depression

rose07

FG look here.....

http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/IMA/E91~Bear-Hug-Posters.jpg

http://www.riversongs.net/dreams/hanging.html

I just care huni xxx

stenny_2

Sazbo wrote:

Hiya Miro babe, hi everyone. Back home/here. Depressed, but hey, what else is new?! New Year, innit?! :rotfl: Will get organised sharpish. Love you all very much, Sazbombxxx

Gr8 to see u back saz, hope you had a good time!

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

FG look here.....

http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/IMA/E91~Bear-Hug-Posters.jpg

http://www.riversongs.net/dreams/hanging.html

I just care huni xxx

Hi rosie hun, lovely to hear from you and that you're shining:) Gives us all hope! You care about all of us and we appreciate that very, very much. Don't forget that hun ok? You've been fighting to get back where you belong, yet still you want to check in here and make sure we're all ok. Bless your heart for that hun.

Well, can hear the rain outside. Reckon I need to crash. Good night. Best make sure I leave extra milk out for Tiff by the catflap. Much love to you rosie, dearest brave hunnie, and everyone here. Sweet dreams, Sazzy xxxx

Sazbo

stenny wrote:

Gr8 to see u back saz, hope you had a good time!

Hiya stenny hun! :wave: Good to see you too! Yeah, was nice. Quiet. You ok hun? Sxx

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Hi rosie hun, lovely to hear from you and that you're shining:) Gives us all hope! You care about all of us and we appreciate that very, very much. Don't forget that hun ok? You've been fighting to get back where you belong, yet still you want to check in here and make sure we're all ok. Bless your heart for that hun.

Well, can hear the rain outside. Reckon I need to crash. Good night. Best make sure I leave extra milk out for Tiff by the catflap. Much love to you rosie, dearest brave hunnie, and everyone here. Sweet dreams, Sazzy xxxx

awww saz, nice to see you.

yep me doing ok at the moment x

of course i care bout you all, your like family to me, and family is important hun. Thanks hun, glad things are appreciated, im just not sure i say things right because of my dyslexia, also found out when i was in hospital that im anarexic, which is pants, along with some other things. but i have seen people soo bad and i am determined i aint going to go there, i have seen it all now and i mean that, that is why i want to be here for you all, you all have got me through this and i aint just gonna go, i am here for you all.

huni you are very special ok? love you hun, you and tiff and feelie, well alot of you here are like the family i never had. and we are all brave, not just me, we are fighters and will get there. i still have to take tablets and things but thats part of things now, just have to drag meself off outta bed, talking of which me off to bed now.

Yeah it raining here too, def extra milk for tiffy, and catflap is always open, , and a nice blanket, lol

sweet dreams saz and everyone xxx

Horasio

rose07 wrote:

Hi Everyone, Tiff, Feelinggood, CCstar, MC, Saz, Gillette, Ethel, Stenny, Miro, Elona, Geminilady, Blinky, ok think that all of you? lol are family building up here now. x

So how is everybody?

Did you have a good Christmas? I got a stocking, yes tiff i know im in my 20s, but santa exist no matter what you say!!! lol. I once heard him when i was young come in my room i was sooo sh*t scared lol.

So tiff how you doing? did you have a good birthday? and how are you coping?

I am in Edinburgh, and i have to say im prob the best i ever been, me shining oh soo bright. lol. It a lovely place. I realise being on the ward was good for me, but it brought alot of negative in me as well out of me, i felt awful there, and seeing people you care about going under when all you want to do is help them, well huni you know what i mean, dont ya?

but now i am strong hun. yep rosie back xxx, so you better be careful, check ya pm huni xxx

so saz how you doing? im being lazy btw and not read back yet, lol.so you back at work? is saz keepin an eye on our tiff? lol, milk milk, we need to keep that saucer full, lol

Hey feelie huni, think i been neglecting you since i been in the ward, aint i? remember our deal hun? sisters, i love you and will always, you are a strong thing at heart and i know you and everyone here will get there, something i learnt in the ward is we will all get there we just need a little help getting on that path to travel on in the right direction. Whats wrong huni? why you not going to trust anyone? has something happened? hope you ok huni xxxx


Elona, Geminilady, Ethel and Miro, hope you all ok? and keeping it real :cool: :rotfl:.

Stenny how ya doing?
ok silly question, i hope your chest infection clears up soon hun, and that you have a good new year too x

OK THIS IS ONE THING ROSIE WILL DRUM IN YA HEADS:rotfl:

I just want to say i hope the new year brings a little happiness for you all, i know it might be a silly thing to say here, but even just if there is something that can make us happy, for me its holly, my dog. what me trying to say is i know this time of year is hard for alot of us here, and sometimes starting a new year can seem, oh another year of feeling awful, and being in a decline. But one thing i want to say is, try and do what you need to do before the new year, and start a fresh, also i am here for all of you, my heart is open to you all, tiff, feelie, saz, gillette, all of you, you know you are all special, and will all have a place in my heart anyway.

If any of you need to talk anytime, i will always be here. PM me if anyone needs to talk xxxxxx

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:

Glad you are enjoying Edinburgh - it is lovely in winter - shame the weather forecast for Hogmanay isn't too good

Horasio

I am being very honest but loving to my husband and he seems to be responding well. Elona, you really gave me food for thought, sorry for the essay but it did help me clarify a few issues.

I am using this cold to get some relaxation. Our son has gone away for a few days and we have the house our way without worrying whether he is coming home or not.

((((Big hugs to everyone))))

FG - When you feel ready, we are here to listen and you can trust us!:)

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

I appreciate everything you are saying Rose - but I've got to do this Its nothing to do with you, I just am not happy with how things are. Its complicated, there are a lot of things that people don't know, and I don't want anyone to know. Getting close to people just leaves you open to hurt. Opening up is not an option for me any more.
I'm going to tackle this depression in the only way i can - ALONE. I am alone, always have been, always will be. I will not let anyone walk this road with me. I can't. I won't.

I understand, sometimes you need time out to work it out alone. We are here when you feel the need to talk again. So long as you take good care of yourself - we are all thinking of you:)

Tiff_2

Hi cc! :hello:
I'm sorry it's taken me a while to get to you angel.:o How are you? back hun.

CCStar wrote:

I have been away from the net since Christmas Eve, so have a lot to say - **essay warning**:D
lol :rotfl: - my posts should carry a health warning sometimes! lol

It was good to get away and seem mum and stepdad. Seem to sleep better there too or is it Bournemouth sea air? Had a nice lunch and sat around watching TV and DVDs when we got back from lunch. We all seemed to get on well and there were no rows. My mother did limit the booze tho, as she didn't want us to get too drunk, have a hangover the next day or us end up in a row. I had a fair bit of booze but our son wanted to keep drinking. It later transpired my husband was upset at not getting more booze and later slated my mother to me about it.
You probably slept better because you had some support for once angel - and you were away from the neighbours. Seems like everything got off to a good start.:T
That was so rude! It's her house - and booze - and she seems to have had good intentions in limiting it so that the house didn't turn into a re-make of Gladiator!

She was the mother and I guess we were all the children, so more equal and gave me a break. I backed her up re discipline when she told them off, I agreed with what she said, I would have stood up for them if I agreed with them, I judge on individual merits. I constantly feel undermined by my husband re our son's discipline, so it is pot kettle black if he didn't like me not backing him up.
You're right hun. Not many people would be so fair-minded - they'd just back their own family regardless, which is why so many families get torn apart at the holidays.

Two days was enough as it was quite cramped and people having to move bedrooms and not sleeping so well, which can cause friction if people are more tired. My mother is rather eccentric and I know what it is like staying with her (I would nuts if I had to live with her again!) but OK for two days.
I took her to the shops and she can be rather snappy to me in public which psses me off. But I think she enjoyed having the girly time and we had a natter.
That sounds great cc. Enjoy her eccentricity when you can hun.;) Why is she so snappy to you in public? Could it be the crowds? Or is that as with some parents, you'll always be her little girl and she hasn't grown up with you? Some people find it hard to see their children grow into adults, becoming independant - it can be scarey for them. In the end, it sounds like you both enjoyed some girly time - you deserve it!:T

Of course when we met up, they got at me. My husband changed the arrangement without telling me and they were both vile to me. All I wanted was some consideration as to how I felt and an apology, as they changed the meeting arrangements without telling me.
Again cc, that's not unreasonable to expect an apology hun. Do you struggle with crowds or strange places cc? Where was the concern for you being upset?!:rolleyes: You'd give that courtesy to a stranger, let alone someone you love.

They were adamant and didn't apologise. I didn't let it drop. We didn't make it loud or annoy others but felt very undermined by my husband. He needed to teach our son some manners but refused to. I was upset more by my son and then my husband at not supporting me. I do feel we are going to split in the new year but I am worried our son is picking up my husbands bad attitude. My mother noticed how horrible he was too without any prompting from me.

How often do we walk away just to keep the peace? DS is now reaching adulthood isn't he? I know you worry about him hun. It must be reassuring to know that you're not the only one who has noticed that they don't treat you very well. If DS was off with his own life, do you think DH and you could be happy?
Well angel, you survived the holidays and it's getting a step nearer to your New Year changes. Make sure that it's what you want angel - you are allowed to change your mind. And no consolation I know, but there are thousands of parents who think their child/children are driving them nuts - that's a child's job description!:D :rotfl:
At least you did have some positive time hun.:T Hope you're feeling better hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Miroslav

I'm away for the day with estranged family, so just a quick post.

'S' ran into her room and got all her knickers out to show me I didn't ask :rotfl:

I am not a knicker sniffer :rotfl:

'S' is due to come around and see in New Year with me and flatmate. By the time I return here tonight or tomorrow, you can guarantee she will have pulled out

Hope you are all well and have a peaceful Saturday

:wave: