DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

So, a LOT has happened today....

My Landlord has given notice on my Flat....but I still have until next May to vacate....so I guess it could be a lot worse...but now I have to save up to move...which is NOT going to be easy!! Something else to save for....

I've felt sick all day...and to top it all off I have toothache...

So I'm NOT doing well this Week...but I WILL get there...Just have to keep on going...

It's nearly 2am and I'm up to do some Work and then have a Maintenance Man coming to look at my Flat and he could be here at any time during the day....hopefully he'll come in the morning....so then I can get on with some Work in the Afternoon

So that's what is going on...Feeling EXTREMELY down and upset....

But I'll get there....

dawnybabes

How you doing today Helen ?

DreamerHelen

dawnybabes wrote: »

How you doing today Helen ?

Well if I'm honest I'm doing rubbish....Still feeling sick....still feeling the toothache a bit.....Still feeling upset....Feeling like my world has been rocked....

I know I've still got until May to vacate but it's made me feel really really unsafe....like, what if he finds some reason to make me vacate earlier? He DID threaten to have me kicked out in 30 days from yesterday until my Mum threatened to get a Solicitor involved...then he backed down and said I could stay until the Lease runs out in May....But I just feel really really unsafe.

And if I'm honest it has really affected my ability to Work...I feel down and depressed....I KNOW I have to Work but everything in me just wants to crawl into a little ball and wait for the whole world to go away and leave me alone....

I'm taking today off cause I'm still waiting for the Maintenance Man to come out...He's supposed to be Calling me today and he should be here today.....But then I'll be Working the Night Shift tonight....I know I just have to get on and do it....even when it's hard - Which it IS right now....

I'm not going to get to the magic £500...not this Week....but if I can make enough to survive on and pay everything that needs paying, well I'll be okay with that....

Going to spend some of today (while I'm waiting for this Maintenance Man) working out a proper decent Budget which includes saving for Moving next Year....the sooner I can start to save for that the better....

Thank You for asking hun....and I'm sorry it's all doom and gloom at the moment....

I WILL get back on the horse...Just need a bit of time today to process it all in my head and try and stay positive...

Knit_Witch

Sorry to hear this news on top of everything else but you are STRONG and you WILL cope

dawnybabes

Have a down day what waiting for the an, snuggle up on the sofa and grab a hot choc sort of drink and try to snooze, then you will be more refreshed for tonight.

You are strong, you CAN do this, yes its rocked your world but the next place might be cheaper/nicer ....

DreamerHelen

Knit_Witch wrote: »

Sorry to hear this news on top of everything else but you are STRONG and you WILL cope

Thanks hun....I know I am strong....but sometimes it feels like I can't be strong anymore....But I know I have to keep on going...and I will do...

dawnybabes wrote: »

Have a down day what waiting for the an, snuggle up on the sofa and grab a hot choc sort of drink and try to snooze, then you will be more refreshed for tonight.

You are strong, you CAN do this, yes its rocked your world but the next place might be cheaper/nicer ....

This morning and afternoon has been partly relaxing and I've been catching up on my TV....but also stressing out as well....but I just have to try and think positive and keep going...

Still waiting for the Maintenance Man....He hasn't come yet...hasn't Called or anything...and the Letting Agency that sent him aren't picking up their Phone!! He'd better come today because I can't take anymore time off....so I'll just keep on trying to get through to the Letting Agency to find out what is going on....

I will chat to you all later....thank you for all of your Support....I really appreciate it xXx

crimson.addict

Any luck with the maintenance man?

I'm sorry to hear about you having to move could you not stay with your mum until you work something out?

Mara_uk7

Hi helen, thats me just home from work at just after ten ! Been a long day of meetings ... Oh and you've sent me your toothache ! Took painkillers and kept going, will have to try for dentist tomorrow.
Hope you're fit for work tonight, this isn't looking good otherwise.
Heading for bed as i can hardly keep my eyes open. Nite nite xx

DreamerHelen

crimson.addict wrote: »

Any luck with the maintenance man?

I'm sorry to hear about you having to move could you not stay with your mum until you work something out?

Hi Hun.....No, the Maintenance Man never showed up even after me repeatedly phoning the Office to find out where he was. He finally called me at nearly 7pm to say he couldn't come until Friday!!! But he DID give me a rough time on Friday...between Midday and 2pm...so I guess that's better than waiting in all day...and now I have his Mobile Number as that's where he called me from so I can always call him directly now if he doesn't show up on time!!

Mum currently has a full house as her parents and brother are staying with her permanently...so she doesn't have any room for me I'm afraid....

But hey...I'm trying to look at this positively if I can....At least I have until next May to find somewhere else and save up....At least that's something....I'll just have to ignore the fact that I now feel really shaky and unsafe....

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Hi helen, thats me just home from work at just after ten ! Been a long day of meetings ... Oh and you've sent me your toothache ! Took painkillers and kept going, will have to try for dentist tomorrow.
Hope you're fit for work tonight, this isn't looking good otherwise.
Heading for bed as i can hardly keep my eyes open. Nite nite xx

Hi Mara hun....I guess you have been working really hard....Hope you're managing to get a good night's sleep!!

I've been really struggling this Week to keep my mind on Work....so I'm Working this morning for 4 or 5 hours...then I have my Placement this Afternoon....and then I'll be Working the All-Nighter tonight....

I think I'll still be able to earn enough money to pay everything that needs paying next Week but it will be nowhere near what I earned last Week or the Week before....

Basically I'll be using my Tax Credits AND the Texting Money that I'll be getting paid next Week to make the money up to where it needs to be....but I WILL be able to pay Mum and all my bills...Just!!

I know I've got to get it together...and I will do over the next few days...I promise!!

Thank You for all your Support Guys....I know I haven't been perfect this Week (again!!) but I'm trying to keep it together and that's not easy....but I'll get there....

DreamerHelen

JUst wanted to say - I'm still here...I haven't gone back to bed...and I'm still Working....

And now that I'm working it IS taking my mind off things and making me feel like I'm doing something productive....although I DO also have this feeling in the pit of my stomach...but at the end of the day I just have to carry on....I can't just fall apart and stop my Life...I HAVE to carry on....

So that's where I'm at right now....