Buffy's Adventures at the Post Office......

Buffythedebtslayer

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Quick list

1. Guinea pigs - Mum fed them leeks last night which I am sure are poisonous, watched them for about an hour last night seem ok, also seem fine this morning. I shan't give them veg tonight and will put them out in the run to give them a good stretch and get their tummies going. plus clean them out

done, poor little girls. I really need to take better care of them.

2. get three things out of the loft for the shed

This turned in to three hours out in the garden sorting out the various equipment and gardening stuff - moving from one shed to another and clearing up the garden. My sister and her bf are supposed to be doing some stuff but they more then likely won't and I got so mad with it all that I decided to do some myself and wore myself, moved stuff out of the loft and to my shed cages,boxes, my bike, 3 bags of rubbish. I have filled my shed and the garden looks loads better.

3. clean fish out

This didn't happen.
oh well.

4. tidy room(its like a teenage room, clothes, plates, guinea pig food, leeks!!)

all done.

5. mark two lots of books.

not done. !!!!!!.


xxxxx

Not my best day. things are a bit hard with mum the whole readjustment thing is difficult. big sunday lunch which is nice but takes hours. I could have met a friend this afternoon but could hardly walk out on a roast dinner some one who loves you has spent hours preparing. I know I sound mean I just think I got used to having my weekends to myself again. Plus to be honest she doesn't like all the running round tidying. too much change.

It will be fine in a couple of weeks. but I am fed up now.

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Just watched Private Practice.

so heart breakingly sad. silly to get upset about tv programme.

sighs.

Plus just to further explain my pathetic tv habits Ghost whisperer finishes this week. even more sad about that. I want to live in Grandview!! (and wear her clothes)

must go to bed now.

xxx

chevalier

Adjusting to a parent returning IS hard. I have my mum coming out for xmas. Part of me is happy about this. And my DS2 is soooo excited about her arriving, bless him. But the other part of me is sighing a bit. she has to be OUT EVERY DAY at least once. She can't understand why I don't want to go out aimlessly walking around for 2 hours, when I have enough to get on with here. She means well but it drives me nuts. Also she can't understand why I put the boys in holiday club when she is here! Sigh It is 6 weeks of holidays. they start driving me nuts after two as they are both high maintenance. so the clubs help me get the house square or just have some me time. Is that so bad. She keeps wanting to take them for walks along the beach, and they don't mind at first, but after the first 6 or 7 times of this, then they don't want to go either. I know I shouldn't moan, and I am looking forward to having a built in baby sitter for 12 weeks. But even so....

takes a breath. No I should be visualising having a stress free holiday, where we get to do fun stuff both with the boys and without them shouldn't I. *and breath*.

So I empathise. But FOR YOUR SANITY. you have to get on and do what YOU need to do. If a clutter free environment is good for your mental health then she will have to deal with it, and you will have to keep calm and carry on when you deal with her!!!!!
chev

Buffythedebtslayer

Just a quick one before bed (I wish!!)

Chev, my sister says similar things about Mum visiting, she always wanted to go out lots too (she doesn't so much now) but her first few visits she (and Dad saw LOADS. never had a day in!

I shall keep calm and carry on (unless I am out in the garden in which case I shall throw things around and generally behave like a child) I do love her, aside from all the normal reasons she just made me cocoa! with marshmallows!

night all xxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Ok, I am not at work. I had a dreadful night's sleep and when it came to the alarm this morning I was already awake heart thumping away. so I phoned in sick. I have always thought that workplace stress was was some thing that happened but I would be fine and any problems were my fault and I should deal with them. However recently - the last two years things have changed beyond recognition and I know I am not coping at all. I look at the pile of work and just cry or I don't look(!) and go and do something else. I barely recognise myself.

anyhow. I am going to spend the rest of today sorting out work stuff. I know long term this is not a workable solution but it will have to do for now.

Mum is being unsupportive but that is fairly standard. Unless she can say I told you so or solve the problem with food she worries. And now she is worried and when I try and talk to her she just says well why don't you get on with your work instead of talking about it. and yes she has a point but she doesn't seem to acknowledge that I spend 10/12 hours a day working and it nevers ends. That is what freaks me out. it is will never be finished I will never be safe from some check they think up to catch you out. Ok I haven't done much this weekend. fair point but I think at this moment I am at some kind of breaking point. I just couldn't face it.

If I carry on writing I will just get more upset. This is utterly bonkers!

xxx

Sea78

buffy - massive hugs hun. I'm off as ds is ill, but it was a relief to think I could get caught up. However, I'm concerned about you - have you thought about going to the doctors and talking this through? Perhaps a short time off work (signed off) would give you the breathing time you need? ANd also bring it home to school that the stress is unreasonable - given the hoops you have to jump through etc. I was signed off for stress last year.

xxxxxxx

Pippajo

((((hugs hun))))) how are you this afternoon? xxx

Sea78

Hope that your light being off means you're having a little sleep.
xxx

beanielou

Buffy~Yet again I really really wish you would go to the GP & get signed off,please.Your mental health comes first.
Sea says this too now!

RosaBernicia

hi Buffy - just popping out of lurkdom to give you these :grouphug: and echo beanielou and Sea about getting yourself a break by whatever means necessary. It's not unreasonable or giving in - it's the only rational response to a stupid situation.

Rosa xx