panias pretty perfect pages of positiveness and proactivity

In_my_dreams

Oooh how exciting about the date, good timing with the ex as well. Hope the crutches don't prove too much of a pain although I could do with some today I think!

pania

Oooh dear are you feeling a bit achey hon!! its all that running you are doing!! (not jealous not jealous not jealous!!)

Yep the date certainly got the ex outta my head although he has been texting me today too, no idea whats got into him but i'd really rather he didn't. Have received my pay slip today so can sit down tonight and have a fiddle with the SOA calc. its going to be a very very tight month but I can see light and the end of the tunnel and it will only go upwards from here.

redsquirrel80

Ooh lots of dating going on - sounds good Sounds like the ebaying is going well too!

taxi73

The date sounds fab....go you.

Lemon_Tree

glad the date went well, maybe that's why the ex has been in touch so much. I got my payslip as well today so i'm with you on the sorting all the numbers out

pania

QUESTION TO SOMEONE WHO HAS ADMITTED, ONCE AGAIN, TO READING MY DIARY AND THEREFORE PREVENTING ME FROM POSTING.....

YOU WALKED AWAY FROM ME REMEMBER, SO WHY DO YOU CARE??? :mad:

to everyone else, Pania is going to lurk from now on and post occasionally when the need arises. Will still be here with my lovely friends, both virtual and human that I have made throughout the years. and dropping in with the od butt kick here and there where needed!! xxx

taxi73

I am sorry to read this Pania.
Please can you maybe try emailing Martin and change your user name and just pm the new one and then that person can't know it's you.
You like doing your diary ...I've seen you write that it helps you somewhere.

pania

I may try taxi, thank you for that. the stupid thing isthat this is my support network here, I have many many real life friends that i chat to here that have been there for me constantly, bun, hypno and doodle to name but a very very small few. Along with a ll the virtual friends that have offered support on many occasions throughout the last few years also. My diary does help. its started to keep me on the straight and narrow again after my disasterous year last year, it provides me with a point of contact as i am so isolated from so many people. it feels like my privacy has been invaded and i know its an internet site and anyone can read it but the person has no other use for this site, never ever visits it other than specifically to read what i have put about my private life. To me this board is like alcoholics anonymous crossed with a sunday morning confessional. I need it to stop me plunging back into the murky world of overspending, vulnerability and gullibleness i have previously displayed. I also shouldnt need to censor what i am putting to such a massive degree as anyone who is trying to get DF and has to start the dating game again knows, dating is rather an expensive hooby and i should be able to put it here. I wonder how he would feel to have a support network removed that is so so needed.. Ah well.

taxi73

I really feel for you as I know it keeps you on the straight and narrow.You can't let him win though.
I'd either carry on under my own name ...letting him see that my life is not about him and hes had his chance
OR
Change user name but pm us lot and then he won't know its you....
Please don't let him win and stay strong x

Pippajo

I hope you get sorted. I know anybody can read the diaries etc, but if it is solely done so that person can then contact you about what you are doing etc then that is the stalking. Plain and simple and if it is leaving you feeling threatened report it to the police - I'm sure they wouldn't want a policeman on the doorstep.