Please advise - it's all gone SO wrong

miggy

They really came up trumps!
I am delighted to see you're still talking to us - thought you might come over all grand now you've got your new friends
Seriously - brilliant. And if you want a ghost writer (not that you need one) for your book about it (and I bet it would sell!) I think I'm second in the queue

Poosmate

Yay! Congratulations Mike, I am so so pleased for you.

I don't know what else to say apart from look after yourself, over the last couple of weeks you've gone from the depths of despair to the heights of euphoria. I really hope we will all be able to help you through the next few weeks as they settle back to some degree of normality, the "high" won't last forever but just remember "normality" is not going to be half as bad as the normal you were used to the day you started this thread.

We're all routing for you, we all care about you and we're all nosey. Er...... I mean ....... interested, yes that's what I mean!

I do agree with Saxysarah, that maybe a couple of days away from it all (and I mean ALL) could be good for you, just please let us know that you're taking time out (and where you're going, and who with, and what you'll be doing, and where you'll be staying, and how much it costs, and what you are eating, and what time you'll be back, what you're wearing, where you'll be at any given time, etc. etc.). Like I said, only because we're interested.

Love and best wishes,

Poo

And that's when I don't know what else to say! lol

saxysarah

Poosmate wrote: »

Yay! Congratulations Mike, I am so so pleased for you.


We're all routing for you, we all care about you and we're all nosey. Er...... I mean ....... interested, yes that's what I mean!

I do agree with Saxysarah, that maybe a couple of days away from it all (and I mean ALL) could be good for you, just please let us know that you're taking time out (and where you're going, and who with, and what you'll be doing, and where you'll be staying, and how much it costs, and what you are eating, and what time you'll be back, what you're wearing, where you'll be at any given time, etc. etc.). Like I said, only because we're interested.

Love and best wishes,

Poo

And that's when I don't know what else to say! lol

Lol love it Poosmate :rotfl:my exact sentiments don't disappear of the face of the earth but yes def time out ;-) xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Excellent news all round Mike

very happy for you and really hope you have good weekend (and as Poosmate said do check in !!XXX)

Hugs

Buffyxxx

planning_ahead_2

Fantastic news......can't wait to watch the programme (finally get to see what you really look like!).....no more images of Lisa in my head....now it will be Mike

never-in-doubt

Well done Mike - not been here since page 1 - and since you were a hot bird called Lisa.... (i'm the original respondee who asked Martin to post for you lol).....

Lots happened since - wow. Impressive.

I'm glad to see you're getting things sorted and my original offer to make the builder vanish still stands mate - :rotfl::rotfl:

Looking forward, as everyone else is, to seeing you on the One Show mate.

lisawaters

Good morning!

Just a quick word to say Hi. I feel a bit weird!

I didn't move the furniture, I rang two people last night then took my shoes off and laid on the bed. And then it was 9.27 and light which seemed wrong - light at that time of night?

Then I realised it as the morning, and I'd slept for 12 hours straight. I never do that. I can't. Everything was just as it was last night. All the lights were on, the boiler was on all night. I have such a sore throat!

So I have made a coffee and am sitting here feeling like I took a few sleeping pills. I am really out of it. Maybe I needed some sleep...

I've read a few PMs and I've seen the fab posts people left. I feel so 'out of it' I can't explain. Who are they talking about? I might feel like this if I'd won the lotto jackpot. Maybe I did in a way. There's some stuff here from that bloke off the telly, the familiar face. Watched him in dozens of property and consumer shows. He must have been here... I think I took him to the station. How weird is that. I'm not someone who mingles with the stars. I left a line-up once because I'd have to shake hands with someone really well known. I couldn't do it. I'm happy arranging these events but can't take part in them. I don't want to see myself on the screen, looking out of place. I stay in the background.

God, I remember being questioned by him, over and over, in different places in the house. Trying to remember what the producer wanted me to talk about. Using a brain that hasn't worked properly for months. The brain with severe clinical depression. Working on three cylinders not four. Where did that ability to concentrate come from? Making four or five cups of coffee, when I only ever make one because it's just me. The furniture all over the place as they left it. Wrong, like my little world was entered, changed around and flung back roughly where it was. And tidy! Who put all those piles of change and bits of wire, books, piles of crap, and who wiped the surfaces before they came? Was I on autopilot? How long did that take me? I haven't been able to do all that for months and months.

I have the biggest hangover I've ever had. But no pain or headache. Just a feeling of being wrapped in a blanket or something. I haven't drunk for a couple of years. Gave that up one day and found I didn't even like it. So different from making sure there was enough booze for the evening. Not bottles of vodka or anything, maybe a few cans of beer. Five cans, in case. Not alcoholic, just a habit. A way of showing I could control something in my life. Like people cut themselves... strange in someone who doesn't understand people who do things like that. Yet I did, in my own little, painless way. Someone said in a PM to me last night they had seen how they had a problem through reading about mine. I'm not an inspiration to anyone! Me?! "You wouldn't like me if you really knew me!" That phrase I believed all my life, since being a teenager. Must have affected me somehow, changed the way I made decisions. Limited what I could and wouldn't try, the bad decisions I made. This isn't about builders really, is it?

God I feel weird. It's like I've been asleep for 10 years. I've checked the date on the PC to make sure it's not Sunday - or Monday, or 2011. I wouldn't be surprised if I had slept for 10 years. I feel like it.

This coffee's gorgeous. Best I've ever made. It's starting to pull back the curtains in my mind to let the sunshine in. It's a nice day. I'm just not sure what day it is. OK It's still Saturday. Checked again. I'm seeing someone later. Better ring them. But I can't yet. Another cup of coffee needed.

I won't read this back. Won't correct the typos or see if I can polish the words. I'm a bit scared of reading what I wrote. I expect it's all bollox. I'll log in later and read it. I can still delete ir=t or change it then.

There must be things I have to do? Can't even remember. It doesn't seem to matter.

planning_ahead_2

Morning Mike

Don't delete last post - it makes total (weird) sense.

The sleep was clearly much needed after the euphoria that got you through the day yesterday.

Just to confirm it really is SATURDAY 6 MARCH 2010 - you haven't missed anything much...just a few hours. It is normal to sleep like that (not for you lately, but hopefully something you will soon get used to again!)

Take care and have a good day.

SouthernBellE*

Good morning sunshine!!

I'm not surprised you slept right through & yes you must of needed it!

It's nice to be so busy that the depression slips to the back of your mind instead of ruling how you run your day.

You sound very emotional and bemused by recent events this morning!

Have that coffee, meet your friend and TRY to chill out this weekend. Nothing more can be done yet so relax and try to enjoy yourself.

Best wishes, as always. x

lisawaters

Thanks... for everything.

Hey look...

http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/purdiecomms/FilmingMarch52010?feat=directlink

I can't have hired them all to come and look like they were making a film. So it must have happened.

x