Sad and shameful diary of a mum

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Hi strawberries, your not alone in how you feel, i've been there and done that, on the surface no one would know, but inside the world is big black hole. I started a mummy depression thread last week, it didnt really take off and most of the people who posted on it have posted here, but it might help you to take a look at it and make you realise a lot of us are in the same boat. Here is the link.

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/3098768=

I hope it helps you and just wanted to reiterate, you are really not alone.

Well done for your achievements today! (said in an unpatronising way of course).

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Strawberries, just wanted to bump this thread as i've had one of those days, the kids are physically cared for and lots of huggles and love provided, but in terms of playing with them or engaging with them past what needs doing, i haven't. I feel guilty, but there are a lot of outside factors going on in my life at the moment, that this is the best i can do, i feel sad for the kids that i could and should be doing more.

But right now, as bad as that sounds, i dont want to, i haven't got the emotional energy. Since they came home from playschool at 3.30 they've been watching tv and playing on the carpet, i've stayed out way. Goodness that sounds awful! I do love them honest! They still want me for cuddles and kisses, so i guess they still love me.

Anyway, i'd best get them some and tidy up some toys, DD came home with her Bookstart Treasure box today, so i'm determined to read her one of the new books at bedtime.

Keeping_Motivated

Only just read this thread and I just wanted to offer my support to you. Its such a tough job being a parent isn't it..guilt, constant care, ironing, cleaning, behaviour challenges, etc etc it is so much like ground hog day too some days so do not be so hard on yourself...a bad mum wouldn't notice the things you have noticed, a bad mum would think your behaviour was normal and the fact you have noticed you are sometimes being a grumpy mum and you don't give enough quality time and the fact you want to try and change that means you are a GOOD MUM.

I hope you have seen the doc now and you are accepting that sometimes some people need a crutch to help us along rather than to struggle on and make things worse. The crutch will make it easier for you all hopefully and maybe you could ask the doc to see a counsellor too?

Anyway I hope you are ok and are not beating yourself up and being hard on yourself. Take care

Britwife

It definately sounds like you're having a down time. I just want to echo what the other replies have said in that you are NOT a bad mum. I hope you see that now.

I'm trying to spend more fun time with my children as well. I've got 3 and our last due in Sept and it's really hard trying to balance family time with trying to run a household and dealing with pregnancy so it's so much more common than you realize.

I've put together some great craft projects for all of us to do while they are on school break and really looking forward to it. If you need any ideas, let me know!

God bless hun!