Maldives & MSE - not your usual combination!

ILGPink

subscribed hun.

sorry 2hear ur xmas was crap 2: mine ended in A&E with my dd who has been poorly. Roll on 2011 is all I can say xx

Nottoobadyet

Happy new diary!

Sorry to hear that Christmas was rubbish.

To take your mind off things a bit, my boss (who is an avid diver and has dived all over the world) said the marine life there was the best she's ever seen, just seas of colourful fish. If you're doing a lot of snorkling, maybe it makes sense to spend part of your trip on a live-on boat? Apparently that's much cheaper than staying on land.

Hope whatever made your day rubbish gets sorted out.

jtr2803

Hi all,

Hope everyone had a fab Xmas . Well done Twinmum on your weightloss, that's a fantastic amount shifted :T.

Thanks for your posts about my day. It wasn't great and most of it was my own doing. I wont go into detail because I kinda want to forget about it and it's pretty boring/stupid. Basically, my work mate got proposed to Xmas day, I am incredibly jealous obviously but am SO happy for her as they have been together 9 years and I think she thought it was never going to happen! When I relayed the news to my family my OH made a statement about there was nothing similar for me so not to get my hopes up. It was just the way it was said and said in front of everyone, so I ended up in tears. Total over-reaction on my part because he has assured me he didn't mean it nastily at all. It just brought all my fears about him not wanting to marry me to the surface, which isn't what I wanted on Xmas day.

We have obviously had to talk about it since then because it's not something you can just leave and in all honesty, I am not overly sure where we stand at the moment. That sounds a little dramatic but he just doesn't 'get' how important it is to me and it seems as though it's not important to him. I think he kind of feels that I am never happy at the moment, I always want 'more'....unfortunately that is the sort of person I am! I am insecure and I know that is part of my problem so I need to try and work on that int he new year and try to focus more on what I have got rather than the things I don't. I think the next year will be make or break time, I love him more than I thought you could love another person but if after that time, he can't commit then I'll have to decide whether that is something I can live with or not.

Now I can look forward to all the 'didn't your OH propose?' comments at work later this week .

Anyway, moving on, I was spoilt rotten by my entire family, especially my brother as it's the first Xmas he has ever had a full time job and I think he went a little mad! It took us almost 4 hours to open all the presents in the front room :eek:. In a bit I am going to go and write down everything I got given as I hate it when people say 'what did you get?' and I can't remember, it makes me feel so ungrateful!

Still not feeling 100%, chest is miles better but I am pretty deaf again.....that does have it's benefits though . Think I am only working Wednesday this week and am having a film day with DD on Tuesday which will be nice, we can snuggle up on the sofa and eat the ridiculous amount of sweets we have here!

Looking forward to a new start in 2011!

x

jtr2803

ILGPink wrote: »

subscribed hun.

sorry 2hear ur xmas was crap 2: mine ended in A&E with my dd who has been poorly. Roll on 2011 is all I can say xx

Oh nooooooooooooo hun how awful!! How is she now? I really hope she is feeling better and you managed to have an Xmas of sorts xxx

Nottoobadyet wrote: »

Happy new diary!

Sorry to hear that Christmas was rubbish.

To take your mind off things a bit, my boss (who is an avid diver and has dived all over the world) said the marine life there was the best she's ever seen, just seas of colourful fish. If you're doing a lot of snorkling, maybe it makes sense to spend part of your trip on a live-on boat? Apparently that's much cheaper than staying on land.

Hope whatever made your day rubbish gets sorted out.

Thanks NTBY! I did consider a liveaboard or cruise but I think my OH would last about 5 minutes before wanting to get off so instead I picked 2 islands with great house reefs so I am never a few minutes walk to see the fish

kavics17

Cheer up Girl, I know marriage is important for you but believe me he is already making the biggest commitment to you: HE is With you and loves you no matter what. Give him and yourself time and it might happen when you don't expect it;). xxx

jtr2803

I know you are right hun and I know it's 'silly' but I have desperately tried to stop myself feeling like that but I just don't know how to! I have a very obsessive personality and OH always jokes that once I get my teeth into something that I can't stop.....which is true.

I decided to deactivate my facebook account for a while, I did it last year when things got a little too much for me. I find that it is far too easy to compare yourself to others on there (something I am guilty of) and when it isn't there, I don't really miss it. I think it may only be me and the newly engaged girl in on Wednesday, I am dreading it and I feel so horrid because we get on really well and I am so happy for her but I have this raging green eyes monster inside me , perhaps if I feed it cookies it might go away? I think my other workmate, who is away until the new year, knows I am struggling a bit but I will do my best to be happy, it's not the poor girls fault!

Does make me wonder when all these feelings come from........I'm annoyed at myself more than anything :mad:.

Quick Xmas present list;

Dressing Gown
Slanket
Snorkeling fins
Cookies & cream Sidekick
Bottle of peach wine
£120 in Spa voucher
£40 La Senza Voucher
£55 in Evans vouchers
1 metre of Jaffa Cakes
2 of the same toast presses!
Massive Ted Baker toiletry case
Little Ted Baker toiletry case
Saving jar that counts the money
Big slab of hotel chocolat
2 x Cans of honey roast nuts
Bag of Pistachio nuts
Driving Gloves
Bottle of Apple Vodka
Aromatherapy spa kit
Body shop Lip Balm and Room Spray
Magnetic puzzle from OH who hasn't stopped playing with it!
Mock the Week DVD
Joke Book
Chocolate Brazils
Chocolate Orange
Pic n Mix sweets
Joke memo pad
Fluffy Socks
Decorated Wine Glass
6 months car tax

And I apparently have even more that haven't turned up :eek:

It's quite disgusting really

Choc-addict

That's a fab xmas pressie list!!! :T:T

Keep your chin up lovely, i'm sure it'll happen for you and in meanwhile enjoy what you do have as from what you say you both love each other a lot....keep that in mind and everything else will fall into place.

Choc xx

P.S - have subscribed! xx

Choc-addict

P.S - you wouldn't have wanted to share your engagements with another girl in the office anyway! :rotfl:;)

jtr2803

Thanks hun

I just need to chuck myself at losing some weight for this holiday! Been spending all day trying to work out whether to join a gym, go dancing again, get a Wii or by hypnotised :rotfl:. Why is the world full of so many options?

I am such a slob, I didn't even get dressed today . I did, however, get out the savings tin that counts the money I got for Xmas, it took ages to raid my various pots and put it all in BUT I have £48.16 in there :T, going to keep that going and use it towards paying some of the holiday off I think. I am also going to re-do my budget after dinner to factor in my payrise, I think my car insurance installments stop in January as well, need to double check.

Woowoo

Hi Jody

I totally get why you found the marriage comment hurtful and I know we should be happy that we have good OH's, but when something is important to you it's so hard to stop the resentment from building.

Hope your ok x