Dirty's hoping it's not too late to mend her ways......

dirtyepic

My post for Friday's Eve!!

Yay, Friday's Eve is here again, thank goodness!

I have a lot to be happy about today and I promise this will be short and sweet!

1. Payday today and I have paid all my debts and also a good (as planned) amount off the cards.

2. This now brings me to 34% of my debt paid. How brill is that! I feel great, I won't be able to update my signature till I get home but I feel canny good about it. Onwards and upwards. One of my credit cards will be paid in three months. If I can do something to make a bit more money then that could be reduced to two.

3. I had a great night last night watching two local punk bands - Angelic Upstarts and Crashed Out. Bumped into an old work pal of mine and had a lush time catching up with her. Always an absolute pleasure to see her.

4. Was a bit naughty, but thoroughly enjoyed the two pints of Guinness I had at the gig so when I tracked them on my ww tracker today I was over the moon to see they weren't as heavy on the points as I first anticipated.

5. My manager hasn't been able to make it into the office today due to train cancellations.

6. I am heading off early to my physio appt which I have been waiting for for months.

So my little list of 'to-do's' for tonight is:

-update signature
-prepare ebay parcels for postage tomorrow
-back up me phone and me macbook ready to reformat the computer
-go for a 2 mile walk
-20 mins pilates
-relaxing bath
-EARLY NIGHT!
-keep away from food and the temptation of lovely grub.

Remember - do I want to eat that more than I want to lose a stone?

Right, i am off to catch up with lionheartedgirl, memorygirl, burntfingers, dinah93 then maybe finish me work for the day!

See you tomorrow, remember it's Positive Friday! Don't let anyone or anything sway your decision of how positive things are going to go!

Dirtyepic

dirtyepic

Positive Friday - 2 weeks in a row!

Another Friday when I have insisted on being positive in the office.

It appears to be working!

This week I have managed to keep all appointments, all medically related - 4 days out of 5 this week. Didn't forget about a single one!

So Monday - counselling was okay, we cleared a lot of things and got me thoughts a bit more stable and I feel I am understanding more and more.
Tuesday - asked for my impromptu day off and relaxed and thoroughly enjoyed it
Wednesday - dr's appointment re: my anxiety and my bad back - all okay and left the surgery feeling okay
Thursday - physiotherapy for my back - have waited months for it and now going to search for a pilates class to help me develop my core stomach muscles to give adequate support to my back
Friday - dentist appointment - got my tooth filled, again. Also cleaned and polished and put my 'crown' back to later this year when I can afford to get it done.

Tomorrow I have double, no, treble booked my morning. Grrrrr! I have my hair appointment at 9am - desperate to get my head re-redded and straightened, I may even ask for an even stronger fringe! Then I am supposed to go to ww for 10.30am which is looking very unlikely and I am quite p-ed off about that because I really need to keep on top of my progress to keep my interest going. Can't go to my alternative meeting on Monday due to being a bank holiday. Then on top of both of these I have arranged to have my Glastonbury Festival tickets delivered on Saturday!! I did actually decide, a few weeks ago, that I would head over to South Shields Market on Saturday afternoon to get some cheap fabric to try and make a replica of my favourite, most flattering topshop top.

Oh well, such is life. If I manage two out of these then I will be happy I suppose.

My bank is looking okay today.

I have sufficient money to get my hair done and to get my skincare stuff this month but then realised that I owe my argos card about £85 to be paid by July 11th. Grrrr. I know that will come out of my June paypacket.

This morning I panicked a bit and started to hunt for a part time job that I could go to a couple of nights a week after my usual job.

This may prove to be a bit awkward if my travelling starts up again pretty soon but I thought I should at least try.

If I could make another £100 per month to use as my spends or to pay towards my debt then I should be happy.

Then after a lot of humming and aarring I decided that maybe next month (can't this month due to Glastonbury coming up) I cut my unnecessary spending by another £100 and save this towards my debt/necessities instead of having to rely on ebay sales.

I really can't think of what to sell on ebay anymore, my usual line is very temperamental. Some weeks I can achieve my £5 a day and some weeks it's non-existent.

So I am thinking that if Memorygirl can reduce her food shopping bill to £100 (to last as long as she can) I can definitely have a good shot at being even less frivolous for a couple of months. Can't I? Mmmmmmm. I can only try.

So that amounts to cutting down to buying no clothes (unless absolutely necessary but making my own clothes doesn't count!), purchasing make up and toiletries only when absolutely necessary, socialising to absolute minimum (doesn't include going to friend's houses cos this costs almost nowt).

I have now decided also that my birthday in July is going to be a very quite and cheap affair and that next year, when I am debt free, will be a rather grander affair.

I can't wait for this weekend though. Still v v cheap. I have declined a night out to see a friend perform with his band in a pub so tonight will cost nowt. Tomorrow we are either staying in or heading to a pal's house to watch the European Cup Final (sarcastic whoopee!) and maybe indulge in fish and chips for tea (unsarcastic whoopee!). Sunday we were supposedly going camping but couldn't get in a campsite anywhere so a pal has said he knows of some places in Northumberland where we can just pitch up and tent up! Thus spending only for food, beer and petrol. That, of course, is weather dependent. Monday I have nothing planned. Which means will cost me nothing.

Blimey, I have said it before and I will have to say it again - I can't half chunter on about stuff can't I.

So, everyone, I hope you have the weekend you plan to have.

Take care

dirtyepic

dirtyepic

01.06.11

Hi Diary

I have had such a busy weekend (it was a really good one) and busy usually means spending and spending means I am a bit afraid to check my bank account.

I have spent - not massive amounts - but haven't kept an eye on exactly what I have done and I dread to think about the dent in my finances. It's been on bits and pieces that I need for Glastonbury festival etc. I have splashed out on some fabric to make some summer tops and a dress and that came to less than £20 and that will be 1 dress and 3 possibly 4 tops. So I can't really complain there can I?

This dedicated debt busting is now getting extremely difficult and I am really struggling with the whole timescale of it. The thought of using my credit card for the first time in 11 months is getting more and more tempting. I need facial cleanser and there's makeup that I desperately need and I have left it as long as I can but it's such a step backwards. (God when I read that back it sounds so trivial doesn't it?).

It's a great feeling paying a big sum off each month but that then soon fades and the reality of not being able to do things or buy small items (I am not talking about going mental and blowing my well earned pennies on unecessary stuff) that I need or really want sinks in.

I am now in a situation where I have absolutely no spending money for Glastonbury at the end of the month. This is ridiculous because it's like Christmas! As in I know it's going to happen and I know I should be saving for it but I haven't and that's that.

I don't want to borrow for this because when I get back I have to pay for my Argos card. I am so p**d off with myself. I wish I could earn a little bit more to see me through.

Aaaaaarrrrrrrggghhh!!!

Right I am going to check my paypal and transfer anything that I can to my ebay bank account and then at dinnertime I will check my current account and ebay account and see what's what!

Wish me luck.

Till later, when I am sure things will be a lot rosier!!! (positiveness creeping in!)

Dirtyepic

dirtyepic

Eeeh well look at that, it's been over a week since I updated my own diary, I dunno if that's a good thing or a bad thing!

It's always good to keep up with my thoughts and my finances but when there's nothing really to report what's the point of writing for writing's sake?

So it's still all positive on the Dirtyepic front so far as my control of all usual issues.

My finances are still rubbish though. Since my last posts I still have no money for Glastonbury but it doesn't half make you think about how to get out of a difficult situation.

My ebay sellers fees bill came in at over £40 this month so that was a bit of a shock, fortunately I hammered my ebay mountain of items to sell and that's now payed with about £3 left over!

I was too scared to check both my current and ebay bank accounts but they weren't as bad as I thought they could've been. Don't get me wrong they are still desparate but I think I can get this weekend of ebay parcels posted off and the planned night out with the Bald one.

On trying to think how to make myself a bit more cash in these desparate weeks I remembered a NW bank account that I opened to serve as my sole account for matched betting a few years ago. So I checked the account and there's 164.40 in there. Yippee!! I am heading up to the local branch of the NW at dinner time to withdraw and close the account and will then pop to the post office (to stand in yet another queue!) to post my 9 parcels for ebay. Now here's a thought - how come some weeks I only have to post to the UK? Then other weeks there's loads of European sales and then the US sometimes take up the majority of sales. Now this week when I could do with some good sales and cheap postage half of my parcels are heading off to North America!?

Oh well beggars most definitely cannot be choosers!

So, as if I don't already have to scrimp and scrounge for Glastonbury (which is 11 sleeps by the way. 11 sleeps = 89% excited!) we have decided on a fancy dress night and there's a few themes - clowns, superheroes or invent your own superhero! Now me being the MSE apprentice and thinking all things cheap and cheerful I have decided on being a clown and all I have to buy is some glow in the dark face paint, some pyjama bottoms (to make knickerbockers), some white netting for an underskirt and some stripey socks (I think I might have some of these from when I was going to make a sock monkey!) I have a dress which I hope will still fit me and I can adapt to being a lady clown, I don't need a wig because my hair is already the colour of a bright red wig and I have most of the other makeup I need.

I have to confess, I have had to use the credit card. Last Friday. I mentioned earlier that I was desparate for toiletries and makeup well I just had to get them on the cc and have vowed to pay that purchase off at payday.

So at the moment I am not at 34% debt paid off but by the end of the month it will be well over the 34% mark.

My weight loss is very slow but heading in the right direction! I have lost a total of 10.5lb and just need that 3.5 to go to get me to the magic 1STONE lost but, by God, it's hard and slow!

Half a pound here and there hardly seems worth all of the aggrevation and hard work but, as the ww lady said to me when producing a block of lard "this is half a pound and you could've lost it from your butt!" It made things a lot more bearable. So now i measure my weight loss in blocks of lard!

Finger's crossed all my healthy eating and exercise this week will show when I get weighed tomorrow. Just got to walk in tall, shoulders back, tummy and bum in and think positive in blocks of lard!!

I have had a very LS week this week. I have had a couple of cups of nice strong coffee at 99p each and that's all I have spent this week. Well apart from I had to buy a birthday present for a good friend of mine and started to panic about where I was going to get the money from. Then I realised I STILL HAD THE FENWICKS GIFT CARD!! Yippee!!! You know, the one where I was going to completely treat myself on lots of lovely new MAC makeup but actually in reality had to get a new pair of work shoes and got my lush black Cons with £13 left on the card. So my friend has got a lovely new compact mirror delicately decorated with swarfoski (or however you spell it) bling and a nice card and gift bag and all I had to pay was an extra 60p so I am very happy with my spending this week and next week will have to be moreorless the same. With the exception of getting my final outfit sorted and I might just be able to get that out of my NW £80 windfall!!

Ooh on the dressmaking front. I have completed two dresses now and will be taking them both to Glastonbury. I would dearly like to get a pattern made from a lovely topshop top but dunno when I will get the time to do that! Let's hope I can magic some hours from thin air over the next week. I am loving being able to do this. I was always of the mind that I would mess things up big style but i have been keeping up with Memorygirl's thread and someone wrote on there that you can always unpick the stitches. So now there's no stopping me. The material's dirt cheap and I make the patterns from disposable table cloths and South Shields' market has a great fabric stall and haberdashery stall on a Saturday and I am absolutely itching to go back and spend a fiver on loads of fabric!

I think I will have to physically write my list in a notebook and continually add to it.

Yep, that's it, I am off to write lovely lists! At least these lists are enjoyable ones! Just think when I get back from Glastonbury I will be back to writing the frustrating lists and getting annoyed!!!

That's ages yet

Hope everyone has a great weekend and the sun at least makes a bit of an appearance!

Dirtyepic

ps I have decided against making work for myself and refrain from my diary lists and whatnot for a little while. My debts are paid and I have included everything therefore no PAD to calculate. Although this does feel like I am doing nothing for the whole month it's one less thing to try and maintain.

jwil

You've done really well so far dirtyepic so well done on the debt payments and the weight loss.

I find that a good proportion of my sales go abroad, it's good on the one hand, but I don't like waiting to know if all is ok, especially if something has gone for more than I expected!

Have a great time at Glastonbury, you're heading down to my neck of the woods. Hopefully the sun shines for you!

dirtyepic

Hello diary,

Inspiration is being thrown at me from all directions (well two - work most definitely NOT included!)

I am in a really calm place at the moment and feel all serene and chilled about everything when, until very recently, I would be on edge, worried and 'past myself' with all the excitement, worry and trepidation in the run up to the Glastonbury festival.

My Health (my head)
First of all, probably most important too, is my health. I am honestly so impressed with my counselling and feel like I am really being me (again). Not the person who has been 'trained to please'. All my life I have just thought of how other people are before myself, don't get me wrong that is not a bad thing. I have recently learned that instead of being a positive thing for me it's turned into more of a negative thing and it has so long been such an automatic and natural thing to do, just go along with the flow, don't want to upset anyone, what will people think if I ...... or if I don't ........??
Why have I been so bothered about what other people think, deep down, for so long? It's all becoming apparent.

Last week I got angry. Haven't been allowing myself to get angry for a long long time. Instead I keep it in, try to please, don't want anyone to see me get angry. Then when I eventually got angry, I was then angry at myself for being such a fool and letting anger get the better of me.

Until last week. I got angry. It was for a reason. I sorted myself out. I didn't apologise for the anger because it was actually justified. The outburst lasted about 1 minute. Then the aftermath lasted about an hour. I felt better.

I now know that this is natural. I have been able to deal with an emotion that I have always been taught was wrong. It was always wrong to feel angry but now I know it isn't.

So now that my head is eventually getting back to a normal state. (Thing is was it ever a normal state if I have always lived my life the way I was taught and now it's apparent that I learned some things incorrectly, or I allowed myself to develop into this person without certain emotions). My health is getting so much better.

My (non)aneurysm
I have let the recent developments of the non-aneurysm drift off to the back of my queue of thoughts until recently.

I am now rather angry at the way the situation has been handled, basically swept under the carpet. So I have taken the opportunity to contact a local lawyer, specialising in medical negligence and even though I am not expecting it to get very far I am at least expecting a letter of apology (this time using a more serious tone, instead of the jovial, 'matter of fact' type that I received to tell me that for the past 15 years of being told I have a cerebral aneursym, I actually don't! I have been going to hospital on a regular basis and having angiograms which are unpleasant to say the least along with increasing the risk of stroke at each appointment. I have thought, for 15 years, that with my mam passing away at the age of 56 and her dad passing away at 55, both as a result of a cerebral haemorrhage, with me having the same condition, I was going to suffer the same and suffer a haemorrhage in my mid 50's. I have had that for 15 years of my life. That's my late twenties, all of my thirties and also my early forties)
So the wheels are set in motion. I am hoping that something positive will come out of this. At least their apparent systems of work should be reviewed and a second set of eyes should confirm the result of each test. This was supposed to be the case but I really doubt that for this length of time, each test was checked by my consultant then confirmed by a second person and they have both got it incorrect for all this time.

Right! Rant over!!

Weight loss
Doing okay still. I have 1.5lbs - aka 3 blocks of lard - to lose before Glastonbury and my last weigh in is on Saturday morning. GULP!!!
I think I will be okay. Got to stay postive, walk in tall and KNOW that I have lost the weight.

I do feel quite good about myself, some work clothes (trousers) which were rather tight on me are now hanging quite well. So finger's crossed that Saturday will see me achieve a massive goal.
Ooh yes and my boobs are getting smaller. Yippee!!! They have gone from Huge to just plain Massive!!! Still would find it very difficult and painful to run!

Money
Not much to say on this. I feel like I haven't really done anything to add to my previous comments but that is only because I done all of my debt payments on payday which was early due to bank holiday. I have worked very hard with my ebay and hopefully by the time I come back from Glastonbury I will be back on the debt busting trail. I have proved I can do it with plain old determination and hard work.

Now for the biggy!!!
Glastonbury Festival of Performance Arts 2011
I wish I could actually explain the excitement that I am now feeling for this occasion. But there is no word that can describe it.

We have trialled the tent, bought the provisions in bulk from Makro, started to create a pile of stuff that needs to be packed, wrote lists upon lists.

Everything is just falling into place. Which is great because it proves that it's all in the planning.

so my plan of the week ahead involves Glastonbury prep only (because basically everything else has been done yippee)

T 14.06.11 - Washing, sort out camping gear from loft, trial of tents in park, trial of new GeordiePowerEcoShower!
W 15.06.11 - Washing, sort out camping items from back bedroom
Th 16.06.11 - Washing, ironing, sort out designs and masks
F 17.06.11 - print ebay, designs and masks at work! make clown outfit and trial makeup,
S 18.06.11 - post ebay, ww 10.30, pound shop for last of stuff (1L water bottles, lucozade, shot glasses, bin bags, tissues) South Shields market for final haberdashery stuff for outfit, baking cakes for Glasto party! Make minty vodka and decant vodka into plastic bottles
Su 19.06.11 - pack rucksack, wrap baking, pack baking
M 20.06.11 - spray tan 4.15, Final tidy of house, shop for fresh stuff
T 21.06.11 - 9am hair, maybe final ebay items to post, pub for 12.30, depart at 13.15

So there we go. That's why I am excited like nothing else. It's all good!

So to conclude this diary entry, I have realised now that for once, in a very very long time, I am a lot happier with myself, I am beginning to like me. I don't dislike who I am anymore, nor do I hate what I see in the mirror (I'm not entirely happy with that mind, a lot of room for improvement but I am getting there!).

I am achieving my goals - how great's that?

One more thing too - just this morning I realised I now have willpower. I have set targets (financial, health, personality, weight, exercise), worked towards them, been knocked back a few times but, do you know what? I am getting there. That's willpower, that is!

I hope I can keep this up but if my next post isn't as positive - that's just another knock back and I can quite easily, get angry, get up, brush myself down and pick up where I left off.

Blimey - who wrote all that?!!!

Till later,
dirtyepic

My numbercrunching for this week (non financial)
Weight loss 12.5lb/14lb = 89% achieved
6 Sleeps till Glastonbury = 94% excited
Feeling about current state of mind = 100% shocked!

lionheartedgirl

:j what a lovely, lovely post! I'm thrilled for you!

And loving the detailed planning for Glastonbury I am going to have to do something similar so I make it to Italy with everything I need!

It's a really interesting point that you have made about getting angry and going with it - I remember the first time I really did it and got my point across and it felt really, really good!

There is a good quote, can't remember who, but along the lines of,

Anyone can get angry, that's easy. But getting angry at the right time, at the right intensity and at the right person, that's difficult.

Sounds like things are coming together, and great that you have been able to work out what you want to do re. the health issue that turned out not to be. Sounds like a very measured response which you are going about very calmly.

Enjoy Glastonbury if you don't get on here again before you go! :T

dirtyepic

lionheartedgirl wrote: »

:j what a lovely, lovely post! I'm thrilled for you!
Thanks, I feel like I am living proof of time being a great healer along with baby steps taken.

And loving the detailed planning for Glastonbury I am going to have to do something similar so I make it to Italy with everything I need!
Eeh I really need to or else I feel I wouldn't be achieving anything and it all adds to the excitement for me. I know, it's not long for Italy, you must be getting rather excited now! Do you have to transport your own harp? It is a harp holiday/event isn't it? Or have I managed to completely make that up?

It's a really interesting point that you have made about getting angry and going with it - I remember the first time I really did it and got my point across and it felt really, really good!
I know, you are so right it felt very unwrong. It felt natural and controlled and a relief but I wasn't aware of this properly until we discussed it at my counselling session on Monday. I am now finishing my sessions at the end of July, that's it. No more (I hope). I really hope I am never ever in such a place again when I just can't handle the way I live my life. I am so positive that that's not going to happen. How mad is it that I am actually thinking like this, not that long ago I was such a different person.

There is a good quote, can't remember who, but along the lines of,

Anyone can get angry, that's easy. But getting angry at the right time, at the right intensity and at the right person, that's difficult.
That's us, that is!!

Sounds like things are coming together, and great that you have been able to work out what you want to do re. the health issue that turned out not to be. Sounds like a very measured response which you are going about very calmly.
Thank you

Enjoy Glastonbury if you don't get on here again before you go! :TThanks again!

I checked out the link for the dogs that you placed in your posting on MG's thread. It must be so difficult choosing, they are all so beautiful. My friend had a rescue greyhound and she was such a placid friendly thing, loved it when we all used to visit - she enjoyed all of the attention!

I love MG's threads, they keep me inspired and help me realise the important things in life, even though I don't have any children, I loved to hear about her boys and how they fill their days (and tummies with tremendous fresh food!).

All of the matrixettes are interesting, supporting and full of ideas and motivation and they probably don't even realise it. Even if I can't really understand any of their business chat or accountancy chat I can't help but be interested in them.

Hoping you are keeping busy (still) with all the nice, right things and still in control of all the things you need to be in control of! I know that I start to get a bit flustered if I am not. Not that I am a control freak mind!

Off to bed now and when I wake up it's only five sleeps! Yay!

Great to hear from you LHG, keep enjoying the things you are meant to enjoy and the rest pales into insignificance.

Night night

Dirtyepic
x

dirtyepic

Eeh well hello again Diary!!

I'm back again after me annual jaunt down to the Glastonbury Festival and I can't believe it's now over for 2 whole years - roll on 2013. At least next year hopefully I will be chosen as a volunteer for the Olympics and (hopefully) my placement will be in Newcastle.

Everything is now back to normal and I mean really NORMAL. I am not enjoying the reality of normal life again. Work seems so boring, well it's always been boring but now it's like ultra boring. We have a replacement for my colleague who left in November last year and when I listened to him and my boss chatting on Friday I couldn't believe that I was part of this team. The most undynamic team that I have ever been involved with but at least we now have someone to take some of the workload from me. Watch this space!!

My debt busting has basically been put on hold for this month only.
I have paid all of my usual debt but not overpaid to my usual amount due to this month being quite busy after all. I thought that I could manage to live on an extremely limited budget for June but struggled immensely and had to use the credit card to buy some essentials. So for the month of July only I have decided to cut myself some slack, pay all of the new credit card purchases off, pay the minimum payment and pay off some more. This has allowed me to breathe a little and next month I will be back to the usual of having about £100 to last me a month. Actually when I put it down in writing like that £100 seems a lot to last a whole month.

So I will include my latest figures below just cos it makes me feel better!

01.07.11
I owe:
cc 1 (bc) £5029.63 cc 2 (nw) £937.35
Total: £5966.95
I have paid, since LBM Oct 2010: £3384.90
% paid off to date: 36.19% Yippee!!

Weight loss figures:
18.06.11 total lost: 15.5lbs (yay)
02.07.11 total lost: 11lb (booh, put 4.5lb on in two weeks due to excesses of cider and bread!)

So cracking back on with weightwatchers this week to get me back in the positive frame of mind

Also going to try and get my ebay sales up and running again, going to try and put 5 items on tonight and tomorrow night just to get me back in the swing of things.

So, still keeping with the positiveness and stuff I am heading off to my counselling session today and actually I don't want to go.

I haven't been along for a couple of weeks now and think that I have not required any kind of help due to being able to deal with emotions and situations that I have experienced since my last session.

I am understanding now why I can feel the way I sometimes do and I can re-evaluate any uncomfortable situations and thoughts to prevent me from hitting that dark place again.

But needs must, as they say, and I should head along there today to start to wrap the sessions up as they are coming to an end at the end of July.

I have been back home almost a week and am still lagging behind with catching up with my usual diaries - memorygirls, lionheartedgirl, dinah93 and a couple of others. I am sure once I am back up to date with these my motivation will be sky high and I will be inspired no end to do things that I didn't think I could or would.

So for now, I am going to crack on with some work and hope to report back here a bit later on.

It's good to be back, diary!

dirtyepic

dirtyepic

Hi Diary

I'm back again and MUST get back on track with everything.

Work's beginning to get me really down again and I think I am going to have to dedicate some time to job searching.

My boss has started to really inundate me with more work and more travelling and I have just mentioned to him this morning that I am struggling with all of the outstanding items that are local issues without even opening the floodgates of other location's issues.

Grrrrr!

I am worn out and it's back to thinking too much. I must get my coping strategies in place that I have learned at my counselling sessions.

Looking forward to going home tonight and hunting out an old cv from when I was a graphic designer. I am very tempted to go for a position as a Mac Operator which will entail a dramatic salary cut but I have to get out of this H&S industry as it is dragging me down and the people I work with are very boring and that frustrates me so much.

On a lighter note, I checked my snowball and updated and made a small token payment a day to both of my credit cards to last for the next 14 days which now brings me to:

37.06% of my debt now paid! Yippee!

I now owe £5886 in total and at a bit of a stalemate cos I really want to hammer that down quicker than I have been.

Tonight when I get home I am going to:

- sort out my little workroom/office and get cracking with my cv updating and to step forward to revert my career to a more creative one again
- stick one wash in
- iron 5 items
- get some items relisted on ebay
- write a letter of apology to my physio for missing my session (feel really bad about this)

So, diary, I will see you later.

Going to get as much done tonight because tomorrow it's that day when I advance by 1 year! Yep, 43 tomorrow and need to have a nice relaxing night with my lovely husband, Baldy, who is meeting me from work and we are staying in Newcastle for some delicious tapas and I CAN'T WAIT!!

Cheerio, NOTE TO SELF - keep smiling and don't let the !!!!!H0L3$ grind you down, no matter how flipping boring they may be!

dirtyepic

who is a little bit closer to being debt free and a little bit closer to being 43!