you seemed like a really lovely person when i talked to you about the 1p ryan air flight to dublin

I am always fighting with myself too hun, but im a bit of a battleaxe when it comes to dealing with my emotions, and i refuse to let the negatives win all the time (though they sometimes do) hehehe

just remember that emotions are never perminant, and are allways changing. i can garuntee you that it will pass, and another emotion will replace what your feeling now.

lots of hugs x

MBN

fluffynit wrote:

I hope you feel a bit happier soon. Hopefully it's just a temporary emotional glitch. The comps board is one of the friendliest forums on mse, so I hope you get lots of replies to cheer you up.

Couldn't agree more, I feel great on the comps board myself.;) Sorry to hear about your depression jeppy, I can only hope you'll feel better soon.:) It's great to see that you've got very supportive people to talk to on MSE. I remember I was going through a similar phase last summer - it was something to do with my research (which is still killing me, by the way ), so I posted on the student money-saving board, and I got an amazing response and encouragement from the people over there. And then I discovered the comps board - so much kindness and inspiration. :T

Best of luck with the comping jeppy. Try to smile, and think about a bright tomorrow. :kisses3:

mpython

Big Hugs from me too. :A

We all have up & down days, it can be the littlest thing that turns us either way, often completely unrelated to what's underneath. I think I'd think of the rest of the crew on here as well if i was a bit miz, I suppose it feels like a family.

gingerchick

Hope your feeling better soon Jeppy.

Enterprise_1701C

I don't know why you're feeling down, but quite a few years ago I decided to start doing right by myself. I stopped trying to please people that didn't really care about me (my step-mother for starters) and started to find out who I was. I am now a much happier person and can depend on the people around me.

It wasn't a conscious decision, it just happened when she threatened to use my cousin to sue me for money that my father had invested in a company. Until that point we had been breaking our necks trying to pay it back - at that point we stopped and we changed our phone number. What really hurt is my father did not object to this, but then he has always been weak. I am now back in contact with my father, through a dedicated email address (in case the ***** gets hold of it).

Be happy for yourself, learn to love yourself, and go out there and make some friends. Sometimes it takes a lot of nerve but you'd be amazed what can happen if you smile at someone, or chat to the person next to you. Remember - there really is always someone worse off than yourself.

By the way, you have one thing I do not - I never passed my driving test! Mind you, where I live I often think it is quicker to cycle!

EthelBloggs

That stenny is a bad bad man!! he makes me spend money, lol

Just bought a new bed now thanks to him, hehehehehehe

luvya mr nawteee!!! xx

geminilady

EthelBloggs wrote:

That stenny is a bad bad man!! he makes me spend money, lol

Just bought a new bed now thanks to him, hehehehehehe

luvya mr nawteee!!! xx

Hi Ethel,Now whats all this about Stenny and a bed lol,people will be talking:D

Tiff_2

Hi sazzy!:wave:Hi ethel!:wave: Hi l-t-d!:wave: Hi cm!:wave: Hi guys!:wave::rolleyes:
Thanks for listening all of you and for the nice words. You guys are amazing and feel like family to me - thank you.:T :A

HEALTH/BOREDOM ALERT - TIFF OMNIBUS POSTING!!!:eek:

Over the last few weeks, I've not had much input, been alone a fair amount and, especially after the fainting episode in town, all this really shook my confidence. Add on top of that nearly losing my mum, who still isn't well and who now also seems to be possibly showing very early signs of dementia, and it nearly broke me.

I've been told that I had been so traumatised, and it's also partly due to not getting help until years later, (because I can cope!:rolleyes: ), that my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and the kind of depressions that goes with it and my other problems, (you know who you are!:D lol), are not going to go away.
What's hard is knowing that every time I have something very stressful happening, it's going to be really rough and lay me low. Truthfully, I think I knew deep down - or dreaded deep down - that this is what would happen.

It's not the way I want to be! It wasn't supposed to be this way. And so say all of us right guys?!;) I feel between that stuff, plus Mum, plus my own physical stuff, that I've got a wall of misery in front of me - that I don't belong anywhere.
I've got so much love inside and just like anyone else, I want to be loved too - but realistically, that isn't going to happen. So the real kick in the teeth is that I'm in this position and I'm on a higher rate of DLA than my poor mum!

I've put on weight through ill health, I have to walk with a crutch (no more pole-dancing for the Tiffster!:eek: ), some ops to look forward to :rolleyes: and I have no self-confidence plus much more. Now short of a guy with a labrador and stick, who would want me in their lives?

I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself, honestly - I just wanted to be honest with you. These are big things to come to terms with and it really hurts.:o
I hope that I can to learn to cope and I've got to be realistic about what I can and can't do. I do feel sorry for myself in that I've had a real wake up call and that I now realise I can't keep pushing myself this hard.;) If I can lower my expectations of myself, then I'll be ok.

The family don't bother too much with me, busy etc, and not meaning to, sometimes can be a bit patronising. A family wedding coming up soon and I've been told 'not to worry dear, that dress you had on at Christmas will do, you look nice in that dear, you don't need to get anything new.' It's meant kindly but it hurts my feelings. Does that make any sense?
In fact, does any of what I've written make any sense?:D

As I said yesterday, I made formal complaints against, well ok, against Social Services, and all but one was upheld, and that one wasn't because that person no longer worked there, so couldn't be interviewed. Like everything else, I did it all by myself, including a series of Tiff letters. (How's my nice Tiff letter doing bunnie?;) ) Just because of what I've been through, it doesn't mean I've lost all my intelligence and I've still got a slight sense of humour to hide behind. So I should feel proud, but it's hard to fight all the battles on your own.

I finally broke down this week and let my happy front down to my family and told them what the deal is with my health. They tried to chivvy me out of what I was saying, but I told them how it really is.

TIFF ALERT TIFF ALERT

However, good news possibly - I'm hoping to go on convalescence soon, via the R.A.O.B, (great fraternal charity:T ) which both my late Dad, and my brother, are members of. It will be two weeks away at their convalescence home, all paid for, full board, if I'm approved.
Now that it looks possible, I'm shaking in my fur. I always worry about what others think of me and so now it's getting scarey.:rolleyes: But I know I need this.
So, just to warn all you lovely northerners , I'll be heading towards the tropical county of Yorkshire if I get to go.:D :rotfl: In the UK, I've never been further north than Norfolk! :rolleyes: I'm told it's very beautiful and has friendly people. It's near Harrogate. Anyone been there? Things to do?
Looking forward to it in a way because the old men can't run, so I might actually 'pull'!:j :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Thanks for listening to my ramble guys. Apologies for length. I'm all right - really I am.;)
I'm sending you all much Tiff love - and the sick bags are by the door on the way out!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx