DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

dawnybabes

Keep plodding, each minute working brings your goals nearer (and distracts you !!!)

DreamerHelen

dawnybabes wrote: »

Keep plodding, each minute working brings your goals nearer (and distracts you !!!)

You are absolutely right....Working this morning HAS distracted me....and it's helped a little....

I have a BIG butterlies feeling in the pit of my stomach....like something bad is going to happen....like they will try and find a reason to get me out of this Flat sooner....But I guess all I can do is try and be as good a Tenant as I can be and try not to cause a fuss....and hopefully I can definitely stay until next May....

But thinking that way doesn't get rid of the butterflies feeling I'm afraid....and that feels awful....I just have the same feeling as after the Trial....like something bad was going to happen....Of course nothing bad did happen...so maybe I'll be just as lucky this time....

I'm a little scared that the Landlord is going to come with the Maintenance Man tomorrow and that he is going to pick through my Flat with a fine toothcomb and find SOMETHING that will enable him to kick me out....but hopefully that won't happen....

So, all in all, I'm managing to Work now...which is good....but still have that horrible feeling in my stomach....But I will carry on and just hope it goes away with time....

Mara_uk7

Waving Hi ... Flying visit, just done a stooopid thing ! Shut my keys in the car boot & its all locked ! duh !! Hubby on his way in with spare keys .. 40 mile round trip ! I am an idiot ! And a hungry one at that as cant get away for lunch ! Hope your day is going better !

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Waving Hi ... Flying visit, just done a stooopid thing ! Shut my keys in the car boot & its all locked ! duh !! Hubby on his way in with spare keys .. 40 mile round trip ! I am an idiot ! And a hungry one at that as cant get away for lunch ! Hope your day is going better !

Aww hun....Hope you manage to get your Car open and get something to eat....

I'm just about to go out to my Placement for the Afternoon....I could really do without it to be honest....but I HAVE to go, it's one of my Commitments and these days I follow through on my Commitments....so I'm going...

I'll be back a bit later on....But probably not until about 9pm...

Look forward to seeing you all then....Hopefully I'll be in a better mood by then....

I'm okay by the way....Trying to stay positive....And I'll take the rough with the smooth....Just got to keep on going....

Mara_uk7

Ok, so got car unlocked, had a sandwich, then packed up the company show caravan for our adventure tomorrow. Early ferry at 7am, set up displays at showground by 9, then spend the day being charming to people, which is no hardship really, my customers are all lovely.

Work 12 hours, then catch ferry home .. 1 1/2 hours on the sea ! Home by 9 , asleep by 9.15 ! Lol

His earning money is hard work ! But you know that. Lol so, heres hoping for a lucrative evening and night, you will need a long shift i guess.

Catch u later x

DreamerHelen

Hey Mara and Everyone Else....

I'm back....been a looooooooooooong day seeing Clients - 4 today....but my Hours for the Course are slowly clocking up....so that feels good....And it feels REALLY good not to be focussing on me for a change....I can focus on them...and that does help me in the long run...If that makes sense...

Woooooooo Mara...sounds like tomorrow will be a long old day for you....Hope it goes well hun....Make sure you use plenty of sun-cream!!

I'm starting Work at 10pm....gonna be a long Shift tonight....but I'll do it....I need to.....And maybe, just maybe, my Regular might come on and cheer me up for an hour or two...We'll see...

Still got that butterflies feeling in the pit of my stomach....It just won't go away.....I had it all through the Trial, through the Verdict and the Sentencing...it's that feeling of being really unsafe....and wondering what will happen....and now it's back....NOT GOOD....

But just spoke to Mum who said that the Landlord would have to have a bloody good reason to kick me out sooner than next May....and that if he tries it we will have him down to the Courtroom quicker than he could spit....So that makes me feel a little better - Knowing that I have Mum on my side....and you Guys too....

I think I'll feel a little better after tomorrow is over....I'm worried the Landlord will come with the Plumber...and if he does I'm worried as to what he will say to me and how he will treat me....But we'll see....

Anyway....That's just how I'm feeling....I'll be fine.....If the rape didn't destroy me then I'll be damned if this will!!

As said - Logging on at 10pm....

I'll keep you all Updated throughout the Night....

Mara_uk7

Never mind the sun cream, bring on the ice cream ! Just off to bed, have to be up at 5 and out of the house by 6 .... Hope tonight goes well for you , £50 at least ?

Im looking forward to stroking THEM off your list tomorrow when "W" get cleared ! Think I'm almost as excited as you at that idea !

Will check on you if i can get a signal at the park, but i think i remember it being sporadic last year. Whats your new aim for the week ? Id guess around £300 ?

Ok, will be off in a few .... Happy chatting !

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Never mind the sun cream, bring on the ice cream ! Just off to bed, have to be up at 5 and out of the house by 6 .... Hope tonight goes well for you , £50 at least ?

Im looking forward to stroking THEM off your list tomorrow when "W" get cleared ! Think I'm almost as excited as you at that idea !

Will check on you if i can get a signal at the park, but i think i remember it being sporadic last year. Whats your new aim for the week ? Id guess around £300 ?

Ok, will be off in a few .... Happy chatting !

Hey Hun....Thanks for posting....especially now that I know you have to be up at 5am....Hope it goes well tomorrow hun...And don't worry about checking up on me....I will hope that you have a REALLY successful day hun xXx

Yep...Wonga is gone and done and dusted tomorrow at about 1pm - That's when they usually take it out...and then it's gone, gone, gone....

My new aim for the Week (with using my Tax Credits AND my Texting Money AND some money left over from this Week) is £275....so if I can make that I will be really really happy....Especially since this Week has been so difficult...

I'm on with my main Regular at the moment...YAY!!! I had a feeling he might come on tonight....

So I'm feeling a bit more positive....

Onwards and Upwards....I'm hoping for at least £40 tonight but if I can get to £50 that would be great....

DreamerHelen

Well it's just after 2am and I'm still here.....I want to Work until at least 4am and then I have the Plumber coming so I need to get SOME sleep....especially if he makes me wait all day again...although he said he would be here between Midday and 2pm....But who knows....these Plumbers are a law unto themselves!!

So I'm going to Work until 4am....I'm already at £32...so I should make my Target of £41 by then....all being well!!

But, I'm still here....that's a major achievement for me this Week....So I'm feeling really proud of myself....

Mara_uk7

Well done you, hope you got some sleep and can get a few more calls in before midday. Its really worth logging on, even if its for a couple of hours, the wee tenners mount up, think you will have to grab every chance if you wanna make your new target, and hey, what does it matter if you smash it !
Go on hun, make me proud ! Lol
Just off to get the ferry, damp and misty here this morning, but the forecast is for sunshine so fingers crossed.

Later ........

Ps .. What money left over from last week, lol you were down to 6p as i remember !