Depression

EthelBloggs

Mornin/afternoon everyone!

I'm slow getting going today, lol - just out the shower!!! The kids were up before me.. that's never heard of!!

Things are a bit stressful here.. b/f is tryng his best but he sees so many things wrong and doesn't get why i don't address them all.. I've explained that I choose my battles and try to let the small stuff go but he doesn't understand that. So we've had a few rows.. I'm dreadng the coming week because he has a week off work :eek: and I've got daughter home :eek: and they really don't like each other much. I seem to end up being piggy in the middle while they snarl at each other.

Daughter is going to collect some of her belongings from the hosp in a bit with her support worker.. I just feel like running away.. it's really all getting to be too much for me to handle.. I never seem to get a break and i seriously don't know how much longer I can go on for. It feels like everyone is pulling and grabbing at me in different directions and no one is giving a flying f*kk about how it all affects me.

I have to do everything myself or nag them for hours to get anything done, even something as simple as picking up after themselves.. I'm tired of having a house that looks like it's been burgled even an hour after we've had a professional cleaner in to sort it out - she comes twice a week and she's a bloody miracle worker! I love her!

I've just ordered meself one of those cash boxes with a key like they have in offices because I was saving £2 coins in a big tin and when I moved it last night I noticed it was much lighter... the little f*kkers have been raiding it!!!! It's soul destroying.. feels like no matter what I try to do.. someone comes along and scuppers it.

Oh well.. it can't get any worse I spose, eh? got to look on the bright side n all that, lol

Have a good one peeps xxxxxxxxxxx

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Mornin/afternoon everyone!

I'm slow getting going today, lol - just out the shower!!! The kids were up before me.. that's never heard of!!

Things are a bit stressful here.. b/f is tryng his best but he sees so many things wrong and doesn't get why i don't address them all.. I've explained that I choose my battles and try to let the small stuff go but he doesn't understand that. So we've had a few rows.. I'm dreadng the coming week because he has a week off work :eek: and I've got daughter home :eek: and they really don't like each other much. I seem to end up being piggy in the middle while they snarl at each other.

Daughter is going to collect some of her belongings from the hosp in a bit with her support worker.. I just feel like running away.. it's really all getting to be too much for me to handle.. I never seem to get a break and i seriously don't know how much longer I can go on for. It feels like everyone is pulling and grabbing at me in different directions and no one is giving a flying f*kk about how it all affects me.

I have to do everything myself or nag them for hours to get anything done, even something as simple as picking up after themselves.. I'm tired of having a house that looks like it's been burgled even an hour after we've had a professional cleaner in to sort it out - she comes twice a week and she's a bloody miracle worker! I love her!

I've just ordered meself one of those cash boxes with a key like they have in offices because I was saving £2 coins in a big tin and when I moved it last night I noticed it was much lighter... the little f*kkers have been raiding it!!!! It's soul destroying.. feels like no matter what I try to do.. someone comes along and scuppers it.

Oh well.. it can't get any worse I spose, eh? got to look on the bright side n all that, lol

Have a good one peeps xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ethel hunnie :hello: I don't know how you cope with all that (I know I couldn't) - but the fact is that you do! You're a miracle. As our blinky would say - give (_l_) a kick up the (_l_) - tell him to do his share - why should you have to do everything? Instead of critising you for not coping, he should be shouldering at least some of the burden himself, to help you... imho. Big hugs, Sazbomberxxxx

Tiff_2

Morning my lovlies :wave: Well we made it to the weekend... just about! Tiffy we've been missing our Tiff but you and Carol take it easy today - and Sazzy will be checking!:)
Ok, time for sazzy's cuppa, and my bread that won't bake itself will it?

Have a good day day everyone, much love to you all.
Hi Sazzy!:hello:
How are you hun? Good to know you're always there checking.;) Keep your eye on the smartie stash hun!:rotfl:

Sazbo wrote:

At least the sun is shining...
Are you and I on the same island?!!!:rolleyes:

Carol does your hubby have a brother?! :DSazzarooxxxxx [quote/]
Er - excuse moi, but age before beauty!:D Yes Carol ~ does hubby have a brother? Or even a sister if it comes to it - as Paul O'Grady says, "Times are hard and friends are few!" :rotfl: Just joking guys...I think...:D

Hope you're bread and buns are out of the oven angel - is there no end to your talents?;) Our cm is such a good influence :T - usually we're under the influence but that's another novel...:D
Hoping all is well with you hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi ethel!:hello:

EthelBloggs wrote:

Mornin/afternoon everyone!
I'm slow getting going today, lol - just out the shower!!! The kids were up before me.. that's never heard of!!
It shows just how much you needed it hun.

Things are a bit stressful here.. b/f is tryng his best but he sees so many things wrong and doesn't get why i don't address them all.. I've explained that I choose my battles and try to let the small stuff go but he doesn't understand that. So we've had a few rows.. I'm dreadng the coming week because he has a week off work :eek: and I've got daughter home :eek: and they really don't like each other much. I seem to end up being piggy in the middle while they snarl at each other.
I know you've had a rough week angel. You're a wise owl ethel.;) You can't fight all the battles at once hun - you have to keep something in reserve for the Big Stuff. He doesn't understand hun because it's not his battle.:o Hopefully they'll both find reasons not to be around each other too much next week. Failing that let them snarl hun - and then call me!;)


Daughter is going to collect some of her belongings from the hosp in a bit with her support worker.. I just feel like running away.. it's really all getting to be too much for me to handle.. I never seem to get a break and i seriously don't know how much longer I can go on for. It feels like everyone is pulling and grabbing at me in different directions and no one is giving a flying f*kk about how it all affects me.
I'm sure you've already told the drs hun but if they don't give you more help, surely they should know that you'll have a breakdown (God Forbid!) and then who's going to take responsibility for your family?! You know you've got people on here with a lot of love for you hun and I just wish I could do something more to help - I'm sure we all do!

I have to do everything myself or nag them for hours to get anything done, even something as simple as picking up after themselves.. I'm tired of having a house that looks like it's been burgled even an hour after we've had a professional cleaner in to sort it out - she comes twice a week and she's a bloody miracle worker! I love her!
Bless her.:T Time to let all the unimportant stuff to go hun. If you're running around cleaning up after them, it's no wonder you're exhausted. They're all old enough to do it. They need to know that you are only human and that if they break you, they'll have no-one. Let it all lie on the floor hun - they'll pick it up when they want something clean or somewhere to sit. And for anybody that comes to the house and sees it, just tell them you're doing a degree in Modern Sculpture and that it's all Art!:D You just look after the necessary stuff sweetheart. Don't even waste your energy getting into any rows hun.

I've just ordered meself one of those cash boxes with a key like they have in offices because I was saving £2 coins in a big tin and when I moved it last night I noticed it was much lighter... the little f*kkers have been raiding it!!!! It's soul destroying.. feels like no matter what I try to do.. someone comes along and scuppers it.
I know - I can't help it!:o
Seriously angel, you keep going - remember that they haven't beaten you yet! Try not to give up sweetie. It will all turn around again somehow hun.
And when that safe is full, that's ethel's-treat-money! :A "Will that be one stripper or two Madam?"

Oh well.. it can't get any worse I spose, eh? got to look on the bright side n all that, lol You should never say something like that ethel - look where it got me!!!:eek: :rotfl:
Have a good one peeps xxxxxxxxxxx

I hope the rest of your weekend - and week - passes quietly hun. If you want someone to shout at, you know where I am.;) Just hour by hour hun ok? You're a real inspiration angel.:T
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

Hi Sazzy!:hello:
How are you hun? Good to know you're always there checking.;) Keep your eye on the smartie stash hun!:rotfl:

At least the sun is shining...
Are you and I on the same island?!!!:rolleyes:

Carol does your hubby have a brother?! :DSazzarooxxxxx

Hope you're bread and buns are out of the oven angel - is there no end to your talents?;) Our cm is such a good influence :T - usually we're under the influence but that's another novel...:D
Hoping all is well with you hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

TIFFY!!!! :wave: :wave: Speaking of under the influence - you been on the dizzy water hun?! Or maybe raiding the smartie cupboard again? :think: :shocked: Yep hun all me buns are out of the oven :rotfl: Very nice my buns are too, even if I say so myself!:D The sun was shining earlier, honest! And Carol - I ASKED FIRST! Get to the back of the queue, Tiffy hun! :rotfl: :dance:

Have been a bit worried about ya Tiff sweetheart... you ok?

Love, Sazzyxxxx

Tiff_2

Writing you a reply hun - just so you know.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

learning_to_drive

Hi tiff, good to see you back, hope you are better and well

Hi to sazzy, cnm et al, hugs to you all.

Tiff_2

TIFFY!!!! :wave::wave: Speaking of under the influence - you been on the dizzy water hun?! Or maybe raiding the smartie cupboard again? :think: :shocked: Yep hun all me buns are out of the oven :rotfl: Very nice my buns are too, even if I say so myself!:d The sun was shining earlier, honest! And Carol - I ASKED FIRST! Get to the back of the queue, Tiffy hun! :rotfl: :dance:

Have been a bit worried about ya Tiff sweetheart... you ok?

Love, Sazzyxxxx[/quote]

Hi angel!:wave:
Nope hun - I'm afraid the Tiffster is tea-total so I don't even have that as an excuse.
You'll be pleased to know that the Saz-radar is working. All is not well in Tiffworld.:rolleyes:
I know we all share ups and downs but there were some really hard times this week on the board and I didn't want to jump on the bandwagon. But you've given me the chance to open up which is I guess, only fair - after all it's a two way street and it shows that Tiff is only human.:rolleyes:

It was the day after I went and had that small op done, that I got some rough news. I'm fully recovered from that thankfully.;) Wouldn't recommend it as a leisure activity though!:D This is so hard - struggling a bit!:o Posting to ethel to say I'll snarl at them for her and then the next minute, I'm a soggy tearful furball writing this! :rolleyes:

I was told that there are a couple of health things that I will never get rid of and that I've been thinking I could, which is why I've been fighting so hard and pushing myself.
It was a cold, hard and cruel slap in the face hun tbh. So, I've got to learn to accept it and then how to cope with it. But it's really hard and it knocked me down. Don't worry angel - it's not a serious illness or anything like that. So I've been trying to keep busy, enjoyed trying to help bunnie and anyone if I could (fell short of the mark this week - sorry guys.;) ) etc., but when it came to the point of talking about my stuff, I physically couldn't do it. I just started to cry and logged off.

Then on top of that, this week I heard about an investigation into a complaint I'd made into an authority and the independant investigator upheld all but one of my complaints. I should be so happy but I'm so traumatised by all that happened and so angry that I couldn't enjoy the victory because it wasn't just a case to be decided - this was my life at the centre of it all, and abused again. 'We' (Advocate & Dr & CPN & I) are now going to pursue this further.
And that's why the Tiff's been so quiet.:o

I felt the life had been kicked out of me and I didn't know how to bounce back. I never felt so alone tbh.:rolleyes:



I think that covered the basics hun. Sorry if I've spoiled Saturday night for you.:rolleyes:
Sorry about all that Sazzy hun. :rolleyes:
Bet all that's turned your buns sour!:D
But it's like I said angel - everyone's having it rough at the moment not just me.;)
So I'm breaking each hour down and I'll be all right!:j We've all got to look for the positives!;)
You are an angel saz!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

learning_to_drive

too right, im glad you posted Tiff, you know we all are here for you, you probably do more for each individual person than any of us others could possibly hope to do. Bless you, if you feel you need to talk, by all means PM me!

Glad you have posted, didnt seem right without you!

Tiff_2

learning_to_drive wrote:

too right, im glad you posted Tiff, you know we all are here for you, you probably do more for each individual person than any of us others could possibly hope to do. Bless you, if you feel you need to talk, by all means PM me!

Glad you have posted, didnt seem right without you!

Hi l-t-d hun!:hello:
I thought you were all out for the evening!:o
That was so nice of you sweetheart (you don't know how much) and I appreciate the pm offer. I think it's the other way around hun - I get so much from the guys on here. :T You're all so :A .
I'm still being a soggy Tiff so I won't patronise you and say to you that I'm all :j :j :j now. But I will be.;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx