depression

blinky

elona wrote:

blinky

You ARE worth it!!!!!!!:T

Be nice to yourself - you deserve it.

Ethel

No one means to shout at you pet, we are all just worried about you in case "the toddler" kicks off again. That means the BF by the way - not so much boy friend as B***** Fool!

Tiff
Big hug and Happy Christmas

Miro Good luck with S - you will need it!


Big hug to everyone- as I am old enough to be your mum it should not freak you out!

Thanks hun, I find it really hard to be good to myself.
Still don't think I deserve it

Thinking of you all

Miroslav

Well, less than 3 1/2 hours until the proposed meet with 'S' :eek:

I'm very nervous, as per usual, even more so today maybe, as it's the anniversary of her Mother passing

I'm hoping she will be okay, and at the very least, if she's upset, she can talk to me. F/m8 has said she has improved with me, since she thought she'd lost me after the argument 3 weeks ago....maybe she has, but i'm still very nervous, as I never know what girl is going to turn up

Today, my boundaries are even bigger. It doesn't mean that if she is rude or anything, I wouldn't expect an apology at some stage, but I would understand more.

I'm still not sure of my 100% true feelings for her, but I know if it is the 'L' word, it would be very very difficult to maintain a relationship with her. All I know is, I care about her alot and want to be there to support her and look out for her.

I'm kind of expecting a cancellation......I will be disappointed but understanding.

Not had another reply from the lady I e-mailed yet, I hope she hasn't done anything yet and gives 'S' the chance to see me today.

We are meant to be watching 'The Holiday' at the cinema, after meeting for a coffee first. I'll assess it as we go along. I'll be paying, especially on a day like today!

Flatmate seems to think that even though she is confused about me, she does appreciate all that I do for her, as she's always on the lookout for things I post in her post box and she always talks about them (and me!).

Flatmate said that if I had more belief in myself, i'd see that she clearly likes me

Sorry for talking about 'S' again. I get really nervous about 24 hours before i'm due to meet her, and it gets worse as time gets nearer to the meet.... 3.55 i'm going to be pooping myself

I could be very depressed by tonight if things turn out bad.......I don't want them too, I want her to be here on Xmas day!!!!

Hope you are all okay and that you are still fighting on and getting your horrible men out of your heads! I hope some of the chaps on here show that we are not all bad!

Miro :wave:

cifpower

Just back home from all the travel nightmare. Was visiting friends in Stratford and was stranded in Birmingham overnight as the flights were cancelled. I ended up walking round and round the departure lounge to get rid of the nervous energy. Had to spend £110 on a hotel room for one night becuase fog is "an act of God" apparently so Flybe accepted no responsibility.

Received a letter from DLA this morning and they have accepted my doctor's view for a re-assesment and am now receiving middle-rate care in top of lower rate mobility. Have spent all morning phoning Income Support and Housing Benefit to inform them of the change and trying to put through a travel insurance claim as well.

no rest for the wicked!

:rudolf:

geminilady

Miroslav wrote:

Well, less than 3 1/2 hours until the proposed meet with 'S' :eek:

I'm very nervous, as per usual, even more so today maybe, as it's the anniversary of her Mother passing

I'm hoping she will be okay, and at the very least, if she's upset, she can talk to me. F/m8 has said she has improved with me, since she thought she'd lost me after the argument 3 weeks ago....maybe she has, but i'm still very nervous, as I never know what girl is going to turn up

Today, my boundaries are even bigger. It doesn't mean that if she is rude or anything, I wouldn't expect an apology at some stage, but I would understand more.

I'm still not sure of my 100% true feelings for her, but I know if it is the 'L' word, it would be very very difficult to maintain a relationship with her. All I know is, I care about her alot and want to be there to support her and look out for her.

I'm kind of expecting a cancellation......I will be disappointed but understanding.

Not had another reply from the lady I e-mailed yet, I hope she hasn't done anything yet and gives 'S' the chance to see me today.

We are meant to be watching 'The Holiday' at the cinema, after meeting for a coffee first. I'll assess it as we go along. I'll be paying, especially on a day like today!

Flatmate seems to think that even though she is confused about me, she does appreciate all that I do for her, as she's always on the lookout for things I post in her post box and she always talks about them (and me!).

Flatmate said that if I had more belief in myself, i'd see that she clearly likes me

Sorry for talking about 'S' again. I get really nervous about 24 hours before i'm due to meet her, and it gets worse as time gets nearer to the meet.... 3.55 i'm going to be pooping myself

I could be very depressed by tonight if things turn out bad.......I don't want them too, I want her to be here on Xmas day!!!!

Hope you are all okay and that you are still fighting on and getting your horrible men out of your heads! I hope some of the chaps on here show that we are not all bad!

Miro :wave:

Don't apolagise for talking about "S" a lot of our depression is effected by our relationship problems.You only have to read the threads.I really hope today goes well and that "S" does come to visit on christmas day.Try no to be nervous,lol easier said than done but remember "s" will probally be much more nervous than you.As to getting the men out of our heads well that's easier said than done!"N" finishes work today untill the third so i will be getting very few texts if any.I know most will think he is just after a bit on the side but still think 4 yrs of texting is a lot of effort if he has no feelings for me,also he has said even if i don't want to meet again we will still be text friends,if sex was all he wanted i would never have heard from him again after our last meeting.I know people will think why not find someone who is single, i used to think that myself but now it has happened to me i realise we have no control over who we care care about.

Miroslav

elona wrote:

Miro Good luck with S - you will need it!

]Big hug to everyone- as I am old enough to be your mum it should not freak you out!

Thanks Elona, I will indeed need it, I always do

Shall we call you mummy then?

Miroslav

geminilady wrote:

Don't apolagise for talking about "S" a lot of our depression is effected by our relationship problems.You only have to read the threads.I really hope today goes well and that "S" does come to visit on christmas day.Try no to be nervous,lol easier said than done but remember "s" will probally be much more nervous than you.As to getting the men out of our heads well that's easier said than done!"N" finishes work today untill the third so i will be getting very few texts if any.I know most will think he is just after a bit on the side but still think 4 yrs of texting is a lot of effort if he has no feelings for me,also he has said even if i don't want to meet again we will still be text friends,if sex was all he wanted i would never have heard from him again after our last meeting.I know people will think why not find someone who is single, i used to think that myself but now it has happened to me i realise we have no control over who we care care about.

Well 2 hours, no cancellation yet.........very nervous though. Which of the 1324 personalities will show today Will I be a friend, enemy or stranger today

She may be nervous..........she shouldn't be though, i'm ever so nice to her

It's true, you can't choose who to care for. I'd say 4 years of texting wasn't someone after one thing........I can't think of many blokes after one thing who would wait 4 years

Hope you hear from 'N' soon

Horasio

I feel so tired. I can't get any time to relax to shake this cold off!

Done my credit card checking - spent £300 less than on a usual month and had RAC to pay as well. Food is still a bit high - £355 for 2/3 of us but I guess it is Christmas shopping. We spent £5-600 at this time of year in the past! This site has been helpful in saving money. I have been here a year at the end of December.

Prepared the roast for tonight - having roast beef which I smothered in French mustard and thyme, HM Yorkshires, stuffing with sesame seed topping and garlic, brocolli, sweetcorn and HM spiced red cabbage, roast spuds with paprika and HM gravy with port and cranberry jelly.

I lost an hour this morning. Woke up at 9 and thought it was 10 when I had a drifting sleep. It was 11. No problem but hate it when you think it is a certain time and it isn't.

Son has to move his packed boxes to his storeroom later and got to change the sheets on two double beds.

Panicking about our flight on Sunday with all this fog. We are going EasyJet to Gatwick and back to Edinburgh. We are quite near to Edinburgh airport but it will be a long drive to Bournemouth from Gatwick.

We can change the flight to New Year for a small charge but have paid our car hire and we are insured. We don't normally insure our domestic flights but have done this time.

I don't know why it is mostly BA who are cancelling.

This month has been so stressful with plans changing on me!

Horasio

blinky wrote:

Hi all,

Sorry I haven't been around much in the last day. I went to see 'R' last night and sorted a few things out. Neither of us were very well so we had a very early night last night (I was in bed by 9pm) and we was in bed most of the day ( we both called in sick to our respective work). And before anyone asks it wasn't that sort of early night so you at the back can stop sniggering.:eek:

Hope you haven't been worrying about me. I'm not worth it (honest)

Thank you for all the kind things which have been posted in the last day and for the PM's. . I don't deserve them though

I think I'm out of any imminent danger.

Still very tired. Need another earlier night.

Thinking of you all and once again thank you.

Paul

Look after yourself - it is a tiring week this week and today is the shortest day!

Horasio

cifpower wrote:

Just back home from all the travel nightmare. Was visiting friends in Stratford and was stranded in Birmingham overnight as the flights were cancelled. I ended up walking round and round the departure lounge to get rid of the nervous energy. Had to spend £110 on a hotel room for one night becuase fog is "an act of God" apparently so Flybe accepted no responsibility.

Received a letter from DLA this morning and they have accepted my doctor's view for a re-assesment and am now receiving middle-rate care in top of lower rate mobility. Have spent all morning phoning Income Support and Housing Benefit to inform them of the change and trying to put through a travel insurance claim as well.

no rest for the wicked!

:rudolf:

Excuse my manners - I did read your first post and welcome to the thread.:)

I feel for you about the flight - we are worried we will be stranded too. At least you are insured. That is the trouble with budget airlines - OK if there is no trouble.

I am glad things are moving on the DLA front.

Horasio

Miroslav wrote:

Thanks Elona, I will indeed need it, I always do

Shall we call you mummy then?

Unless elona is a pensioner, I'm old enough to be lot of people's mums on this board:eek:

It is so scary!