"Simply not solvent!

Karmacat

Stuckness. Repetitiveness. Not living according to your own priorities. This could be me posting. Well actually, on my thread it *is* me posting. I feel for us both, Seaxwyn, but I have no idea how to get out of it.

"How can I switch from knowing what I should do to actually doing it?". Absolutely.

boredofbeingathome

Hi Seaxwyn, i am afraid i don't know the answer either. In some respects though everything *is* heading in the right direction and that is great.

I did type a long reply but was too waffly so will stick to the above.

taxi73

This may sound daft but how about pretending you are in a employed position at home where you have to work 6 hours a day or you will be sacked and this is at set times.That way you may stay focused enough and not bookanything else in at those work times and get your work done.Like I say probably a daft idea.

chevalier

go out and buy 52 bars of chocolate. when you have written an article you can have a bar of chocolate....

and there you go you have to newspaper rounds, and did some free work.... er ie neither of which will be earning you £35 an hour. So ditch the paper round which I assume is very early and so you will be tired all the time, and then get up having had more sleep to start the PROPER working day, ie doing your £35 an hour work.


hope the suggestion helps lol
chev

chevalier

Hey Seax
hop you are ok noticed you haven't been on for a bit. I hope this is for the GOOD reason that you have been working through the 52 choc bars i suggested you buy, and doing the articles!!!!

And not for any bad reason...

hope you are ok
chev

Seaxwyn

Hiya Chev! Yes I am plugging through the articles, and without the incentive of chocolate! I figured that if £60 per article couldn't make me focus, chocolate wouldn't. Anyway I have done 21 and there are 63 left to do! The 53 estimate was wrong.

I've got an abundance of work - this lovely job, and another couple of jobs at 3 or 4 days each this month. And yesterday I got a call about a piece of work that would be 35 days between March and May. I've got to find out more, and I may not get it, but it's promising.

So I am very grateful to the universe for sending all this work my way. I definitely need more big jobs, and not loads of little jobs of one or two days at a time, which is what I had last year.

Cashflow is going to be dicey as the job I'm doing now (the 80-whatever articles) won't pay until it's finished.

Other things: our electricity bill has gone up to £72/month, which is terrible. I am ashamed! We are pretty good at turning lights off, not leaving things on standby, etc. I have a hunch that the computers are the main culprit, I'm going to borrow one of those gadgets to test where the 'leaks' are.

And sorry, chev, but I'm still doing the paper rounds. I know it doesn't make sense in terms of £££ per hour, but in some way it keeps my sanity. It means I make sure to get to bed early, so I'm actually getting more sleep, not less. And an hour's walk in the early morning when no-one's about does me good. The £35/week cash more than covers my spending needs, meaning I don't have to take money out of the bank. I said I'd do it til the end of March.

Oops another super long post, sorry!

Karmacat

Hiya! I didn't know you were doing a paper round, Seaxwyn - I think thats actually a pretty good idea - it gets your exercise in, after all, and you get paid for it. Hypno refers to her training runs as her "me" time - sounds like you think the same way about your paper round. I love that, I really do.

Big jobs that pay well. I love that too. Sounds like you're doing well, tho I appreciate the cash flow is tricky.

taxi73

All sounding great and a lot of work getting done...FANTASTIC

chevalier

Hey Seax
I noticed that you hadn't been on again. WELL DONE I guess you have finally got some focus. That is brill.

Ref the 80 (it keep growing wow) article job, could you not ask for half of the money when you complete the first 40 seems a bit unfair to make you wait to the end.

hope you are not too cold over there. It has been hurling it down with rain here today, I felt like I was back in England on a typical summers day lol
chev

Seaxwyn

Yes I've been focussing on work - that and recovering from flu. I've been so ill this week, it's been horrible. Half term has been a write-off with the children once again spending hours and hours watching TV. Luckily my mum took the little ones out a couple of times, and the older girls have taken them to the library and stuff.

But I've got quite a bit of work done despite everything.

I didn't get shortlisted for the park job, and I didn't get another piece of work I went to for, that would have been 32 days at a good day rate. In both cases I didn't have all the experience required. Even so, being turned down was a blow.

I feel I've had a charmed life up til now, always being offered work, with clients prepared to take a chance on me. I worry that that has changed. Perhaps it's my age, perhaps my weariness shows too much. But I am profoundly worried that I am not really 'employable', and that if my freelance work dries up, there is nothing I am qualified to do.

Another low point - I received a voucher for a free return flight to one of 12 European cities. This was a deal from one of my credit cards. But whilst I would love a break more than anything, I don't know anyone in any of the 12 cities so using the free ticket would mean paying for accommodation, which I obviously can't justify doing. So I can't use the ticket. It breaks my heart. When I was younger I would just pack my tent and go, but I feel too old and weary to do that now.

Sorry for yet another whinging post. I think the flu is really bringing me down.