The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

fedupandskint

Welcome lou

I've been cleaning all morning and have had enough for today - ready to garden now and see if I can grab some more heavily reduced plants (and find somewhere to plant them!)

Trying hard not to ring the rescue centre about a dog to rehome who looks so cute (v.thin from his mistreatment) - really need to think it through properly

fedupandskint

96hr challenge from Midnight Mon 28 June am to midnight Thurs 1 July pm
60 hours in 36 to go

Marru AFD 1 AFD 2
Sparkles AFD 1 AFD 2
NRA AFD 1
SSG AFD 1
Lurks (72hrs for a one off special dispensation)
PharmaRep
Miss P AFD 1 AFD 2
69Chick AFD 1
WBF AFD 1

Total AFD achieved in 96 hours = 10

69chick - did you have an AF Mon and Tues meaning you are on 2 or is it an AF Tues only -thanks

Loulou2010

thanks all - i have no idea where to start really. what i posted earlier is just a tip of the iceburg.

when i'm sober i want to get off the drink/painkillers. but when i'm drunk all i want is more drink.

going to the gp is an obvious first step. my gp is very unsupportive. it would make sense to change surgeries but thats something i dont feel able to do. my current surgery is just few doors down from me so i dont have to go far.

SimIsOnTheUp

Loulou2010 wrote: »

thanks all - i have no idea where to start really. what i posted earlier is just a tip of the iceburg.

when i'm sober i want to get off the drink/painkillers. but when i'm drunk all i want is more drink.

going to the gp is an obvious first step. my gp is very unsupportive. it would make sense to change surgeries but thats something i dont feel able to do. my current surgery is just few doors down from me so i dont have to go far.

Good Afternoon LouLou.

Welcome to this very supportive thread :T

Not knowing where to start, is a feeling I can most definitely relate to!

I have trouble with 'baby steps', but when I'm feeling overwhelmed, it does help, to just tackle one or two small changes a day.

You deserve better from your GP.

How about trying a different GP, at the same surgery?

Hope you start to feel a bit brighter soon

Big Bear Hugs,

Sim x

brokepaolo

Afternoon folks,

Haven't checked in here for a while so I hope everyone is doing well and that any new people are finding this place to be as helpful as I've found it.

Not much to report from me, I've had a few af days since I last logged in, most notably yesterday when I got the shock of my life when my bank sent me a letter saying they were withdrawing my overdraft facility, which is fair enough really. they said I could apply for a new one at any time but I'm going to try and manage without one. needless to say it has made a huge dent in my finances for this month but my sister has kindly agreed to loan me half the money I need to cover my rent and I should have just enough to get by until my next payday in a couple of weeks time.

I was tempted to get drunk last night to put it all out of my mind for the evening but I remembered how I'd feel the next day so I shunned the booze and made myself a nice meal instead. Went to bed and couldn't sleep for a while because I was stressing about money but I eventually nodded off and this morning woke up determined to get something positive done.

I think I may have done just that. I have applied for a job as sous chef in a pub about 5 minutes away from where I live. they replied to me immediately saying they'll call me in for a chat and that they need someone for a couple of evenings during the week, so that's really good news. The last pub I worked had become a bit of a nightmare because it was quite far away so I had to take the bus there which cost me £6.80 each time, the pub itself was a bit depressing and run down and even the friend who originally employed me told me that they couldn't really afford me and would I consider a paycut if they needed me again. I told them it wouldn't really be worth my while for the money they were offering and we agreed to stop it after that shift.

I did however really enjoy working there and I learned a lot on how a commercial kitchen operates. They said thart they'd happily give me a glowing reference should I find another job somewhere else, so that's good. I'm 100% committed to giving it my best shot, I love cooking and there's a lot for me to learn so it would be an exciting opprtunity to do something different, not to mention earn some much needed extra cash. My daily job at the office has become a chore, I like the people but I'm not in the slightest bit passionate about it so it's nice to know that it's not just a lack of ambition on my part, rather I am passionate about a different occupation.

having said that, becoming and then working as a chef is really hard work and takes a long time, but I'm keen and will give it my all. I honestly can't remember the last time I've felt so determined to succeed as I do about this latest chance.

fingers, toes and chopsticks crossed I get the job!

brokepaolo

well done TP, 25 out of 29 is really good!

RecoveringAlcoholic

I love cooking

This comes across in your posts here.:D

Good luck.

P.S. Martin Sheen is a member of AA.

SimIsOnTheUp

brokepaolo wrote: »

Afternoon folks,

Haven't checked in here for a while so I hope everyone is doing well and that any new people are finding this place to be as helpful as I've found it.

Not much to report from me, I've had a few af days since I last logged in, most notably yesterday when I got the shock of my life when my bank sent me a letter saying they were withdrawing my overdraft facility, which is fair enough really. they said I could apply for a new one at any time but I'm going to try and manage without one. needless to say it has made a huge dent in my finances for this month but my sister has kindly agreed to loan me half the money I need to cover my rent and I should have just enough to get by until my next payday in a couple of weeks time.

I was tempted to get drunk last night to put it all out of my mind for the evening but I remembered how I'd feel the next day so I shunned the booze and made myself a nice meal instead. Went to bed and couldn't sleep for a while because I was stressing about money but I eventually nodded off and this morning woke up determined to get something positive done.

I think I may have done just that. I have applied for a job as sous chef in a pub about 5 minutes away from where I live. they replied to me immediately saying they'll call me in for a chat and that they need someone for a couple of evenings during the week, so that's really good news. The last pub I worked had become a bit of a nightmare because it was quite far away so I had to take the bus there which cost me £6.80 each time, the pub itself was a bit depressing and run down and even the friend who originally employed me told me that they couldn't really afford me and would I consider a paycut if they needed me again. I told them it wouldn't really be worth my while for the money they were offering and we agreed to stop it after that shift.

I did however really enjoy working there and I learned a lot on how a commercial kitchen operates. They said thart they'd happily give me a glowing reference should I find another job somewhere else, so that's good. I'm 100% committed to giving it my best shot, I love cooking and there's a lot for me to learn so it would be an exciting opprtunity to do something different, not to mention earn some much needed extra cash. My daily job at the office has become a chore, I like the people but I'm not in the slightest bit passionate about it so it's nice to know that it's not just a lack of ambition on my part, rather I am passionate about a different occupation.

having said that, becoming and then working as a chef is really hard work and takes a long time, but I'm keen and will give it my all. I honestly can't remember the last time I've felt so determined to succeed as I do about this latest chance.

fingers, toes and chopsticks crossed I get the job!

Hiya Paolo,

Congrats on keeping cool, calm, and collected yesterday, and staying sober after the news from the bank :T

Your passion is inspiring!

Good Luck with the Sous Chef job.

All the best,

Sim.

SimIsOnTheUp

treepotato1 wrote: »

my final total for June is 25/29 AF.

Good on ya TP, for 25 days sober!

brokepaolo

RecoveringAlcoholic wrote: »

This comes across in your posts here.:D

Good luck.

P.S. Martin Sheen is a member of AA.

Hehe, I know I bang on about it a lot, don't I?

It's just that after cooking a nice meal, I get a real sense of having achieved something that is actually going to be good for me.

A hard day's work at the office just doesn't do that for me at all.

I don't want to leave my current job, I've been here for almost 5 years and to be honest, there really isn't anything much better available here in Bristol. I'll stick with it, a job's a job after all..

hehe, another interesting fact about this particular pub where I'm hoping to work is that tuesdays they have Ladies Night! woohoo! :P