depression

geminilady

rose07 wrote:

hello everyone

im backkkk lol

ok this is just a pit stop you will get the full version tomorrow, yep a rosie essay, mc remind me lol. memory like a siv, lol

ok first i wanna say thanks to everyone, yes everyone. hehe

then also just wanna say, tomorrow is my last day, i am being discharged. :j :beer: , party on eh? , no i am actually truly upset, and tomorrow will be sooo emotional i will miss everyone

its been a hard month or so, and tiff you will know what i mean.... the people i have met, are amazing everyone. some are soo ill.
I have been the creative one on the ward and i seem to bring a smile to the ward when i come in its rosie rosie, and when i leave eveyone says bye, you build up such a family, and get sooo close to people. xxxx

i will tell more tomorrow

rosies past her bedtime:rolleyes:

but tiff, feelinggood, gillette,, ccstar, mc, saz, elona gl, and anyone else i will talk to you all tomorrow, yep rollon the rosie essays know you all get the jist. love yas seeas tomorrow xxxxxxx

:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:

Glad your back Rosie,was wondering how you were doing,looking forward to your "essay" tommorrow.Night x

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

It is still early days and she seems to like you. Is there someone she does like and can't have?

I don't agree that you say you are not good enough for her, is she good enough for you?

I agree it must be frustrating for you that she isn't responding the way you would like in some areas.

If you need the money, perhaps take a little back, so she isn't short.

Well, it is early days, but when she says she hasn't found Mr Right etc etc, I pick up on it

There is no-one else she likes. She's a real moaner and doesn't really like hardly anyone.

Well, i'm not good enough for her because she doesn't think so. Is she good enough for me...........yes and no. Yes, because she's amazing and I really care about her.........no because most of the time she's not even aware of my needs or my feelings. It's not her fault It wouldn't work anyway, but i'm in a friendship, where I feel alot more than she does, plus she has a million more issues than me, and i'm severely damaged.

It is frustrating, then she chucks something else in. Last night, she was showing me her pictures on her phone and said she'd shown everyone me, and I said, "oh, did they all tell you I was ugly" and she embarassingly smiled and said "No, and you are DEFINITELY NOT ugly" and was all coy afterwards. She said it like I was some kind of hunk :rotfl: - I'm not!

She offered me £20 of the £45 she owed me and felt bad about that. It would have left her short.

To be honest, i've written the money off, as she's always short.

I just want to treat her right, not like all the guys before me have treated her, yet i'm probably making loads of mistakes. I always pay for everything, turn down her offers of paying and I walk her home, carry her bags, open doors etc for her, make sure she's alright all the time......I guess I don't have the X Factor she wants/needs

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

hello everyone

im backkkk lol

ok this is just a pit stop you will get the full version tomorrow, yep a rosie essay, mc remind me lol. memory like a siv, lol

ok first i wanna say thanks to everyone, yes everyone. hehe

then also just wanna say, tomorrow is my last day, i am being discharged. :j :beer: , party on eh? , no i am actually truly upset, and tomorrow will be sooo emotional i will miss everyone

its been a hard month or so, and tiff you will know what i mean.... the people i have met, are amazing everyone. some are soo ill.
I have been the creative one on the ward and i seem to bring a smile to the ward when i come in its rosie rosie, and when i leave eveyone says bye, you build up such a family, and get sooo close to people. xxxx

i will tell more tomorrow

rosies past her bedtime:rolleyes:

but tiff, feelinggood, gillette,, ccstar, mc, saz, elona gl, and anyone else i will talk to you all tomorrow, yep rollon the rosie essays know you all get the jist. love yas seeas tomorrow xxxxxxx

:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:

Rose :T :j

Now, i'll get the kettle on, ready for a cuppa for when your essay is uploaded

Nice to see you back home here

Miroslav

geminilady wrote:

Oi! Mr Miro,Of course you are good enough for her!stop putting yourself down.You must try not to be so pesamistic 99% of the evening went well! It could have gone a lot worse but you still have to find some negatives.It is very early days in your relationship and just because she happened to say she had not found mr right does not mean it could not be you.She just does not know it yet.She did say that she enjoyed being with you and had a great time.I wish someone would say that to me.As for you not being able to get a word in lol,at lest it shows she feals comfortable talking to you and as you see more of each other the balance will level out and you will be able to have your say.If she is in the same mood at christmas(fingers crossed) you might even be able to mention it in a jokey way "can i get a word in now please?"or something similar.Anyway from what i can see your night went really well plus she invited you in for a cup of tea so she must have wanted more of your company.Anyway not long till christmas,i hope the day goes as well as today for you and that you have a lovely time.

Well, I don't think I am. She's different to 25 year old's I have met. Yes, she comes with alot of baggage, yes she is hard work and yes it would probably never work, but i'd like the chance to prove that wrong. I'm used to no-one liking me enough to want to be with me, why should she or anyone else be different. Like one line in the film last night "I'm too nice, maybe that's my problem"

We had a great time, and I know it's early days, I just am crazy about her, especially when she's like last night. Her face lit up when we went into the cinema, she got her popcorn and was talking about Christmas, the sadness on her face when she was talking about bad things- I just wanted to hold her and make things better, the shyness when she was scared i'd hate her if she didn't pay me back, which I wouldn't, as I adore her. My flatmate pointed out that i'd done so much for her, and 'S' appreciates all of it, she tells me all the time

I don't mind her talking all the time, well 90% of the time. I mean, when she talked about bad things, I tried to use a few experiences of mine to show her I understood etc etc, but felt bad for talking about me, as the time she had a go at me, really got to me, and I feel bad for talking now

She did invite me in, kept apologising for everything, kept thanking me for the evening etc etc. Hugged me loads, kissed me, I kissed her (cheeks! - facial!) and I text her when I got home as she wanted to know I was safe. I thanked her for this, that and everything, and she text back thanking me and told me I was great etc etc.

So 99% was great, but the 1% that may have meant nothing, always gets to me, just because I wouldn't believe anyone could actually like me for me, and everything I hear that justifies that belief, I take in.

Hopefully Christmas Day will be good, hopefully one day she'll want me, but to be honest, i've a better chance with Britney, only for the first time since Britney came on the scene, she's 2nd choice, 'S' is now the one that I want

Oh well, I guess myself and geminilady will have to make do with each other

Miroslav

Blimey, when I go on, I really go on

I'm feeling really good about how last night went, but that small 1% makes me feel awful.

I've barely slept, up at 4.30, or at least awake.

Can't get 'S' out of my head. She is lovely.


Watching 'The Holiday', so many bits reminded me of myself, and alot of my situation with 'S', unknown to her.

I've never liked someone this much, without them liking me the same way back.....that sounds bad, but i've only really liked one person like this, and she loved me back.

I'm not saying I love 'S' that much yet, I am still confused, but these emotions are emotions I thought died when my partner did

Lifting the mood slightly.........

On Wednesday, flatmate and I were in a shop, when one of her friends noticed us - one of the many who fancy me right now (It's the fog!!!)

Anyway, they were talking about boring things, so as not to be rude and listen, I walked away slightly and looked at things on the shelf.

Her friend goes "I saw Miro first, before I saw you" - flatmate responds, then friend goes "Yeah, I saw the cute guy and had to come over"

I froze, pretending I didn't hear. I was so embarrased

Flatmate finds it highly amusing that 9 women, of which 4 are her friends - possibly 5, as I met another yesterday briefly who apparently said "positive things" about me, find me attractive :rotfl:

I find it highly amusing too

Oh well, another day to get through. I always feel like this after seeing 'S', I feel great in one way, depressed in another, knowing she'll never be my soul mate, if that's the right term. I accept the baggage, as long as she'd accept being treated like a princess.

She said "I always attract bad guys" I thought "I'm always attracted to people who don't like me"

That's enough for now, I talk too much - which is quite funny, as in real life, I don't talk much

blinky

Miro - as the others has said, just because she has said she hasn't met Mr Right doesn't mean it's not you.
You just have to be patient and wait. Love does grow over time, it's not always instant. With 'S' having issues it may take a sometime for her to recognise her feelings.

'R' has said to me that I am 'the one' and I have been honest with her and she knows I'm not totally certain she is 'the one' at the moment but I look forward to finding out.

rose - good to hear from you. Glad you're feeling better

As for me - full of this cold bug, ache all over, v. tired, horrible cough, chest feels like someones sitting on it. Worst of all I'm missing 'R' - she's not well either

Miroslav

blinky wrote:

Miro - as the others has said, just because she has said she hasn't met Mr Right doesn't mean it's not you.
You just have to be patient and wait. Love does grow over time, it's not always instant. With 'S' having issues it may take a sometime for her to recognise her feelings.

'R' has said to me that I am 'the one' and I have been honest with her and she knows I'm not totally certain she is 'the one' at the moment but I look forward to finding out.

rose - good to hear from you. Glad you're feeling better

As for me - full of this cold bug, ache all over, v. tired, horrible cough, chest feels like someones sitting on it. Worst of all I'm missing 'R' - she's not well either

Well, the chances of love are very very slim. I guess I can only be me, carry on being nice and hope.

It was easier having no emotions though.

Hope you get better soon and see 'R'

Horasio

geminilady wrote:

Oi! Mr Miro,Of course you are good enough for her!stop putting yourself down.You must try not to be so pesamistic 99% of the evening went well! It could have gone a lot worse but you still have to find some negatives.It is very early days in your relationship and just because she happened to say she had not found mr right does not mean it could not be you.She just does not know it yet.She did say that she enjoyed being with you and had a great time.I wish someone would say that to me.As for you not being able to get a word in lol,at lest it shows she feals comfortable talking to you and as you see more of each other the balance will level out and you will be able to have your say.If she is in the same mood at christmas(fingers crossed) you might even be able to mention it in a jokey way "can i get a word in now please?"or something similar.Anyway from what i can see your night went really well plus she invited you in for a cup of tea so she must have wanted more of your company.Anyway not long till christmas,i hope the day goes as well as today for you and that you have a lovely time.

Very true gemini:)

Horasio

Miroslav wrote:

Well, the chances of love are very very slim. I guess I can only be me, carry on being nice and hope.

It was easier having no emotions though.

Hope you get better soon and see 'R'

It sure would be good not to have high emotions

It is the best thing, just be you. If you put on an act, she wouldn't be wanting YOU!

Horasio

blinky wrote:

Miro - as the others has said, just because she has said she hasn't met Mr Right doesn't mean it's not you.
You just have to be patient and wait. Love does grow over time, it's not always instant. With 'S' having issues it may take a sometime for her to recognise her feelings.

'R' has said to me that I am 'the one' and I have been honest with her and she knows I'm not totally certain she is 'the one' at the moment but I look forward to finding out.

rose - good to hear from you. Glad you're feeling better

As for me - full of this cold bug, ache all over, v. tired, horrible cough, chest feels like someones sitting on it. Worst of all I'm missing 'R' - she's not well either

Sorry to hear you are still under the weather, it sounds to be really knocking the stuffing out of you. Hopefully it will clear up by Monday!

Very true about love needing time. We all change and things change.