Buffy's Adventures at the Post Office......

beanielou

Happy holidays indeed

Buffythedebtslayer

Morning folks,

holiday not going brilliantly I am still not very well, I went out Saturday with my friend which was all good, Sunday and Monday were very odd, slept late and I mean really late and then in the evening I did lots of cleaning and tidying. we were meant to be going out on Monday but instead Mum drove me to the Garden centre place so I could buy a fish tank (just a little one!) and some fish food etc (sis was ill so no family day out) It cost 101 pounds.......which was sort of what I had saved (£80) however I have had to buy stuff for the guinea pigs which is flipping expensive plus at some point soon I am going to have to buy a big fish tank to replace the one that leaked at Christmas. Around 300 pounds.......! Some women have clothes and shoes I have fish tanks

Tuesday I was very ill, I am thinking it might food poisoning or a tummy bug I feel worn out. Today I am meant to do lots but am not entirely sure about that. Still feel rough, I think today will be slowly slowly slowly.

xxx

youareallhelpingme

Take it easy hun, did you get the blood tests booked?

beanielou

Baby steps, take care hun xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou wrote: »

Baby steps, take care hun xxx

You can talk madam! You feeling better now? hope so xx

beanielou

Getting there thanks! xx

chevalier

So sorry to hear that you feel so wound up regarding your sister. I don't know what to say really about it. It is soooo hard when this happens. Just try to be the better person I suppose.
chev

Buffythedebtslayer

Hello Chev :0)

and Hello everyone else

I think in post 924 I came to the conclusion I cannot expect my Mum to play favourites or hurt my sister so this situation isn't going to change. I need to sort the anger out and continue my going out when they come over. It will be for another year which I can handle.

Ok so news in Buffy land is not good. My disorganisation has caught up and slapped me right in the face. Essentially so much is going on here that I haven't done my work, my room is a mess, the conservatory is a mess - I always find the mess in my room reflects the mess in my head. Given that my room looks like the back of an abandoned Sue Ryder shop I am in serious !!!! here!

It has been diffcult to be honest, the relief of not being at work was brief as it was quickly replaced with being ill (food poisoning I think) my friend had major problems with her drug dealing neighbours and then my friend lost her friend to cancer. I hate cancer. to say it was sudden is an understatement. She is in a right mess.

Trouble is she can be horribly tactless about such things, so I am sort of dreading she might say something awful. I have a list in my head of the tactless things she has said to both me and my other friend as we both lost our Dads. I really need to let that go! but they were so hurtful. We were goiing to confront her but then she got pregnant (more hidedous comments to my poor friend who had miscarried - pregnant again so apparently it was ok to ask her about the baby she lost. Dear God it wasn't)

any how despite all that I do love her, she is my oldest friend and I would miss her so much if we had a row. so yes that is what I am doing today.

I should (hate that word) be tidying up. essentially the problem is the guinea pigs have a new cage but the stand has yet to arrive so they are piled up on some boxes and it looks dreadful. the new boy who will go under the cage is balanced on my desk - he is safe but again room looks terrible. all the stuff on the desk is on the floor and ooo it is driving me nuts!!

The conservatory well I don't even want to talk about that. Nor the amount of work to be done.

I decided that I wouldn't go to Take That this weekend. It has broken my heart because it would have been a great experience and I will miss my friends but I am in such in a state here, the thought of getting on a train and not being ready for work on Monday terrifies me. Utterly. And it is in a large part due to my disorganisation. Mum, house, 2 jobs, pets, friends, driving lessons, MA, work, all takes so much time and there is nothing left to file the post or what ever. I know I don't have a husband or children - social services would be called in if I did!!

Any how I fully believe this disorganisation is my biggest problem, it is the source of my unhappiness, the reason why I don't met any men, why work is so difficult, why money is such a problem all of it is because I am constantly fighting a tide of mess and fuss most of it unnecessary and difficult to fix.

Rather than continuing to comtemplate my navel here I shall go do fifteen minutes in my room. It will make me feel better, I know this! I have been here before people!!

Money wise check out my signature.
The CC is at about 800. I MUST go through that statement am slightly worried about it.


see you later

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

OH MY GOD.
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I rang the student loans company.

they sent a letter a couple of weeks ago saying I had over paid my loan and could I please ring them to arrange a repayment. I thought it would be a couple of hunderd quid at most, but it turns out it was


£1600..................................

I couldn't believe it, I did ask much to be honest like how it happened or what happened or anything. The money will be in my account next week and it will pay both my loan and my credit card. To say I am stunned is an understatement.

really stunned.


xxx

youareallhelpingme

WOOHOO - DEBT FREE NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now if you had been organised and rung them earlier you would have had a week of feeling :j instead of . :px