The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

graemecarter

fayjmck wrote: »

This rang true for me last night, given a bottle of wine on way home - thought OK one glass won't hurt (Famous last words) and then of course the bottle was gone. Fell asleep on sofa - woke up at 4am.

Sounds familiar - I was never good at moderating...

My alcoholism would always tell me that this time it will be different, this time I WILL stop drinking after a drink or two, this time I won't get drunk, etc

That's the denial in me - and I believed it.
The madness of this condition is that despite all evidence to the contrary, I still believed that I would be able to get my relationship with alcohol under control and be able to drink in moderation.

The (rare) times I did drink in moderation convinced me that I was a moderate drinker. I ignored the times I cannot remember going to bed/getting home/etc

honeybear_2

:wave:

Sorry my post the other day looked like such garbage. It was due to how I had access & it seems a but pointless to go back to edit it to look pretty by now!

Am still around & rooting for you all but also keeping very much to myself as I think it's what I need right now

bearhugs

Pippilongstocking

Thanks for that GC - I know you are right about so many things.

I'm free of the curse of it today - and that's what counts - today will be AF so thats a good day. I'm off out in the garden in a mo, I normally struggle after day 3 of AF'ness - dunno why that is - once I'm over that hump I'm normally OK............confusing stuff right enough.

I don't know what I would ever have done without this thread - gave myself a bit of a hard time today.

However, the truth of the matter is, not that long ago - a bottle or so a night was normal - now its not so very normal at all - and that is progress.

I am coming around to the notion that I am 'allergic' to alcohol - regardless of any best intentions - I occasionally manage to just have one or two, but it usually follows with a steady upcreep in the amount I have.

Anyhows, today is a new day, no alcohol here so I can happily declare today as an AFD sparkles, taking things a day at a time here.

Bringing me upto 4 please sparkles

Thanks chaps - dunno what I'd do without you all. x

Dug out copy of living sober - I liked RA's take on it - a simple book for complicated people!

Hugs

69chick goodluck with the move x (I think I got that bit right)

peedie

Hiya HB:wave:
Good to see ya.
P

newroadahead

Hi All

Hope everyone is doing ok and not having too many bad days.:)

Sorry I didnt show last night, collected my car it PASSED its MOT.....:jand had a service with not any real problems. Will need break pads in 6,000 miles so will start to save for those before C........(cant say the word I know).
It was pay day yesterday so went to do big shop at Asda and was a naughty girl (bought one bottle of wine and you've guessed it drank a bottle of wine).:o

Had not felt good at all today, not so much a hangover but very tired. Also still receovering from a walk down 28 flights of stairs yesterday. We had a fire alarm and I work on the 14th floor!
Needless to say this has shown how unfit I am.:rotfl:

Miss P and SSG ... I know how you feel about work. I only returned in April and it is all so different now and being the "old lady" in the office doesnt help. :eek:

Welcome to the new folks, have only scan read the past few pages and WB HB:)

Will be AF tonight on apple juice as there is half a carton in the fridge needs using so that will bring me to total of 9 AFD.

One more and I hit target....heres hoping!!!!

Hope everyone keeps well, will not be on again till Sunday.

take care

love NRAxxxxxxxxxx

gien

Evening all, AF here - no DH and I don't like to be responsible for three kids and drink (it's the old what if I had to drive them to the hospital thing...).

I echo what you say Fay, if it wasn't for this thread I probably wouldn't even question my alcohol intake, just take it as normal to be perpetually hungover and tired - a lot of people I know do seem to accept that as how life is...

I also find that I just don't tolerate alcohol as well as I used to so just a little bit makes me feel carp the next day.

I'm just so pleased that waking in the middle of the night with that hot sweaty 'oh no, why did I drink so much' feeling is now a rare occurance.

DecemberBaby_2

Hi all,

AF here tonight so that's 8 for me please Sparkles.

I agree with Fay and others about the thread helping with the AFness. Before I joined I had almost no AF days at all in the last few years. Now I'm having some and they are increasing so I'm pleased with that. Still don't find it easy though but last year I would have just given in every evening.

I'm off for a walk then a big lime and soda

Best wishes to all.

DB x

peedie

22 for me please Sparkles

Has anyone else noticed the planets seem to be in a strange alignment or some thing, I went to the corner shop after work today for some milk. The chap started to go on about the wine they have got in. I said that I wasn't going to buy any today thanks, and he took real umbridge at this and started ranting about people getting stuff from supermarkets. I did always used to get wine from him so I dont know what he was taking about there. As I left with my 2 pints of milk he came running after me with a bottle of wine telling me to take it by way of an apology and went back in the shop. So I'm standing there in the rain with a free bottle of wine that I didnt want and an not going to drink........What is going on..


I opened it and poured it down the sink, no problem, no hesitation would have preferred a free pint of mike for my cuppa in the morning

Hope all is well with everyone
See you later

a confused Peedie

SimIsOnTheUp

Good Evening guys.

Hope you're all well.

Think I'm in shock here.

At 6pm tonight, I had a card through my door, from an ex - Girlfriend, saying "Just seen in the paper, about P. How sad. Hope you're ok"

She'd tried calling too.

I'd also had a text, and call, from my Girlfriend saying "Hope you're ok. I Love you"

P was my best friend, and he died this week. My ex had seen it in the Obituaries, in our local paper.

He was 42.

P was the kindest, most hilarious, sensitive, most intelligent, witty, all round loveliest, warmest, most caring bloke I've ever met.

We were neighbours for 5 years, and have been the best of friends for about 7 years. Can't quite believe he's gone.

I'd only buzzed his flat last Friday, to no avail.

Apparently, he died suddenly.

I hadn't seen him, for two months, when he'd come into the homeless centre, when I was volunteering.

He'd wanted me to go for a drink with him, after work, and he'd looked quite pale and poorly then.
I'd told him, I'd better not, as I'd been trying to stay off the ale.

I'd said "Please be careful P", and he said "Oh, don't be daft. I'm fine. Don't worry about me"

Now, I'm so gutted that I hadn't gone to see if he was ok months back.

P was (by his own admission), an alcoholic. He had grief off diabetes, gout of the knee, epilepsy, an all out b*stard of depression, and the onset of MS like symptoms.

He had gone a year sober, between '07 and '08 I think, and had been doing brilliantly.

He'd been loved by everyone at the homeless charity, when he worked there from '08 to '09.

I loved him, and I can't put down in words just how much I did, and how much I'm going to miss him.

Sim x

honeybear_2

Sim, I'm so very sorry
xx