To start all over sgain...........

DDpimp

Just sat here fealing black and emotionaly blue.just want a hug is all but feal so astranged from the world and everything in it. Before any one says anything no I dont sympathy, just stating a fact. Basicly just wish I wasn't alone right now.

DDpimp

Ok, so got up this morning not fealing to great so decided to do something about it.Took a shower for about 45 minutes in which time I shaved my head and face,trimmed the chin wig of power and sorted myself out.Feal a little better for this.Just stuck for things to motivate me or get me out of this funk at the mo, guess I will just have to wait till Thursday.

DDpimp

Ok so i checked a coledge perspectus today to see whats on offer and i think as well as GCSE mathes and english, Im going to do a BTEC lvl 2 in media studies.Will go down Thursday and have a recky.Just hope I can get the time table to work out for all of it.Am kinda of nervouse about it all to be honest.

Wordsmith

Sorry to hear you've been feeling blue. Hope you are better today. The media studies course will be interesting - sounds like something you could really throw yourself into and have fun with. Let's hope the timings are right so that you can do it.

DDpimp

Once again thanks for your input Word.Yes well my priorty will be to the GCSE's and then the Btech,. should I have to I could always do one or the other as a night course to accommadate he BTEC.As to fealing blue, it has been due to something I can't seem to mentaly amd emotionaly get passed.

elantan

hey double d ... just reading and wanted to add ... you are doing well with your studying ... i'm glad your enjoying it as well ... also fantastic on the getting fit and losing weight ... thats something i cant seem to get a grip on at all and it frustrates me no end ...

have you seen a counsellor at all? i'm just wondering if a counsellor would help you get mentally and emotionally past what ever is making you feel down at times ... this place can be good to chat about things (if you think that may help) but please be aware there can be trolls on here and i owuldnt want you to become even more hurt

good luck with it all

DDpimp

Hi elantan and thanks for taking the tie and thought to write to me, it is always apreciated.In reguards to a counsellor I saw them since i was like 6-13 years of age and it never seems to do any good coming from a "profetional" if you know what I mean.Also what do you mean by trolls?

elantan

sorry to hear it has been no good for you... that happens sometimes ... trolls are generally people that go to online forums and cause trouble stirring things and hurting people ... i just wanted to let you know that it happens ... we are genereally a fantastic bunch here .. but occasionally some people do come on and cause trouble .... it may help you to talk on here that is up to you to decide.... i just wanted to warn you thats all ... this is a public forum

so how have you been today?

DDpimp

elantan, thanks once again for claryfing that for me and I get the gist as i played an online game for a number of years and we call them griefers, amounts to the same thing me thinks.I had to physicaly drag myself for a walk this morning as I have been rather disponndant and low.Sat around watching numerouse films.Tryed despartly to put pen to paper but just had no lust for it at all.All in all could have been worse.

How have you been?

elantan

ive been ok ... still dealing with jetlag or maybe it's lack of sleep with the way hubby is at the moment who knows ... but other than that i have been very good ...

so what type of things do you enjoy to do other than excercise ( i so need to get to grips with doing more of that)