Depression

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
I hope everyone is well? Big hugs to all of you - including our cc.
I can already sniff Friday on the doorstep - what a week!
Went into town yesterday afternoon for the market and some luxuries like bread, tea etc - and fainted!:o

I don't know why - not felt well for a few days. And no, before some smart aleck asks, there ain't gonna be no kitten litters from this Tiff!:eek: :rotfl: And I hadn't touched a drop of the dizzy water either!!

And did I faint near a smart limousine or a fancy hotel?
Oh no - not me!:rolleyes: I picked the moment I was right by the organic plant and flower stall in the town centre at lunch time! The guy was really nice - I think it was because it got some people to gather around his stall!:D - and he let me sit on 2 upturned milk crates until I felt better!:rotfl: You gotta laugh haven't you?:o

Any way just have a quiet day planned for today...now isn't that an invitation to disaster?! :rolleyes:
Look after yourselves guys. Have a great day.:T
Thinking of you all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

blinky

Morning all.

Not much to report here either. Spent last night with 'R' :kisses2: bit tired today.

Hope everyone is well and big hugs to all

CarolnMalky

Morning :wave:

Morning Ethel...you take it easy today...you must be needing the sleep or your body wouldn't do it...thats my excuse for my catnaps !!

Hugs for Tiff...you take it easy, have you been doing too much...or was it the excitment of buying bread and tea?? ;) Here's a wee friend to help you out around the house


Morning Blinky, hope you enjoyed your night

Badgie...I get sea-sick so everyone better keep rowing nice and smoothly :eek:

Hugs to everyone, specially birthday boy QB

Fairy dust to all xxxxxxxxxxxxx

gillette147

Hi Folkes,

Woke up late again, headache coming on strong. Taken my new extra-strong tablets so we'll see. I had a bit of a head last night and took the tabs for the 1st time and they definately took the edge off it.

I hope so coz I'm getting to the point where all my excuses are used up and I'll have to revise. I've got loads of sorting out things done coz they are preferable to revising lol. It's funny that anything seems ok if there's something worse you can avoid by doing it!

I had a hard look at my finances yesterday and it spooked me. Even if I pass the exams in march and find a job - on start pay I will have some problems. I basically used to spend all my wages before and they were alot more than what I'm expecting to earn (and I can only survive til end june without a job before my long term savings have to be got at either). I know savings are there to be spend but my long-term money is to cover the endowment shortfall I have. However I have some drastic ideas which I will face if/when I have to. At least I looked into the abyss yesterday and thought it through.

My life is in disarray at the moment and I don't like it. I like stability. And I'm retraining and in a new relationship - and where some would find it exciting, I just want to know how it all ends up. It all feels unreal alot of the time. Am I really going to do exams at my age? Am I going to be doing job interviews? Am I really going to be doing a totally different job soon? I spose I have to just get on with it and trust to luck I guess.

My life up to now has just been a hole I fell into. Parents pushed me to go to uni, got a job in software coz it was offered to me, basically done the same job for 20 years. Now I am having to make choices and start again. I've been brave to go in a new direction but I just hope i'm not being stupid.

The happy times in my life seem to be when I'm in denial (and so it's not real). If I think about life I just want to hide. Sometimes I can face stuff but that's when I'm in denial. I feel like a small boy that was pushed out onto the stage - dance or get pelted with fruit! So I danced. I know that I can dance better than some because I am not stupid and can see how they perform. But I'm not a real dancer and I just want to walk off the stage.

gillette147

Sorry for long meaningless post before.
You don't have to read it though!!

With my poor memory I could do with a tick sheet to go through all of you so I don't miss any of you out.

Hi to (in no particular order)...

Tiff
So why did you faint? Is this normal for you? I'm worried for ya xxx
You are allowed to have problems and get hugs too y'know. This place is give and take.

Carol
I used to work and have only 6hrs sleep. Now I would never get up if I didn't make myself (and that's normally after 9 or more hrs) xx

CC
How's the house progress? You are really getting on with stuff. I hope your "new" life works out too (like mine will I hope) xx

Ethel
Another sleepy head. After all the stuff you've had to deal with I'm not surprised. I'd have nailed my bedroom door shut and stayed inside xx

Miro
Tom Jones will be phoning you up and asking for advice on getting the women! I'm tall but I don't get the attention - so it must be them muscles you say you have. I'm sorted so I'm not jealous (we won't have to duel after all).

Blinky
You're a great guy and give alot on here. I'm glad your romance is going well. It isn't an answer to the way we feel inside but it doesn't mean we can't have happiness in our lives.

Sazzy
I hope that, what do they call it?....errr.........WORK! is going ok. You are a big help on here and are a hero of mine xx

LTD
I'm really pleased you seem to be turning a corner at the moment (on foot, not in a car tho). You are obviously a very capable bloke and are making things happen for yourself. I watch with interest your progress mate.

Pumpkin (i love writing that)
I know what you mean about travelling. My mom says she'll never forget my face the first time she put me on a train (to go for uni interview in Sheffield). If it helps this is how I deal with stuff like that. I say to myself. "I am not the most stupid person in england, far from it. So if they can deal with it then I will be able to" and that removes my fear of the system. Then newspapers, walkman/mp3 and correct seat selection should allow you to stay in your own little bubble til you get there. Good luck girlie xx

Twinny
Hiya girlie xx
I hope these lot have been able to calm your nerves about the ADs. We all rattle on this thread so I'm sure some of them have been through it all and have the answers xx

QB
OK matey. Just keep posting those big armed smileys. That alone makes you an invalueable member of the gang

single
Good luck with the reading. I read a book once, it was green I think.
I hope your house share works out. It is surprising how many couples end up in this situation. Use your friends and use your virtual friends on here xx

feelie
I love you girl. Thinking of you xx

stenny
What commission are you on if you find a house for CC?
I hope you haven't got too much paint in your hair.

tevangelynne, lexi
My thoughts are with you both. I hope your problems sort themselves out and you find happiness xx

elona, potty, beer, natty, genimi, Alex, djdido
Hugs and handshakes for you all


Phew!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

elona

Tiff

Are you feeling a bit better?

Hope you are eating properly and looking after yourself!

We need our Tiff! Big Hug!!!


DH is happy because I have cooked pea and ham soup in the slow cooker with a proper ham shank! He is just trying some now. His meeting finished early so he popped home for a late lunch.

Hope all the upset did not contribute - I hate confrontation - not typical of a Leo - more a fat sleepy cat than a lion! lol!;)


Hugs to everyone.

CarolnMalky

Hiya Badgie and Elona :wave:

I have a list of all the names beside me here badgie...I am sooo forgetful I find it helps if i am doing a long post!

How spooky Elona...hubby made me pea and ham soup yesterday as I am loaded with the cold, the slow cooker is on now heating it up!!

Though I am sitting here with a hot tody that I am being made to drink lol.
xx

blinky

V quiet in here today. It is safe to come out you know

learning_to_drive

LTD
I'm really pleased you seem to be turning a corner at the moment (on foot, not in a car tho). You are obviously a very capable bloke and are making things happen for yourself. I watch with interest your progress mate.

God bless, Im not religious but I say that lot, thanks It's hard, I have the occasional downtime / panic attack / anxiety, but I manage to pull myself out of it. I'll be delighted once my car goes, once its cleared finance!!!!! Then she can be sold and I can clear all debts and just pay loan back to parents.

I felt embarassed last night, day zero was a couple of weeks ago, where I just thought, this has got too bad, however last night I felt a bit embarassed that I had let my finances get out control so badly. Disgraceful really. I had too much going on in my life to pin it down, but the finance one was the key one that controlled everything else. Im not out of the woods yet but Ill get there. 2 job interviews down, today was Customer Relations Exec wi Thomas Cook. Got a good vibe, my only overriding fear is that the same issue will occur again, hopefully not. But its a possibility, I aint had my AD today!! Christ, I'll have it now.

Ive always been very capable, I just had 5 years worth of teenage angst and problems and stuff in 3 months.

blinky

Good Luck Learning_To_Drive