Had my cat PTS :(

SophieCat

I think the hardest thing to deal with is knowing that she was fine last week, but then became ill quite suddenly. She wasn't eating or drinking much, was losing weight, had trouble going to the toilet (number 2's), & was listless & weak. She was also purring very loud, which I think was probably because she was in pain/anxious/stressed. Yesterday, she got into her litter box & just laid there. OH rushed her to the vets (I couldn't go), but not before I said 'goodbye' to her, kissed her & told her that I loved her (I think deep down I knew she wouldn't be coming back home). The vet gave her oxygen & said that the best thing for her would be to put her to sleep to end her suffering. As she was an outdoor cat, the vet said she could have picked something up, or ate something she shouldn't have.

I just feel so guilty. She didn't have the best of starts in life (she was abandoned by a family, so I took her on, looked after her, & showed her as much love as I possibly could), & now I feel like I've failed her & let her down. I know this may sound silly but I keep thinking about what she would have been thinking before she went to the vets, like 'where are you taking me?', 'what are you doing?', 'what have I done wrong?', etc. I can't stop crying & my heart just feels so heavy right now. I have other cats but right now all I can think about is Candy And then there's the what ifs, 'what if I'd taken her to the vets sooner?', 'what if I'd done this or done that?', etc. It's just so sad knowing that I'll never see her again, never hear her sweet little meow, never see her rolling about in the dirt outside, relaxing in the sun.

I've lost cats in the past, but I'm finding it so much harder this time as she was put to sleep (she didn't die naturally). She was only 10 too.

Do the feelings of guilt lessen over time?

RIP Candy. I miss you & I'll always love you x

hostertlady

awww hugs to you ....

it so sad when we have to have a cat pts....:(

thinking of you.... you gave her a lovely life by the sound of it xx

Februarycat

Sorry to hear about your cat, its always hard having them PTS, but sounds like she had a lovely life with you and you cared for her well

spike7451

I am really sorry to hear about your Candy,The same has true of myself & my mate,Orbit Napolean Mog.When he died it was as bad as when my Dad died some years earlier.

Shepherd1

So very sorry to hear your sad news. Take care

bluebeary

very sorry to hear about your cat, it sounds like you gave her a very happy life and you remember that you made her a happy cat ok ?

*hugs* x

geri1965_2

I know it's hard, but you did the right thing - if she was suffering, it's kinder to put her out of her misery. A natural death is not always best.

mancbird

Awwww, I am so sorry to hear about your cat it sounds like she had a lovely life with you xx

Darlyd

Hugs to you OP.

I had to do the same with my Dog Last Friday, was the hardest decision ever, But was for the best. I so know how you feel. RIP !!!!! xxxx

mutter

There's nothing we can say that'll make you feel any better tonight, but lots of us have been there.
I'm still trying to get over losing my beloved Beetle last month - I know the worst of it will pass, but they give you so much love and you never really stop missing them.

gettingready

So sorry to learn about Cindy - big hugs for you