Freezing Friday 8th Jan Daily Chat

Wannabefree_2

spud30 wrote: »

He likes the warmth of the lappy, so yes I type like this a lot. I just end up with a bad neck, trying to see the keyboard over him :rolleyes:

It's scary thinking about what could've been isnt it. I worked out that I was drinking 88 syns of Baileys a night over Christmas :eek:

Don`t blame him going for the warmth, i`m trying to type with my other half lening on my right arm!

Christmas is over now so just draw a line under that & start again looking forward, onwards & upwards, its just so damn hard sometimes i know a lose my way & just think oh sod it & have a major blow out, hey were only human & not built to be good all the time
xx

spud30

Wannabefree wrote: »

Don`t blame him going for the warmth, i`m trying to type with my other half lening on my right arm!

Christmas is over now so just draw a line under that & start again looking forward, onwards & upwards, its just so damn hard sometimes i know a lose my way & just think oh sod it & have a major blow out, hey were only human & not built to be good all the time
xx

Thanks hun. i always feel such a failure after a bad day, but you're right. One bad day doesnt mean complete failure does it, tomorrow is a whole new day.

SuzySu

Well that's me pooped! Nighty night all - DD1 wants me to go to London with her to see what's left in the sales, so probably won't be on here until later tomorrow evening.

Hope everyone has a safe day. It's meant to be bitterly cold tomorrow. Wrap up warm.

scaredy_cat

i can't wait til the winter olympics starts!!

Wannabefree_2

Thats the way to think, you will get there eventually & we`ll all be behind you, just like you`ll be behind everybody them. Together we can be a brilliant support group, have you got a phone buddy that you could ring/text when you feel a wobble coming on?

xx

spud30

Wannabefree wrote: »

Thats the way to think, you will get there eventually & we`ll all be behind you, just like you`ll be behind everybody them. Together we can be a brilliant support group, have you got a phone buddy that you could ring/text when you feel a wobble coming on?

xx

Well, we're doing this as a family, so we will support each other. My kids are very determined at the moment. DH is our weak one, and he's the one who needs to lose it most. We'll all get there

elfen

I had one drink down the pub, shame the same can't be said for Pint. Sometimes he's just an embarassment, sometimes he's a liability.

scaredy_cat

elfen, do you need to talk?

Buffythedebtslayer

Just dropping by to say hugs to Elfen if needed xxx
and Good night
and Keanu Reeves is utterly gorgeous and Sexy.

xxxx

elfen

Ta Buffy. And scaredy, I think it might help.

Went down pub, same as usual. But it's just humiliating to think my boyfriend prizes how much he can drink over me. Yeah, he's agreed to come searching for big cushions for the bed with me as he gets a cold back (and I don't - I'm freak woman or something) He's embarassing when he's talking to other people and I know they can smell disturbingly high amounts of alcohol on it - in jest I think he said he's pretty much a borderline alky, and am wuite scared. Thing is, he doesn't seem to see there's a problem, but there is. He's a liability as he doesn't know his own strength when drunk and usually ends up hurting me at least once unintentionally - but it still hurts y'know. Like he was holding his darts, thinking they were just on my back - no, the tips were digging into my back so I belted him one for stabbing me. I'm doing the healthy eating when he said he would too, and he hasn't. He said he'd spend Tuesday evenings in with me, but he doesn't and still seems to think 2-3 hours a day is enough with me. I don't know what's wrong with him. I try and tell him but he gets angry or annoyed, even if I'm being calm.

I love him, I want to be with him as we do have fun and I am starting to feel better about me (only a little but that's a start right) and I am proud of him, especially when he talks of going self-employed but there's the little voice in my head when he talks of it saying he wouldn't sort it out properly. He's always more willing to do stuff for his friends or extra jobs, and still designates more than one night a week a lads night (monday is darts, and fridays is just a lets-see-how-much-we-can-drink-before-we-fall-over) I'm sick of the alcohol, I'm sick of how his mates come first, I'm sick and tired of me knowing I have stuff to do but then he has the cheek to get uppity if I'm doing my readings for uni and not focusing all my attention on him.

'm just bloody stuck and frustated and annoyed. If I could go away this weekend, I would