Ok, it starts here

williamD1964

Off to work soon. Have done the weeding in the garden, watered the plants and am just about to make my sanwiches.

The repercussions will happen, and they will be extreme. People will die, and the cycle of death and blame and vengence will continue ad infinitum. People say that if we abolished religion it will stop, but man is man, and we would still find things to murder each other for, be it land, greed, envy or just sheer brutality or wanton hatred. My children, like those before them will know war, famine, want and hatred. All I can do is try to protect them, educate them and hope, hope that they will not spread the hatred.

I will be vigilant, but I will not be cowed. I will be alert but not afraid. Life will go on and I will do what is neccessary.

Tonight will be busy. I will do all my paperwork and llook at the accounts. Now THATis going to be scary!

savingwannabe

Have a good day William. I will pray. I can't believe anyone would be stupid to do anything bad to our country. We live in the best country in the world I dont know a single person that agrees with anything Bin Laden did on 9/11. He murdered people of all religions and beleifs. He is meeting his maker now. Another despot gone. Please try not to worry.

williamD1964

Afternoon all. A beautiful sunny day, and the world looks a nice place for once. Tonight will be the night I look at my accounts thoroughly and sit down and decide what I should do.

These last few months have taught me a lot, but they have reminded me what I already knew but chose to ignore. Family is all, life is for living, and concentrate on what you can change.

I have set myself a £20 challenge. Payday is 14 days away. I want to see if I can make it to payday with £5 left in my pocket.

The garden is looking amazing, and the plants and veg are doing well. Once I have worked out the accounts I will look money to make money from.

I have been hiding the past few months. I have hidden and used the circumstances to no consentrate on the finances. This is will stop now.

Let go to work people, I have a hill to climb, and I am starting at the bottom again.

Today, I will not waste time with Jealousy. I will remember that sometimes I will be ahead, and sometimes I will be behind, but I will recognise that the race is long, and in the end its only with myself.

savingwannabe

I am glad you are looking at your finances Mr W but please dont be so hard on yourself. I think you should be congratulated for coping with all the nasty stress work caused you and for having the foresight to carry on with your battle with such renewed vigour.

I have been reading Firewalker's thread. It is so inspiring. I will look at the Matrix when the summer happens and work has quietened down and I will start thinking of way's to move on financially too. It is so exciting. We have wonderful things to look forward to. I love what Pickle, Memory Girl and Daff did with the cheques. How inspiring is that?

williamD1964

Hi all, I am sorry I havent been as regular as I should have been, but lots happening here, some good some not so good. Loads to catch up on, but can do !!!!!! all about it at the moment.

Still clean, still struggling, still breathing in and out.

Be strong people. Will promise a big update tomorrow. Hope all are well. Mrs FW-where ARE my pics you promised!!!!!!

Firewalker

All in good time, William. Good to hear from you though - focus on the good; if there is nothing you can do about the rest put it to one side.

Keep well
Firewalker

williamD1964

Good afternoon all.

Here is the news...

It has been a rough few months what with work, the suspension, the stress, and then the business with the family needing finances that we could ill afford. Unfortunately, this has taken another hit. My father in law who is recovering from surgery took a bad turn. So, my wife is now in the caribbean for a few eeks to act as nurse, I have had to take a weeks leave to organise a few other things as well as child care for the kids while at work. A lot of shuffling of shifts and favours being clawed back from colleagues but have managed mostly. Kids are missing their mum, but we are all pulling together.

This week will seriously look at the finances. They have taken a hug hit recently. I feel I have taken one step forward and two steps back. Once |I get al the information together I will re snowball the bloody lot and start again. Ho hum!

I have a new project that I hope will get me back on my level terms.

Kids are a handful, but will survive. Daughter and son asked if they could suprise mummy and learn to ride their bikes without stabilisers. So all week after school its been an hour at the park teaching them and practice. Just uploaded a video to send wife showing them both racing round the park like lunatics and my daughter trying to pull a wheelie!!!!

Right dinner to do and then washing and ironing school clothes ready for monday.

POSITIVE_AND_FOCUSED

Hi William, just come accross your diary. Love your signature, I think we often forget to be proud of ourselves, believe and have faith in what we look to achieve. Keep going! Well done so far!

Firewalker

William, sorry to hear about your FIL and wife being away. Thinking of you and do not doubt that you will manage. Twinnies will be well looked after and cared for - and you get on with the side line and get the negative wealth down. Keep calm and carry on - gosh, I am going native:rotfl:.

Firewalker

williamD1964

FW, you make me smile - Ok, daughter has had a bad dream, so woke my son up, who decided to wake me up. So, instead of allowing them to sleep in mum and dads bed, we are having hot chocolate, cookies and watching cartoons on the sofa. My daughter is fighting, but she is almost asleep. My son is curled up smiling like a cheshire cat, as he knows mum would not have done this!

Am back to work on monday, late shifts, so family and friends will be picking the kids up from school and doing their dinner. and putting them to bed. I have devised a plan to keep them under control. I have told my son knows that he is in charge of his sister, and my daughter that she is in charge of my son! This way they regulate each other because he wont be naughty and do anything that she will tell me about and she wont be naughty and do anything that he can tell me about!

Night all.