Ridin' solo (with my ickle emo and cat for company)

donner_kebab

Oh Chev tried to pop up a piccie of Buzzby but it all went wrong Will keep on trying! xxx

donner_kebab

Well off to see the folks today so spends should be at a minimum as I have enough petrol to get me there and back so that is good.

I keep on thinking about my ex and it really hurts. I think what made it all worse is that there was no answers, no reasons behind anything (apart from he didn't love me anymore) but we never ever argued etc and got along like we were best friends. I loved him with all my heart and think that I don't ever want to love again as couldn't bear the thought of this pain happening again

I know I shouldn't feel like this just can't help it at times, he won't leave my head alone and he is swanning around having the life of riley whilst I am in pieces feeling like my world has crumbled beneath me xxx

donner_kebab

Hope everyone is out there enjoying this gorgeous weather! It really is lovely.

I have just got back from Mountain Biking with a local Mountain Bike group. I was a right ol' sweaty betty when I arrived so I looked and felt horrendous by the time I got back! I reckon I burned some serious calories and did find t very tough in parts but everyone there is soooo lovely and helped me take my mind off of the ex for a few hours as had to concentrate hard on not falling off!

Good news - Quidco is now tracking the £42.55 Woo hoo! Hopefully it won't take too long before it gets paid into the account. I hope that my loan will be in the bank asap too so I can get the balance transfers done and paid off and then only have the loan and one CC to contend with. Then I will update my signature and will be able to keep an eye on the budget better xxx

pixiechick99

Donna, you're back:beer::beer:
Lovely to see you here again, been wondering where you'd got to:D
Another Emily fan here....my youngest, now 12;)

Sorry to hear about you and your OH - I haven't got any helpful words really...I can just say that being on your own with children can be fab...just please yourself and your girly:D I can understand how you feel though, as when my ex left it was a right old shock to me and he never really gave proper answers or made any attempt to work things out. I guess I just got on with it and eventually you realise it doesn't hurt as much. (Now I realise I'm better off without the useless numpty who has no money, no home, no car...all borrowed off his mum:rotfl:).

Anyway, so glad you're back here again.

(I was previously millyscarlett in case you think I'm just a mad woman and have never heard of me before;))

donner_kebab

Hello you :beer: of course I remember who you were lol! :rotfl:
Great to here from you! How are you and the girls? Really hope you are ok?

Yes the worst bit is deffo the no answers and the being completely disinterested in trying to sort anything out and make it work. I am longing for the day when this pain will be over, so trying to take one day at a time.

xxx

donner_kebab

Might have a buyer for a little fabric wardrobe and drawer set thingy so that will be an extra few quid made and also will make a bit more room in the spare room. Result!

Jeez I am off to bed now as am exhausted! Bike ride today really took it out of me and my leg is gonna be proper bruised tomorrow where I fell off! Hope everyone is well and have had a nice weekend. My dad is staying down next weekend which will be lovely. I like spoiling him when he comes down as hardly ever happens and he deserves to be spoiled! Nighty night all xxx

xxx

donner_kebab

£50 in hand for the guitar Result!

Payday today and can't wait until I can get everything sorted bill wise and then I know what I am working with payment wise

No sign of the Bank Loan yet so hopefully the monies will be ready soon! xxx

Eyebright

I do love payday! It great to be able to sit down do a SOA and your budget and work out your plan of action!
Have just read through your diary and wish you the best of luck, I've no doubt that you can do it! Will subscribe and see how you are doing

Tanya x

donner_kebab

Thanks Tanya Yep looking forward to getting that loan asap, paying off the cards and knowing the minimum payment for the last CC so that I can budget properly.

Foodwise budget things have been all up in the air due to just having me and Emily and the massive cat so need to adjust and get back to the usual weekly shop and meal plan.

Have used more petrol than usual too due to wanting to be close to the family following the breakup. Sure when things start to feel normal again this will go down.

xxx

donner_kebab

Managed to agree a sale on the wardrobe and drawer thingy for £35 which is an extra £35 towards my debt! Dunno when I will get it, should be soon though Happy Days! xxx