Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Appointment after appointment after appointment, at the moment. But one thing is for sure. I can't have another week like last week.


Thanks to all for thoughts. If anyone needs them, i do. I was asked my religion yesterday. For the first time ever in my life, i said none, without hesitation.

MatyMoo

Been lurking about and reading, and heaving a huge sigh of relief each time you post Ani. Just haven't really known what to say for the best. That makes me sound like a real coward but I just don't want to be the one that says the wrong thing and tips you over the edge.

Aesop said it a while back - Don't do it. People do care about you, they really do.

I was here for the birthday talk last year and we have both been through some major changes in that time. I got made redundant and chose to take a lesser paid job closer to home so that I could get a dog at long last. I can't tell you how lovely it is to have the company.

I often wonder what or who the real me is. I am sure the person my friends know is different to the one my family see, and colleagues see a different person again.

To steal a phrase from Beanie - keep plodding. You will get through this.

Hugs

Maty
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ani_26

Matteeeeeeee x


To be honest, i doubt there is anything anyone could say to me on here these days, that would tip me over the edge.This is an outlet from the other things which are tipping me over the edge. Maybe i've become somewhat oblivious to well, i don't know what, and although i've found it increasingly difficult to post, and well aware of pushing boundaries, and all those who are intensely averse to negativity, i've become "attached " to my diary, and the continuing outlet it provides for my thoughts, and my journey, too.

One of the things which tipped me over the edge a couple of weeks ago. I fell in love with a dog at the rspca. I just missed out, but the real truth is, i wouldn't be allowed a dog, in the financial situation in which i still remain. I've been told this. You have to show you are be able to provide for the needs of a pet. And whilst i have all the love in the world to give, and all the long walks in the open countryside, the harsh reality is what i know already. I simply cannot afford a dog. A beautiful black mastif, too. Don't do anything by halves, do i?

ani_26

MatyMoo wrote: »

I often wonder what or who the real me is. I am sure the person my friends know is different to the one my family see, and colleagues see a different person again.

Does anyone ever know who their real me is? Maybe life is a masquerade. Maybe we are all living behind a facade of how we want to be, and what others expect us to be, what soceity expects us to achieve, with an insatiable hunger to feed our ego's.

miggy

On one level I think it must be marvellous to know ones true self, but on another level, so much of what we are is because of our experiences and people around us, and how can we know all that and how it influences us?

I'm very sorry you didn't get the dog, I remember you saying ages ago that you like dogs and at that point you mentioned Old English Sheepdogs (I think). For some reason that now escapes me I was temporarily being some sort of animal at the time. No wonder I am having difficulty telling CAB from CRB nowadays...

If you aren't able to take on an animal at the moment, would fostering be an option? I think expenses are paid, though sadly you would have to give the animal back after a while.

Aesop

miggy wrote: »

O For some reason that now escapes me I was temporarily being some sort of animal at the time. No wonder I am having difficulty telling CAB from CRB nowadays...
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that was all of us last year around ani's birthday we were saying if we were an animal, what we would be.

miggy

Ah! Now I remember. Thanks Aesop.

This year I'm going to be a crow... or possibly a jackdaw.

ani_26

Maybe it doesn't pay to go on a trip down memory lane. I'm already feeling fragile this morning. Some might say its just as well i'll have people with me for most of the day.

If i were an animal today, i'd be an orangutan.................

ani_26

Hmmm My dad died in 1980, and in 1979, my life changed forever.

Today is a bad day

Aesop

Hugs ani, one step at a time.