Debt Dropping the Elfen way!

elfen

Today: Have been to town and got a few little bits that were necessary, only a quid so an NSD for me Hoping to have another one tomorrow. Blinding weather outside, but it's cooler inside so I'm staying in lol.

Food diary:
B - banana
S - 6 squares white chocolate - last of the choccy in the house
L - celery, carrot and ham
S -
D - sausage salad

Planning to watch LOTR on 4 later, so I'll shift my snack down to then and maybe have some popcorn...maybe.

elfen

Just done my shopping, will be delivered on Weds (so not paid til next week) and only cost me £25 Much better, and it should last me nearly 2 weeks

elfen

Ok, food diary for today...
B - cornflakes
S -
L - 1/2 portion meatballs, 1/2 portion chips
S - orange or apple
D - steak salad with mushrooms

Only spent a little in town, got a long shirt I've been wanting for ages and it's now half price, had to get some boxers for mate as he'd run out, also got a new sports bra and a photo frame - the frame is to put a pic of my niece in and the sports bra will come in handy for running - shock absorber one for 6 quid in TK Maxx - definitely worth a look!

elfen

Also, tasks for the next week:
Get council tax exemption form
Try and phone gym to get it sorted
Sort out bills - no letters through yet
Sort out what's going on with the 1/2 month rent-wise - can pay the half month on the 14th, then its full months on the 1st
Get MM cheques and pay them in - one's in, just waiting for the second
Get money off Pint - he's had two paydays to get it in, he best have at least half - he's sorting out, I think I'll have some today and the rest soon. Asked him to ask around to sell the Muse tickets - hundred for the pair ain't bad
Meet NSD target by end of the month - so Tuesday 1st I will have 15 or more for the last month. - now on number 12 - hit my target, let's see if I can go over it
Restrict spending
Start couch to 5k thing - might have to wait til next week.....need to see the asthma nurse and get meds sorted. And see the GP about getting some anti-depressants raised - got meds sorted and referred back to the psych teams

elfen

Mealplans for the next two weeks....
Sunday - steak salad - done, was yummy
Monday - Turkey burgers and salad (another lot in freezer) - nomnom
Tuesday - meatballs in sauce with veg (another lot in freezer) - made!
Wednesday - Pork chop and veg
Thursday - Bacon and egg
Friday - sweet and sour chicken - second lot for freezer
Saturday - gammon, egg and pineapple

Sunday - Mince in tomato sauce with veg (another lot in freezer)
Monday - chicken korma with veg (another lot in freezer)
Tuesday - chicken drumsticks and salad
Wednesday - sausage and veg (2 x another lot in freezer)
Thursday - gammon, egg and pineapple
Friday - takeaway night
Saturday - Pork steak/chop with veg

Sunday - Mince with tomato sauce and veg - from freezer...
Monday - sausage salad

That's as far as I've got so far!

elfen

Food diary...
B - orange
S - grapes
L - 1/3 of a salad...wasn't really hungry tbh
S -
D - turkey burger and veg ...nomnomnom to HM food!

Also, I downgraded my phone today to a cheaper model, saving me a tub of money...so today, instead of spending, I'm saving...£90 has gone in, meaning tomorrow I'll only be £23 overdrawn....which sounds better. Have asked Pint about money and he's going to sort me some, and also see if anyone wants to buy 2 Muse tickets for Sept...

elfen

I'm also due a PP payment this week, and a MM cheque, so I might actually start next week being in the black!

Also made an appointment to see the GP to introduce myself and to get some help...I think I am desperately in need of sorting my medication out....it's sunny, I'm happy for a little but around people I still want ot punch their heads in, regardless of who they are....THe voices are quiet so the weightloss must be affecting the quetiapine.....but I'm still wanting to cry all the !!!!ing time. Also seeing the asthma nurse Thursday as moving to the city has affected my asthma big time!

elfen

Not too bad a start, fell asleep on the sofa for an hour and woke up disorientated....not normal for me, I think it must be to do with the depression going haywire right now. Just checked BMI, it's now down to 27.2 from 30.3

Am waiting for the postie before going into town, to see if my Boots card turns up and then I can go on a mini spend with the points. I WILL have an NSD

So far...
B - cereal
S - grapes

elfen

L - rice cake with ham and coleslaw
S -
D - meatballs with tomato sauce

No post today unusually.....hope it's there tomorrow....

elfen

Ok, big evening for me.

Pint came round. We had a hug, we had a chat, we had dinner.
Then I started crying. I started crying, because I don't know why. Because I realised that maybe, just maybe, I could see a future with him. And I'd messed it up big time, as I always do, by being jealous and possessive and generally being the world's biggest cow.
So, after a bit of oingy boingy (instigated on both sides, may I add) we had a chat. I said, if I was given a second chance, I'd do things differently. Obviously, we don't live together now, so I'm not there being an em!!!!!!ance as he has friends and I don't really, and I'm not getting all jealous. I said I actually WANT to sort my life out, I'm sick and tired of puking all the time and having all the crap in my head that just won't go. He said yes.

We're getting a second chance *smiles*
We are taking things slow for now, and going to see what happens. He's gone home tonight (and texted when he said he would, so that's a good start) and he said he'd stay round Friday, so we can spend time together. It's his big birthday thing on Sunday, and I said I'm not going, as I don't want to cause him or anyone else any hassle (both agreed as a good idea) But I will still text him, and pick him up a card tomorrow for Tuesday.

I'm sat here nearly crying, except this time, it's because I'm happy. I've been given a second chance. And yes, right now, I don't love him, I did, but it went because I got so sick of seeing him destroy himself constantly. And I could love him again.

Tomorrow morning, first thing (830am) is the GPs. I need ot go in and tell them things are getting bad, the eating is at its worst and I desperately need help. Big day for me....wish me luck!