Horace's Biting the Bullet Diary

Horace

I am trying to sell the stuff via other means - I do not have the funds to list things on ebay.

I heard from the KP agency and was told by them that I would never be suitable because I apparently registered with them in 2007 and then sent them a cease and desist email after being spammed, I have no recollection of this at all. I know that during 2007 I did not register with any agencies at all because I wasnt in a fit state - I could barely hold a conversation with anyone due to the poor mental state I was in back then.

I cannot babysit kids there are none near me, as for dogs there are none of them either.

I have offered myself up as a cleaner, car washer, blogger (where I get paid to write blogs) etc. etc. I am well aware that these are tough times, I need work to tide me over - I have work booked in for next year and possibly November but I need something now.

If I could keep my business open then I would do but it isnt viable at the moment plus I cannot afford the petrol so certainly cannot get to the group that is starting to thrive.

Millie2008_2

I *think* it might be an ebay free listing weekend this weekend, if you have anything to list. Don't shoot me if I'm wrong though:rotfl:

Was only having this conversation with J earlier, as he once bought a comic for £3 and sold it on fleabay for £300 :thud: and we went on holiday with the winnings. No such luck since and I lack the organisational skills to sell on there. Wish I did, with the amount of shizzle we have round here:eek:

Horace

Sorry for not being about much - I have been busy doing stuff.

The mulling is going well too and have now worked out why my mother has been toxic from the day I was born, she was jealous and resentful - resentful because her 'unplanned' pregnancy stopped her and dad emigrating to New Zealand and jealous because I have always been fiercely independent and curious about the world. I have also travelled a lot more because I don't actually care what my passport picture looks like whereas she would wish that she could visit various places but was too vain to have her passport picture taken so she never went anywhere - the furthest she travelled was Jersey & Guernsey and you don't need a passport to visit them. I am now refusing to take the blame for my mere existence,

I cooked up a fab dinner yesterday - I defrosted the piece of brisket that has been languishing in the freezer since March and got my huge pan and out cooked it on the stove top. Meat was added to pan with water, chopped fresh onion and a small tin of carrots (thank you Sainsbury's for your baby carrots in water), some coarse ground black pepper got chucked in and some Italian Seasoning (these were not measured out). I put the water from the carrots in as well and added a stock cube and left it. Towards the end I added a handful of pearl barley - result a lovely joint of beef and a fab jus (hark at me being posh:rotfl:)

Today I went to the city centre to Manpower who told me that my CV was rubbish and it needed changing. On the bus home, I made plans to update it and have had further thoughts about my business - I am recommencing the more successful breakfast meeting on 13 September. I know how I am going to change my business to become more profitable too - this includes charging an annual membership fee (those that have joined already need not pay this until next year but those joining now will have to pay it). I am also in negotiation with people about skills workshops which I shall either run alongside a breakfast meet or they will be stand alone workshops.

I deserve to run a successful business and that is what I shall do - my emotional baggage is just baggage and I refuse to let that hold me back. If someone kicks me then I will have to pick myself up and dust myself down and carry on. I know that I am an amazing person and that I am not my mother!

jpwhittle

Horace YOU ARE AN AMAZING LADY, and you do deserv to be succesful, and if anyone can make it happen you can.

You cannot be held responsible for things that happened to your parents or the choices they made, that is down to them.

Do not forfeit your dreams for other people, it wont achieve anything. I think your a lovley person who is always there to encourage people and really hope you make a success of everything

Wordsmith

Sounds like you've got your fighting spirit back, H - onwards and upwards!

Horace

I spent all day yesterday mulling stuff over.

Had to smile today as Manpower and the other agency with which I am registered have both said that my CV is not up to scratch and that as I have been out of PA work since 2007 then I am not likely to get any work because it has been too long. Who needs them anyway?

I have managed to sort my finances out and made arrangements with my landlord to pay my rent a little later (he still gets it in the same month but not at the beginning more towards the middle). I know there are times when I shall be skint but at least I will have some money coming in and the workshop plan is good too - I have negotiated a 50% profit share with someone and I am charging myself out for other workshops at £25 an hour:cool: Arrangements are being made with other debtors too. I had a letter from Virgin CC, whom I stupidly rang last week and spoke to a vile indian man although I haven't gone down the route of his which is to pay £1 a month for the next 5 years and get a bad credit record for the next 11, to say that they are cancelling the card with immediate effect and I need to keep making the payments on it..I paid their reduced rate already admittedly paid a bit late but it was paid. It was only ever used as a balance transfer card anyway so I have never spent on it.

I have received some great inside information about a job I saw at Warwick Uni (the closing date is Wednesday), it is full time though and is something that I could do standing on my head with one arm tied behind my back:rotfl: I may or may not apply.

I have taken another breather with my one group and will start that again on 13 September - it would be madness to close it altogether. I want to grow that group so that it manages to stand on its own two feet and then I will re-open the other one but at a different location (the premier inn sucks - the staff are so rude). I need to find a new location for it.

Tomorrow, I shall half fill the car with petrol as I noticed that the BP garage had reduced it price to £1.32 a ltr for unleaded (or maybe I will fill it not sure yeet), I also need to go shopping as I need bread, eggs, mince, fresh veg, cheese, sandwich ham, spam, a tin of spuds and a tin of carrots (store cupboard).

The mojo is slowly coming back.

Millie2008_2

Yay for returning mojo

It strikes me as very unhelpful for them to tell you that your CV is not up to scratch but not tell you how to imporve it. It also strikes me as utter crap that you have been out of PA work for too long. What about people who take time out to raise kids, etc? My mum took years out of work and went back when I was 14. Grr to them. Go for the Warwick uni job, you have nothing to lose

Thanks for the heads up about he BP garage, ze punto is currently running on fumes, cos I is lazy and hate putting petrol in I went shopping today (B'grove, asda) and seem to have neglected to buy anthing useful to eat, just random things...err oops! Blame my attack of trolley rage as the place was full of stooopid people who thought it acceptable to triple park in the isle and gawp at things...

xx

Horace

Millie - the BP garage at Cofton (on Longbridge Lane - it used to be the Cofton Pub many moons ago) was £1.32 per ltr for unleaded when we went past the other week - their pricing is always the same as Morrisons.

Asda in Bromsgrove is dreadful - my mum hates it as it is full of chavs and I think she is a bit frightened of the kids from North Bromsgrove High who tend to gather in there en masse.

I have an idea of how to improve my CV but I still reckon they are wrong because if I did what they asked the thing would fit onto 4 pages and at the moment it fitss onto 2 quite neatly. I was pointed in the direction of the jobcentre and Connexions so I pointed out that Connexions was for kids and not adults. What do they know about it anyway? My self employment frightens them - still, they had their opportunity and they have missed out.

I shall apply for the Warwick job - the job is a doddle and I am not phased by medical terminology either.

Tomorrow, I need to go to Rubery to hit the bank, the butcher, I may venture into Tatco (I still have my £4 voucher to spend), I may also go to the Co-op and visit both greengrocers to see what they've got - I shall come home via Morrisons as I want one of their cheapy 90p loaves. Now I have started using my bread bin, the bread doesnt dry out or go mouldy. There is a possiblity that I will drive over to Kings Heath to visit Lidl too.

Horace

The future is bright, the future is Horace:D

I picked up some paid work on an ongoing basis tonight - updating someone's blog, this is work referred to me by my web geek as he does not have the time to keep updating blogs for people so he has referred the work to me because I am now considered to be an expert blogger:D

Today, I have been updating my own blog and hopefully people will buy more from the links on my site:D I have also been doing surveys and to be honest could curse Valued Opinions because I get half way through the flippin' survey before they decide that I do not meet their criteria - does anyone meet their criteria?:mad:

I have been approached by a networking company wanting me to run events for them, nothing on paper yet as I need to speak to them.

Tomorrow - I need to ring Amex, go shopping, pay some bills, do more blogging.

Horace

I have only just switched the computer on - I spent the morning dealing with Amex, doing some shopping and visiting my web geek in his new office.

Firstly went into costcutters (I never shop in there ordinarily) and came out with a local paper (my first snoozepaper for months) and some biscuits which they tried to charge me £4 for but I told them that the price on the shelf was £1 for the Viscount Biccies and £1 for 2 packs choc chip cookies (the cookies weren't for me). I seem to recall that the price on the shelf never correlates with the till which is why I don't shop there.

Nipped to new office - I am listed as an employee so that I can use the office when I want to make calls and use the computer, so that I am not sitting on my own all the time. Handed over cookies - much appreciated by the webgeek. Had a natter about blogging and what I am going to charge client, I have settled on £10 a month (she is skint).

Went to greengrocers close to the webgeek's new office - and spent £3.49 on a lge cauliflower, 4 onions, a pack of baking spuds, 2 lge spuds (for mash), a lb of carrots and a punnet of plums. Nipped to butchers for eggs 99p (I could have gotten them at the greengrocers) and spent £5 on 2lb lean steak mince (separated into 2 bags), a pack of 6 large chicken thighs for £2.49. Then went to Tatco - where I spent £24 but I don't need to go in there for several months - I shopped from the whoopsie shelf and too advantage of some other offers e.g Cathedral City Cheese is on BOGOF (1 now in fridge the other in the freezer), I also got 12 loo rolls for the price of 9. I used my £4 off voucher and I had a half price voucher for Persil Small & Mighty.